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Hey Kathryn,
got that dang computer fixed yet? Mine has been freezing for an hour here or there when the virus scan runs. It is getting so old and tired my poor PC. Miss you. Prayers and good vibes being sent your way.
Laurahi Bettie,
you working today? You must be aching all over. Holiday here in Canada. I’ve had a terrible weekend as well. Sore, sick, fighting with hubby. Been sleeping a lot. Not sure if I need it or if its a response. You are a good friend indeed Bettie. Don’t forget to take care of you. Anniversaries are hard. Missing a loved one must be extremely hard. Your dad would be proud of you B for all the strength and courage you’ve shown.
peace right back at you. XO
LauraGood morning Bettie,
lots of catching up for me to do. So sorry I missed you this morning, I had to step away from the pc for a few minutes. I caught up reading day before yesterday so now i get to post! I am learning patience whether i like it or not 🙂 So first off….
A great big fat Wohooooooooooooo!!!!! for nine months of recovery
I’m so glad you received all the words of wisdom and support that you have. God bless Larry as well for he always seems to know exactly what to say. To me abstinence is either holding on for dear life while not making any attempt to learn or grow or having a spell where the triggers may have abated enough for a person to sneak by with a little will power. Abstinence alone never lasts i don’t think. Your recovery has been about growth and understanding and change. Yes it ok for someone to give us feedback on how they think we are doing. But they need to check their delivery. So enough said on that topic from me!
I will say a prayer for certain Bettie, for your friend and for his daughter. You are a good soul Bettie and a good friend.
Have a great weekend hun, know that even when i miss you or can’t spend a lot of time here, you are in my thoughts.
xo LauraMorning B,
read quickly, have to get ready to go to the city paint shopping and then i will be the painting assistant. No painting for me unfortunately. Will catch up soon. Love ya!
LauraEnjoy Kathryn! My plans this morning include being a painting assistant! My lovely sister is coming to paint my bathroom for me god bless her. Have a happy Mother’s Day tomorrow. Miss ya.
LauraThey are a joy when we are clear headed enough to focus on them and enjoy them. Imagine you had just lost a bundle in the slots the day before he called. Man that would have been quite a different conversation for me anyway. The stress meter would have racheted up about ten notches and i would have been trying to figure out where to get the money from. Not to mention how i could manage to get enough to gamble too…. Maybe I could win enough for shoes…. wow, glad your conversation was as it should be K. Be proud!
Don’t work too hard this weekend.
lauraGood morning my glorious girl 🙂
You are exhausted and I am just starting my day. 7am as i write this. I’m so proud of you I’m absolutely beaming! Of all the rewards of being gamble free i think being able to be present for our loved ones, in their lives, in their day is the biggest gift of all. Can I come play in the castle too? lol Being able to be present in the day, and like you say, the days that led up to the party, otherwise there wouldn’t have been one like this, is really almost a miracle when we see where we came from. I’m happy to hear you have found a true mate at work. Friends are blessings. Well, I’d better get some work done on my finances, ick. Have a relaxing evening K.
xo LauraGood morning Larry,
stopping by as i have my morning coffee. I had been by your thread a couple days ago and was in the middle of a post when the site went down. I was able to copy it into word for another day 🙂 With my memory that is a good thing. I’m glad that the fear of relapse is fading and i know that you are anything but complacent. It is always a fine line we seem to walk. Much like a tight rope walker. Take care Larry.
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Hey Larry,
good to hear you and your loved ones are safe and sound. That invisible line…. I can never be "un CGed" I will always be one now. I have no idea where i heard this following statement… You can turn a cucumber into a pickle but you can’t turn a pickle into a cucumber lol It was in a CG recovery context. And it was like yep, guess thats me. A pickle now never to be a cucumber lol. Thank-you once again for taking the time to express your thoughts and provoke ours. Have a happy gamble free day.
