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we can allow many things to depress us but why let that happen when you can also let happiness be the goal and focus on what it is that brings happiness. Like your grandson. xoxoFG

[female g]

I have tried so many times to chat and no one is ever around. In the past I was always able to find people to share with, maybe its because its summer???
Anyway i am at the beginning of another week in recovery and staying focused.
I have lots of thoughts that run though my head but am dealing with them and tightly controlling my barriers at this time.FG

[female g]

Cat, I can’t imagine your pain. I call my grandchildren Angels all the time. I can’t imagine them leaving this earth too early. I will say a prayer for your lose.

[female g]

your on the right path for sure and sounds like your well on the way to a fantastic future. Life will not always be a rose garden but with out the gambling it will always be alot more enjoyable.

[female g]

I just wanted you to know I’m in a good place at the moment. Hoping you are too. The worst day for me is Thursday because that is when I would normally gamble . Its because that is the end of my work week and when I had enough money put together to go. Not every thursday but at least once a month or more if the money was available. It felt good to actually ask my hubby to be there for me this past thursday and even better when he followed through.
I went to my Doctor and he has agreed to do some hypnotherapy to deal with my strong urges., I have to wait till October but knowing that will help alot.
I had a good weekend with Family for the most part. I.m dealing with my son trying to put his marriage back together and that is rough. but I will muddle through. We talked with my Doctor about it as well and after alot of tears I was able to take saway some good advice from him. I tried to get through to my daughter inlaw but that isn’t going very well at the moment. For the time being I will leave it alone and hope that it will be ok. My son has broken her trust and that is usually a deal breaker but we will have to wait and see if they will try to get back together in time. He his at our house for over 4 months now. The good thing is we live on the same street so it makes things easier to work around. Anyway I wanted you to know where things were at and keep you updated . hope your managing well with things too and I look forward to hearing from you xoFG

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your here, and so are we, all in the same boat and in need of life support. we humans seem to have to hit rock bottom before we can see the light. We hope that we can continue on if our luck holds out but the reality its impossible to sustain that. Its a pipe dream and the house banks on us believing that we will be the one to come out on top. One thing I’ve realized is by actually looking around you know that in the casino’s there are very few people who walk away with large amounts of cash. Oh yeah the bells go off but for how much 1000,2000,5000, that amounts to nothing when you stop and think how much it cost you as a cg to go continually. That is what it could cost me in less than a month. And the odds are not in my favour to ever get back what I’ve lost over the course of 15 years. So I am coming to realize the only way to have anything worth while in my life has to be earned and appreciated. I am a hard worker and I think most cg’s are its how we sustain this habit for so long. We need to give ourselves the things we deserve and stop handing over our money to a place who could care aless about us. Just food for thought.
I hope you take time to rediscover who you are and begin to see value in the life going on around you and tart to enjoy the simple things that cost little to nothing ok. hope this helps FG

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so I followed through with my visit to my Doctor. We spent a good hour with him just discussing the issues I have had with gambling lately.
My husband was there too and I held nothing back. After tears and admissions, my doctor agreed to try a few sessions of hypnotherapy to help solidify my goals of never returning to gambling. My doctor is the kindest man I know and said he wasn’t just my doctor but our good friend. So he would make an exception and work with me to help me gain the upper hand of this addiction. He is so busy though and I will wait until October to start. I’m ok with that because it gives me something to look forward to and reason to stay on track. Reaching out isn’t easy but this was worthwhile and we must remember that we are worth it no matter what holes we dig for ourselves. Right???

