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Hi I did it,
Is it gamcare that I have seen posting? I don’t know if It’s because I’m struggling to function but I have a hard time keeping up in one spot. But when I was first in real recovery, in 2009, I used all the sites except gamcare. And I used them heavily. I joked about being addicted to sites. But I was home and not out losing a fortune. I didn’t let it stay that way forever. But I did what I felt I needed to to stay in recovery. Explore other sites if you feel you don’t get enough from one. It’s your recovery and your progress 🙂

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All the best with tomorrow Tina. I played it over so many times in my mind how I would tell my husband and what his reaction would be. In the end I was finally relieved to get it over with. The imagining was worse! It’s 1:38 am in the morning here and worried about my sons who are out on icy roads. I’m tired but having a hard time sleeping. You’ve been doing great Tina. You’ve been honest with the counselor. If the crisis assessment gets you some additional support it may not be a bad thing. Your thoughts were dark thoughts at a low point when you felt alone. But you are tackling things and putting in place support systems. You are learning more about this addiction/illness. I love the idea of the herb gardens! We are just starting winter. I’m thinking of an indoor herb garden for winter. Praying for strength for you! ~Laura

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You recent posts are very inspirational Kin. Made me look deep into my heart, into my faith, and into how I treat my body. Most of the food I eat is full of carbs sugars and fats. I remember watching a well known guru of integrative medicine describe it as eating dead foods. Foods that don’t feed our bodies, our cells. And that we need to eat live foods to thrive. I’m sure what we eat affects our moods. And our moods affect what we want to eat. Take care of yourself physically, mentally and spiritually. All three make up who we are.
Laura

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Hi Semaj,

Charles does offer good advice. Do something to protect your money from your CG self. Somehow that self becomes very persuasive when there is money available. Compulsive.

It was really good to see your post. And to know that you were still fighting the fight.
Laura

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Hey I did when I read you were going out I went for a nap instead of chat lol.
Happiness and laughter are great signs. You had a weight lift off your shoulders and you worked through a bump in your recovery! Enjoy the laughter! Hope the show was a comedy 🙂
will catch you another time!
Laura

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Hi IDI,

Yes I have put a lot of time and energy into one issue and I would say maybe not ignoring the real reason I was upset but often in denial of what the real reason or reasons were. I feel like recovery opened my eyes in a lot of ways and continues to. Once I see something differently I can make different choices. And I think doing nothing, or changing nothing is a choice. Speaking for myself here. I will no longer play a victim. If I don’t like something I say it. Sometimes I still feel misunderstood but much stronger.

I’ve seen in different magazines where they show you the expensive version of something and then the cheap version. From furniture to light fixtures and pillows and accents. See if you have an online discount shop to browse. In my family we ask for very practical things for Christmas. There are usually a few surprises but mostly things like a new dish set or silicone oven mitts or a bed set. This year is new dishes for me from my mother plus she’ll give me a few treats. I was broke for a lot of years while I gambled and many after. I had to be practical about my gifts!

There are so many demands on our time when we are working, being a mother, being a wife, and being a volunteer that it can be hard to carve out a little time for our self. But we are worth it. So if you ever feel you need or want to add something to your support network, remember, you and your recovery are so worth it.

I’ve been a busy little bee yesterday and today, ticking things off my list. Just want to feel organized and in control for once in my life!

I should be around for the 10pm London time group if you are around later. I was out running an errand last night so missed it. If we miss each other have a good night!
Laura

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When we got to the city i was offered the car to use. I’m feeling well enough sometimes to drive short distances now. I took the car and headed for my first shopping stop. The thought popped into my head that I could go the gambling venue now if I wanted. I didn’t want. I didn’t feel up to sitting on a stool losing my Christmas money and coming back here to let my GT friends know. I feel accountable to this little group right now. I am cultivating this feeling. I need support in recovery.

