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briefly checking in to see how things are going. I survived my busy day yesterday. Off to work. Thank goodness it’s Friday. I have a holiday on Monday so short week next week. I have no idea if I will make it to group tonight. Keep going IDI. Today I will be gamble free. Laura
Good morning Kin, It is good to have brothers and sisters in recovery. I spent an hour this morning reading your thread and catching up on your journey. I drew a lot of inspiration from your words. Sharing your journey, your combined words of wisdom come from the many sources you have had access to in your search for answers and support. Many of us share your demons. Whether they be addictions or the feelings that arise from them. Your monthly financial support to your family is a worthy goal that is helping repair some of the damage done over the years and is improving your relationships. When we move towards recognizing the importance of these, appreciating these, supporting these, it helps balance some of our negative feelings. It gives a value back to our money. It is no longer a means to a selfish end, the currency to buy our next buzz. You are no longer just paying off credit cards and bank loans to make room for the next binge. You are focusing on family first. So if you start finding the pressure of two jobs overwhelming, and you are able to refinance the debt to give you enough room to give up the part time job and still contribute firstly to your family keep that as an option. I calculate 33 days kin. Deep breaths. One step at a time is working. Take care, Laura
Good talking with you earlier. I was raised catholic and my guilty conscience is well developed lol I’ve been feeling guilty for not being able to be here supporting others like I want to be able to.
So, questions. Residential Treatment. As for work, well, it is considered a psychiatric illness technically so yes, you are ill when going for treatment. They have no need to know any more. As long as you have a medical practitioner sign you off work as ill.
What do you tell family. That’s a biggie. I know honesty is always the best policy. But I do know that there can be exceptions. That is really up to you.
What about something in between? Does your work benefits cover any counseling? I was so lucky to have counseling with someone who specialized in gambling addiction. She helped me work through a lot of things. But a lot of the time we talked of things other than my addiction. They often say that the gambling addiction is the 10% of the problem that is showing. Much like an iceberg there is much beneath the surface that is part of the problem.
Just some thoughts IDI. Enjoy the rest of your Sunday. My time finally shifted last night. So I’m back on track for meetings.
Take care,
Laura xoHi Monica,
happy to hear that your weekends are about taking care of yourself and rejuvenation. You deserve to feel healthy and whole.
I too felt I had fallen hard and fast and had no other choice but to stop gambling and start living or die. For a long time that keeps the urges away. But eventually the fear and destitution fades and those urges can try and pop back up. Keep changing the channel in your mind when those old visions try to come to roost. Kick old Mcdonald in the @ss.
Kin has a beautiful way of saying what we need to hear and sharing the inspiration of god and others. Honestly I think most “perfect” people are hollow shells. Then there are those who are inspirational. Some have been blessed with a smooth road and others such a rocky one but they still end up growing and being a living inspiration.
Sorry we haven’t connected over the weekend. I’ve been resting and sleeping a lot. Recovering from working all week. I’m not sure yet if I’ll be on for the 10pm group your time. I may try and get out to visit friends I’ve been missing while trying to adjust to working again.
Keep up the self care! Your work schedule is gruelling and you need to take care of yourself so I’m really glad to hear that you are making progress in how you are feeling. Stress is such a contributing factor to IBS. Hopefully stress will start to settle a little now that problem guy is gone.
Had a great couple of chat sessions this weekend and connected with IDI. I’m thrilled with her blocking again. I have stayed away other than those two blips. It honestly felt pointless. Like there was really going to be NO UPSIDE from it. Recovery feels more natural to me. So you never have to find out for yourself. Just take it from me.
Have a good week Monica and thanks for thinking of me. I am managing. I’m a tough bird. Can’t keep a good woman down 🙂 take care xo
haha love the titles! Never in November! Sounds good to me. A catchy phrase that will remind me each day in November to make that commitment to Never in November. One day at a time. I love that you donate to a charity at the end of each month. It’s a way to share the rewards of a gamble free life. Have a great weekend.
LauraWaking up with morning coffee so not very wise. Barely on grunting level! I will be in chat in 25 minutes. I had to realize that I didn’t want the effects or the actual time wasting of gambling in my life. “no matter what”. Seems now and again I forget. Haven’t gambled since my slip. Or blip. Temporary insanity. take care friend.
Laura
Well done Nick! Two month ODAAT is amazing. It means you got up every day and made that commitment to yourself. I think that can be what makes a difference. We finally recognize somehow that we need to change for our own sanity. I for one have always been glad to see your post. It let me know you had made it through another day. That you were still here on the road of recovery and doing ok. Success is a rare thing. Cherish it. Take care,
Laura