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  • in reply to: GOODBYE CATHIE #24007
    finding_laura
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    Dear Cathie,

    you were a kind caring supportive voice for many people over the years, myself included. Once through the crisis stages you helped a person feel grounded in more normal activities and life. Thank you so much for being there for us and making us feel like this was more than a job for you. All the best with your future endeavors! May your family be blessed, your roof be extra strong and the ground remain quiet beneath your feet! Take care Cathie!!!

    in reply to: THE THREAD OF POSITIVITY #20420
    finding_laura
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    I have the best sister in the world
    I have been gamble free nearly 4 years
    I am surrounded by natural beauty every day of the year
    I am loved ๐Ÿ™‚

    in reply to: Continuing the Journey #20672
    finding_laura
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    to say I’m doing ok. Looks like my mood may not have changed though. Thinking a trip to my doctor to up my anti depressant may be in order. I have an important project to finish up at work over the next two to three weeks. If I’m not feeling any better by then I’m going to ask for some time off of work. I just feel worn out and overloaded. Dumping my doom and gloom here because I need some place to vent. And some place where I can say this is causing urges. I need a couple of meetings in a row I think. Time to get back to the program. Hope you all are having a much better week than I. Although I will say so far it’s been gamble free. take care all,
    Laura

    in reply to: The World Breaks Everyone #9143
    finding_laura
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    Dear Sirena,
    your journey to date has taken tremendous courage and I admire you for that. To take responsibility for our actions going forward is a turning point. You stopped yourself from continuing to take advantage of your employer. You owned up to those in your life who can support you in your recovery and who will perhaps know if something isn’t “right” again. You are owning this illness/addiction/compulsion. Thank you so much for putting your journey into detail for others to learn from and to know they are not alone in this. I don’t know if your career including writing in the past but it would seem you are extremely good at it. so thank-you again for sharing your gift. Stay strong and keep working recovery. Glad you found this place. Laura

    in reply to: the new begining .. part 2 #23989
    finding_laura
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    Hi Sunny, good to see you start a new thread for the next part of your recovery.
    I think they call that testing Sunny. Where we almost want to try and see if maybe we can gamble normally again. Like maybe now that the blood isn’t boiling with the fever of gambling and we are thinking like a rational human being we could gamble just a little. But very quickly we learn that the illness/addiction is still in us. Just sleeping. And once it is awoken by that first bet it comes back hungrier than ever. So the good news is that you have now experienced this and know that the illness/addiction is always going to be there waiting for you to give it an opportunity. Good that it hasn’t affected your chance to own a home. Good that you know you need to keep your recovery tools in place and sharpened. Vera is so right, make sure you have barriers in place to protect any saving you are doing. Savings have been blown before, it’s like a recovering drug addict walking around with a pocket full of drugs. Now you know so much more the effects of savings and maybe complacency on a recovering CG. Congratulations on all of your recovery days. The good thing is they are a habit you will remember. Nothing takes them away. Stay strong, you can do this.
    Laura

    in reply to: Continuing the Journey #20668
    finding_laura
    Participant

    Hey B, got your message, sorry I’ve been incommunicado! Just being forgetful. Hope you have a great time camping. Do you have company too? Have fun!

    in reply to: The journey of change #20458
    finding_laura
    Participant

    Good morning P, evening for you. I’ m having a coffee, logged into chat this morning. It seems from you last post that things have changed for you or shifted perspective. That knowing that you can never gamble again. What is the point? If you/me/any CG put that first bill or coin in it is going to rip open those old wounds. Quickly we make up for lost time and spiral out of control again. I think you are like me in a lot of ways, a very sensitive person. It’s almost like we feel too much. Or maybe others don’t feel enough and we are just fine ๐Ÿ™‚ So don’t be too hard on yourself, see if you can get that movie in soon. And you are so right, baby steps. And sometimes the biggest step is to just hold on for a bit and not lose any ground. Hope to catch you around on chat one of these days. Drop me an email to let me know what times you may be around this weekend and I’ll try and catch you. I have to sign off for a bit but I’m hoping to be back again shortly. Take care sweet pea!

    in reply to: The journey of change #20456
    finding_laura
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    having a coffee this morning before I take my dog to the vet. It seems somehow i don’t have a whole lot of me time. There are always errands and chores that need to be taken care of. Glad to see you are feeling a new sense of peace. I think our loved ones do look down on us. To this day I am sure my guardian angel or a loved one from the other side sent me a message on the day that I released my secret to my close family. I will never forget that feeling that there is so much more to life than what we see. Take care of yourself xo Laura

    in reply to: The journey of change #20454
    finding_laura
    Participant

    Hi P,
    I’ve missed your posting spree and now you have gone quiet. I hope you are handling the family dissapointment ok. It’s hard to be let down by our family ๐Ÿ™ In the end we have to make a choice to save ourselves, regardless of family members. You are worth having a gamble free life. Those that depend on you deserve it as well. You can do this P! Please let us know how you are, Laura xo

    in reply to: BELIEVE (new thread) #23733
    finding_laura
    Participant

    Hey Kathryn, I’m always just a type written line or phone call away. Don’t wait too long to get the support you need. Even if it means taking a sickie. take care xo Laura

    in reply to: Continuing the Journey #20665
    finding_laura
    Participant

    Thank you all for the posts. I’ve been trying to stay really positive but had a dark week last week. My trigger always seems to be relationship issues or not being happy with myself (that can always be for many different reasons). Last week I was having a lot of urges or longings I’ll say. To just release everything seemed like a good thing to do. Thankfully it would take a lot of effort for me to gamble and I never made the effort it would take. I keep dreaming of slipping away for a day with a fist full of cash. It would never come to a good end. I KNOW this from past experience. Funny how I have such an idea that gambling is fun when it nearly destroyed my life and me. So I’m off to work today, where I am kept out of trouble for another day.

    Kathryn, I so look forward to that day ๐Ÿ™‚ It would be amazing! Would love to have you here!

    Now for a coffee refill and a few minutes of reading before i finish getting ready for work.

    take care everyone, have a great gamble free day,
    Laura

    in reply to: BELIEVE (new thread) #23729
    finding_laura
    Participant

    Good morning K, sorry I missed you ๐Ÿ™ I tried to access the group chat this morning but it doesn’t seem to be working or on. Stress sure does trigger some old thoughts, old thoughts of getting away to deal with the pressure. When I start having those thoughts regularly I know I have to deal with what is bothering me. I think Vera hit the nail on the head when she talks of the different emotions family members go through when having to deal with the effects of Alzheimers on our family members. And boy emotions are the great trigger. Definitely reach out to established groups for support. It is a long journey and the family needs to take care of themselves through out. I hope things work out with your sister. I’m thinking of you xo Laura

    in reply to: THE FORUM WORKS FINE IF YOU START A NEW THREAD #20649
    finding_laura
    Participant

    Hey Bettie,

    Maybe they can splice them together? Email them…can’t hurt to ask…

    in reply to: HOW IS YOUR DAY GOING TODAY #20400
    finding_laura
    Participant

    Morning GT gang, popped by to see if chat was up and running….don’t think so yet. Sun is shining temps are warm, time to get out and enjoy. Have a great day.

    in reply to: HOW IS YOUR DAY GOING TODAY #20399
    finding_laura
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    hey gang, stopped by to see how things were going with the new site. Glad to see you post this thread P! Is the live chat or peer support groups available yet? I was looking for weekend unmod chat to say hello if anyone was around, having a quiet Saturday morning. Take care everyone, the bugs will get worked out!

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