I am feeling a lot better pain wise Kathryn. But I still have a lot of pain. It just isn’t totally debilitating now. I have to be very careful but can at least make myself comfortable for the most part. For six months I did literally nothing but agonize. But I am so grateful that I am no longer like that!

I’m sure your mom’s room will be lovely! And your camping trips look like so much fun! Nice to be looking forward to summer instead of winter!

Thanks so much for your posts 3racer and I did it! I had a nice couple hours of shopping. Picked up a few thoughtful little gifts for one of my sisters and a sister in law. Shopped for a few of the goodies, chocolate mints, turtles, Christmas nuts. I’m hoping to do a little decorating over the weekend. Again not a big splash but a few of my little ornaments and decorations out. I am grateful to be able to do it. Between gambling and a bad back it’s been a bit of a hit and miss over the years.

So i have husbands business taxes to get done before they post debt on his account. He doesn’t owe, but I haven’t been able to do them. So that is another thing to get off my plate today. At least the part that will stop them from posting false debts.

Have a good gamble free day

Laura

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hope you find your way back Shaun!

Let us know how the diet turns out Kin.

Laura

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Thank you for being honest in your posts and sharing your thoughts. It helps me too. One bet away from undoing all the progress. So true. I ended up having opportunity yesterday. And I thought of my progress and my support network here and I put it out of my mind. Have a good gamble free day

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Wow JayKay! Congratulations on your one year 🙂

I too feel like when we are stuck in our addiction it is like a never ending loop in our brain. Well done on breaking the pattern.

Enjoy the holidays this year! Be proud of your success dealing with this addiction. It is a damn tough one!

take care,
Laura

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Going shopping for a while this morning. Getting a few more things finished for Christmas. I will be alone for an hour or more. I could have set it up to gamble. But why would I?

I’d much rather have a stress free Christmas! My bills paid and presents under the tree. I don’t go crazy. Never did. Even pre gambling. Maybe that’s why my eldest always says turkey dinner is what makes his Christmas, not the gifts.

We will all be together again this year, sitting around the same table and getting along really. We aren’t perfect, far from it, but I will give thanks for my many blessings.

Now I’d better go get ready. I’m being dropped off at the shopping location that DOES NOT have a gambling venue. I’m not wasting this precious day.

Laura

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awesome Jonny! Hope things are going well for you too. You are approaching one year which much feel great. Recovery beats gambling every time! take care, Laura

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Tolik se toho děje, ale vy to řešíte jinak. Možná právě to pomáhá při nutkání. Nebolí to, troufám si říci. Užijte si kostel. A jsem z tebe nadšený. Přijít na dobré přátele na dlouhou dobu může být těžké a ještě těžší je udržet. Mám z tebe radost, Liz. Zdá se mi, že se s tím vším vypořádáváte docela rozumně. Přeji pěkný den bez hazardu! Laura

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Tant għaddej imma qed tittrattaha b'mod differenti. Forsi dan huwa dak li qed jgħin fit-tħeġġiġ. Mhux qed nweġġa 'nazzarda ngħid. Igawdu l-knisja. U jien eċċitat għalik. Ħbieb tajbin ta 'żmien twil jistgħu jkunu diffiċli biex issibhom u saħansitra iktar diffiċli biex iżżommhom. Ninsab kuntenta għalik Liz. Jidhirli li qed tittratta ma 'dan kollu b'mod pjuttost sensibbli. Ikollu ġurnata ta 'logħob tajba b'xejn! Laura

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Se întâmplă atât de multe, dar vă confruntați cu asta diferit. Poate că asta ajută la îndemnuri. Nu este rău, îndrăznesc să spun. Bucurați-vă de biserică. Și sunt încântat de tine. Prietenii buni de mult timp pot fi greu de găsit și chiar mai greu de păstrat. Sunt fericită pentru tine Liz. Mi se pare că aveți de-a face cu toate acestea destul de sensibil. O zi bună de joc gratuit! Laura

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