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stilltime i dont know if i want to forget or want to forgive myself in both cases one thing for sure that i am committed not to gamble, but how to get rid these feeling this is where i am struggling.

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Thanks kin for your valuable comments

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I am still regretting trying to forget the losses but its very hard at the moment.

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Day 20 gamble free no urges only regrets

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Day 19 Gamble Free

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Thanks guys i am determined not to gamble and attending GA meetings put blocks in place self excluded etc. Just struggling to forget the losses, otherwise i am ok no urges whatsoever

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Day 18 gf no urges only regrets

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Day 17 going very well gamble free i received my new debit card as i cancelled my existing card which was registered with all gambling sites.

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Been one week since my big loss, apart from playing once, i did not play anymore, been to ga meeting was good experience. The fight is on and will keep fighting.

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4th day could not control start playing again with anxiety and depression started with £20 and nearly lost all when only £7 left and thinking about quitting but could not and took the risk continue playing and ended up winning £3 more total £23 and withdraw the money. Not the good sign

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Hi Adam,

Thanks for your encouragement, i am glad you got over it after losing 20 grands you must have very strong will power. As i recently lost which is the biggest money i lost in one day in my life despite being very sensible while playing only occasionally , my mind just not accepting this loss. I arranged my counselling session hopefully a positive step for good

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Best thing to go to counselling this is what i arranged for myself

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Just try to forget the money which you lost this is what i am trying to do. I was also thinking same as you that i will gamble if i win i leave and will not gamble but , in back of my mind i always thinking until i lose badly i would not learn and finally it happened for good hopefully

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You are not alone pal i am going through same situation as yours and i know how hard it is. You have taken very brave step deleted all accounts and changed all log ins which is very positive thing. I am also trying to forget the money i lost but still struggling.

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