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I feel terrible that it’s been just about two weeks since posting. I’m honestly struggling to keep up with work and the regular demands of life but I am improving overall. Eventually things should get easier I’m hoping. How is your sister doing? You mention she was having health issues 🙁 I know how close you are.
If you read back over the past couple weeks of your journal you see how busy and how well you have handled everything. I know what you mean about other working professionals may be aghast at our bank balance but as long as my bills are paid, I have good food and I can do the things that make me feel good, like giving a little to charity or buying a nice gift for a friend or going out to a show, that is all I need for now.
I could only imagine the look on my husbands face if I gave him a sewing machine for Christmas. Although he does do the buttons around here lol
Congratulations on applying for that job. You can’t get an interview if you don’t apply. Takes courage to go after something else or different.
You asked for a link a ways back. Posting here just in case you need in future. https://www.addictionsandrecovery.org/post-acute-withdrawal.htm
Sorry my support has been lacking. I need to figure out a way to do it from bed and be comfortable. I hate feeling so disconnected. After an hour of reading and posting I can’t sit any longer! Hopefully we can connect before Christmas. I will do my best to catch a few groups over the next few days. Take care xoyou deserve a proper catch up but wanted to say sorry I missed you. Two phone calls in a row I couldn’t miss. xo
Hey Nick,
just checking in. Not around so much now that I’m working. I am still getting used to it and find i’m not good for much other than work, appointments, keeping up with a little bit of house work and of course there is getting read for Christmas. I’m really happy to read you are doing so well. I think you have found the truth about recovery. We have to do it for ourselves. Yes that means our loved ones benefit and we stop hurting them but it has to be for us or else someone else can take away our inspiration and our reason. So here is to Day 18 of definitely not in December! Enjoy your holidays 🙂
LauraGood morning Monica, I am happy to read that you are weathering the small storms in your life. I know being there for your family is important to you and it sounds as though you are dealing with requests and making choices about what you will stand for and the help you will give. Part of recovery is setting boundaries as to what we will accept and what we won’t. Looks like you are doing exactly that. Save enough for a life for Monica too! You are generous and kind and truly deserving of the same treatment. What a difference a year has made. You are most certainly in a different place. I’m very happy to read it. take care Monica! xo
Reading over this past couple weeks of your journal I see a woman on a journey and now a woman on a mission! It feels good to purge. Both our homes and our minds. i think they are definitely intertwined. I did a big clear out on my home when i stopped gambling. I decided I needed an oasis for myself. And with a couple of recent surgeries i wanted it also to be easy to clean and maintain. You deserve that too. Peace of mind. Sanctuary. There are people with bigger homes that don’t have that. People with more money that don’t have that. So space and money isn’t the only answer. It’s about appreciating what we have. Getting rid of old and unwanted thoughts, patterns, and items. It took a few years over all and I’m still doing things. It won’t come all at once. But you can do it! Was great to chat today. Have a good week! Laura
Hope you are enjoying your weekend! Sounds like you are doing well IDI. You are progressing! Keep going. Enjoy a fab boot find. Keep learning to be happy and content in each day. It does add up. And before you know it Christmas will be here. Onward and upward! You CAN and WILL do this. Laura xo
Hi Kin, looks like it was a warning sign, telling you that your compulsiveness and addiction could be triggered if you do not take heed. So many jobs these days bring out the worst in everyone. Creating awful environments. Not a wonder your body is telling you to run and do things that feel good instead of facing the negativity of the situation and the bodily reactions it likely triggers. Sounds like you have some things to think on. Do not let their negativity drag you down. Today is the day that matters.
LauraGood morning Vera
I was sorry to read about how you are feeling after gambling. I remember the out of control feeling all too well. I’m glad to see you are figuring out ways to keep your money un accessible. Back to basics. Time and money are required to gamble. Accounting for both keeps us accountable. So while you are feeling this way figure out how to make one, the other or both accounted for. Ask hubby to pay all the bills and transfer him a once, twice or more often amount to pay them. Put most of the remainder in long term savings. Whatever it takes Vera. It will tear you up. Counseling? Go back to GA. Yes it takes courage to eat humble pie but GA helped you so much. And any time you need support, reach out. I can imagine your house smelling lovely as you start to decorate for the holidays. Try and shed as much stress this year as possible. That should be your Christmas gift to you. Take care Vera
xoHi Monica,
sorry I missed your birthday, a very happy belated. What a difference a year can make. You got there one day at a time. You didn’t gamble each day no matter what. And you had quite a few no matter whats! Glad you were spoiled with meals and treats. Getting out to a show. What a normal birthday activity. Well done.I worry about your health and the demands the job is putting on you. I hope your employer realizes what they have and that you are karmically rewarded for it somewhere along the line. I second Liz’s thoughts on getting a checkup with the doctor about your heart. Or next time it’s racing go to a hospital walk in where they can do some heart tests. No sense fooling around.
I find now that I’m working I’m sapped every night. I usually have to medicate with pain medication and end up in bed watching Netflix. I’m not much of a support system for my GT friends. But I still think of you and wish you all the best.
Laura xo