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Sorry I’ve been neglectful, would you believe I’m renovating again? And I ask hubby to do it and he HATES it. So causing a lot of friction right now! He can be just awful. I also end up as assistant and even though I don’t do so much I’m terribly sore from it. Both my grown sons are living home while they complete university and college studies. And they have out grown their old spaces and I need a small home office. I did a lot of decluttering and sorting and moving stuff in the basement before we started. I’m also part of the process to calculate where things are going and my sons aren’t very good at that sort of thing! Kids these days! All this has meant I’ve been kept busy with no opportunities to gamble. Gamble free for a little spell but having a hard time getting back in the zone, the gamble free, not going there zone. The I am a great big CG zone. Groups never seem to be on at my time. I’m either preparing supper, just getting home from work or going to bed!
I’m taking today off. Mental Health day. Plus I had to take pain medication that is not appropriate to take and then drive.
Going to do some catching up and see how everyone is doing.
Thanks for the posts!
Laura

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welcome to the forum Raiiboii. Right now your addiction is totally in control and it feels almost impossible to resist the urge to gamble. We start thinking crazy thoughts when we lose a lot of money. About how to get that money back or replace it. It becomes a vicious cycle. Is there any support groups in your area? or free gambling addiction counselling? What about having a very close family member or friend hold money for you or give you an allowance? If we don’t have money, as miserable as we feel, we can’t be gambling. I hope you are able to find some resources to help you. Keep posting and reading! take care,
Laura

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sorry to hear of your plight Geordie, no one should ever have to go hungry. It’s hard when we’ve burnt all our bridges as well when it comes to asking people we know for a loan too. It truly is an insanity this gambling addiction and where we go with it. I hope you are able to get some help Geordie. Reach out to your support systems. Take care

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I agree! You look amazing! Sometimes we are never happy with our current accomplishments! We only look to the next thing we want “fixed” or changed. Be proud of what you have accomplished so far.

You say you are afraid of change but look at all the changes you have been through and you have only come out a better Kathryn.

The changes you made in your life when it came to gambling are impressive. Losing and keeping weight off is amazing! Your daughter married, your mom having to go into a home, change in jobs, change in lifestyle.

Sounds like there has been lots changed over the past 6 years and staying away from the gambling is the biggest and best. Hope you are having an amazing time at tennis. Well deserved reward! Laura

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thanks Kathryn for posting! I wasn’t sure if you spent much time here anymore or not. We are(were) definitely kindred spirits in recovery, coping with our gambling issues and our bad boys lol I have always been thrilled seeing you enjoy your gamble free life! And probably a little jealous too if honest lol. And as long as I’m being honest, I hate that my disabilities restricted me from jumping back into life with both feet as you did. Keep living life to the fullest Kathryn! I love your adventures! Thanks for letting me live vicariously through you lol and thanks for your support and friendship.
Laura

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so lovely to start off my 2016 with a post from you P. We truly are on a journey aren’t we? I have got to try and beat this again. Having my morning coffee. It will be a gamble free weekend. I usually don’t on weekends for fear of getting caught by someone who knows the devastation i caused before. Here’s to positive outcomes in 2016. Take care lovely P.

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thanks Maverick. Wishing the same for you in 2016, and of course a gamble free year! ODAAT of course 🙂

Laura

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thanks G! I’m afraid my slip is more than that. I’ve been “dabbling” since early last winter. Now it is a pattern that needs to be changed. Need to get back to gamble free ways. Before I really cause some damage. Hope the new year is being good to you.
laura

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unfortunately my barrier can’t come to work with me. Can’t say 2016 is still clean. Weekends are my safe time now. No gambling today!

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Happy New Year everyone. I’m thankful for your posts and will do some responding shortly. I’m in chat if anyone is around
Laura

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wishing a happy new year to everyone! Today is a new day in a new year. I will start 2016 clean. I made it through the Christmas holidays without a bet. Mostly due to barriers, especially the big one, my husband! Not much to say today, just glad my day has been planned and there will be no gambling in the mix. It always makes me feel like crap. We can change, I’ve done it. Just need to work harder, or smarter maybe. I’m thinking of scheduling some counselling in the new year. Maybe that would help me work out some of my feelings that make me want to gamble. Or maybe they are just an excuse my gamble brain is using. Either way, it won’t hurt.

Happy New Year everyone! There is always hope even when things are at there worst.

Laura

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think of you often P xo Happy New Year
Laura

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thanks so much Vera for your post. Very well put! Our gamble brains deceive! It’s just a bit of harmless fun… Ha! I should print your post and put it in my pocket. Very well done on a gamble free December Vera. It IS possible Vera. I had five of them in a row. 5 years and 3 months. It’s time for me to return to my abstinent ways. Life isn’t for wasting. Take care Vera! I see chat isn’t open for another hour and I’ll have to go out. Too bad it wasn’t open now. Talk later

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here today to read, check out chat for a while. Don’t feel like posting. I’m not out of control thankfully due to restricted funds but I can’t say I’ve been clean for very long. Currently have no desire or urge to gamble. I feel like a sh*t for once again deceiving people close to me. Lost a close friend to Cancer this week. Her physical being had suffered so tremendously but she kept a positive fighter outlook through out her battle. Feel blessed to have known her and know that she will look over me. No worries Liz, not preachy 🙂 thank-you for your post. Have a gamble free day everyone. Just for today I will not gamble. Not one bet, not one cent.

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