Laura
Good morning miss Bettie
seems i have been missing you lately too. Wish i could be wise and inspirational but I haven’t finished my first coffee yet lol. I have lots of half formed or maybe half baked thoughts swirling round in my head about friendships, triggers, complacency. I think lonliness is a big one, self pity for sure, and oh the tinge of jealousy, another good one. The great thing is you continue to explore these things as part of our recovery and I believe that awareness is a big part of living life gamble free. Thanks for sharing your journey and your awareness as always. Miss ya lots.
xo LauraHi Bettie,
sorry I missed you this morning. I was up really early and had gone to bed really early last night. I used to have a schedule, now it just seems like I’m all over the place. I struggled hard with those same questions about GA. I nearly made myself sick thinking that I had broken the GA rules. I decided that I had had great sucess with GA and the support of the group and meetings. And i needed the strength that you get from knowing that the group is always there. And they have been where your were. 18 months ago I was pouring money into the slots like I had a mature money tree in the back yard. It is something that can be debated I’m sure. All I can say is I roll up my rim. I haven’t developed a coffee cup buying problem and I still drink my one timmies a day. Fellow Canucks will understand the last couple sentences lol. But if it looks like it could lead me back to gambling hell I’d bring my own cup to the drive through.
I’m a little insecure myself B and who am I to say. When FWB laughs is it at you? I would hate to think how someone like that would make you feel if you were together full time. Is that who you would be willing to settle for?
I love ya B and you can see that you touch those who know you here. I’m sure things will work out. No one who gets to know the real you would move away from your friendship. Not if they use a big heart as a requirement.
Keep working through the darkness. The light will shine.
((( Bettie )))
LauraDear dear Larry,
I am so happy for your achievement and truly proud of the kind soul that you are. Congratulations on your now 20 months plus. You are doing a tremendous job of building a new balanced life in the aftermath of this terrible addiction. Great that you were able to bump into a few of the old fellas and listen to some good music. The warmth must have felt like heaven after the terrible winter we’ve had. I too am glad that your ashes will be destined for a more peaceful resting site. I apoligize my friend for not being here for you when you were going through difficult emotions. Each day brings us new choices, each day you inspire in yourself and others the choice of being gamble free. I miss being able to chat and post for hours each day but know that you are in my thoughts when i come across a post here or there from you to others. And the coffee pot is always on, even if I’m not at home. Thanks for your posts and words of encouragement and empathy to us all.
have a very happy and very gamble free day 🙂
God bless Larry
LauraHi Kathryn,
checking in, I haven’t been doing much reading or posting, if i get an hour or so in chat i’m usually doing good these days. I’m so happy to hear about the medication having a positive affect as it can be such a big choice to make. I’m thinking about you this morning. You know i’m never too far away.
LauraHey Bettie,
checkin in with you this morning, I haven’t been around for a few days. Look at all you have accomplished in you last couple of posts. You may have been tired but you had good reason. And, spending a little money on yourself in a wise way. Getting the nails done might not be quite the "high" of gambling, but man it feels a lot better the morning after! Work day for me today. The accountant is home and has been driving me crazy, but to be fair I need to not not let it get to me like I do. Have a great day B, and 48 is still a spring chicken!
LauraHi Kathryn,
i’m up early having coffee before work. I got myself mostly ready and organized figuring I’d take part in your group this morning. But seems it’s not at a time I can go. Has that changed? Anyway my friend, will just send you best wishes for your evening.
take care,
LauraHi K,
checking in on you. I can only imagine what it would be like to lose a sister. I am positive that with the close bond us sisters have, that they still hear our messages from the heart . And I truly hope that it has lifted a burden I know you must have been carrying around all these years.
Hope everything went positively with Bailey’s appointment, yesterday now for you I guess. Friday for you now, you are on your home stretch to the weekend! Work for me tomorrow, yes still only Thursday night for me. But then thank heaven the weekend will be here.
Stay strong my girl, your sister would be VERY proud of you.
luv Laura