[female g]

I feel your pain. I only wish you peace and strength to survive this agony.
Even though its not your problem he is forcing the problem onto you.
Have you researched gambling as a way to understand all the ramifications. It may offer you tools in which to help yourself and to understand the addiction.
try support groups in your community. Help him understand his addiction and get him to put barriers in place. Control the money flow. Have his paychecks go to paying specific bills, take away credit cards and debit cards telling him to do this to save his family perhaps.
It is unfair of him to leave you feeling like you want to take your own life and you deserve better. If these things fail leave and show your girls that they deserve better too. Knowing the facts about this disease and helping your girls with the knowledge might be useful too as long as are old enough to understand. hoping for better times ahead xo

[female g]

Thanks Harry,
I really am trying to take care!!!
We are going to my family doctor in a few more hours to discuss my gambling. I called him and asked if he would do hypnotherapy with me. Its something I tried in the pat. That is how i managed to quit smoking. He isn’t practicing that anymore on a regular basis so i am not sure if he will make an exception and put me under at least a few times. I think it might help with the urges. We will see what he thinks.
I can’t seem to sleep so that is why I’m here and typing away.

[female g]

I wanted to take a moment to thankyou for your unending support and friendship. Its means everything to me. I am going to be ok I think and as long a i keep my barriers in place I can get through the hardest part. My brain at the moment is racing in many directions and its a battle right now. I know that I can’t carry on gambling because it could destroy our livelihood and our future retirement. I won’t let that happen though I see how possible that is.
I had a bad incident that made me realize that i had to come completely clean with my hubby. I did that and have his full support as long as I never go again.
With that in mind I risk alot and have too much to lose. He has agreed to keep this between us but will let the family know if I start up again. That would be the end for me so I must do what must be done, quit once and for all.
I am resolved to remove gambilng totally this time. I know it wil be hard because frankly I love it. Why I am really confuses me. There are so many down sides but the excitement seems to over rule the reality. If it had no down sides I’d live in a casino!! Anyway that is behind me now and life must go on. I will find life after gambling again and I will settle for the simple pleasures again xoxo FG

[female g]

thanks for the post. I appreciate the time you took. I am doing well. I guess its a month now, and i have so many barriers in place there is a slim to none chance for me to gamble.
the thing i don’t like right now are the thoughts that run through my brain. its like a non stop battle. I find myself trying to find a way to go and in the next thought i am thinking about why I can’t gamble anymore. I think its a matter of time before these thoughts subside so I am glad I have any access to cash tied up now. How are you doing these days ?? hope you are feeling strong like a warrior !!! hope we can chat soon xoxo FG

[female g]

I think I would choose to be a vegetable I absolutely hate, like parsnips. Why you ask?? Well the answer is simple If a casino was a parsnip I would never find myself wanting of it so there for I would never have known what it would do to my soul never mind the taste it leaves in my mouth just thinking about it.

[female g]

hi all, hope your all enjoying life without gambling or working towards that goal.
I’ve been on holiday for a week and on Monday its back to work for me.
I’ve kept quite busy, and fulfilled for sure. Took some time to visit my sister (4 hrs away) and my niece and even my foster mom and her sisterinlaw who I have always felt close to. Its nice to focus in on relationships and it takes my mind away from the destructive life of gambling.
I am going to work on rebuilding these relationships and learn to be satisfied with the simple things. no chasing the impossible dream anymore.
My hubby has been very supportive and when I sense frustration I am quick to point out the importance of his help towards my recovery and he bounces right back.
There will be work on that side of it down the road but for now its slow and easy. That is very important to me.

[female g]

this can b prevented by knowing the ins and outs of being addicted to gambling. Its great that you have opened up to others in the same situation. as long as your willing to go through the process of changing behavours and wanting to get back to a life of never gambling again your future looks bright. One day at a time is key. Start by putting all your barriers in place. I believe in rewarding yourself to for not gambling as well in small ways at first and in bigger ways the longer you stay gamble free.
Try to get back to the simple things too. Things that made you happy before gambling. Reconnect with people you love and friends you will have time for now the you want to take gambling out of the picture. I believe its important to stay busy while you restructure your life style. I hope you find this information useful and that you can see life as it is truly meant to be. FG

[female g]

well I am glad to see such a familiar friend here and hope to stay put this time knowing I am no longer in control and that I will fully admit to that this go around. looking forward to your support and to offer mine when ever needed. I am so happy to get back on track where I was always made to feel comfort and pull strength from all my friends and cg’s . xoxox

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