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i didnt even thought that its possible to talk with the bank about payments and change some conditions. Its really first time i have credit from the bank… but ill try to talk with them on monday lets see what they will say

after this it will be easier to estimate and prepare recovery plan.

Thank you again

[erenachi]

Dear Friend,

Yes during whole day, i’m reading stories like me, and it really feels better. Its not me only one, who has or had same problems and they made. It means its not imposible, it just looks like impossible. This is a fact… but sometimes we dont believe in what we see, because we dont want to see the truth, we are afraid or not strong enough to face the problem… The same happens with me…

I know its better to stop, i know its better to tell my familly and friends, but i’m afraid of loosing them all…

After writing down here everything and trying to share my fellings here, i really feel better a little bit, but i know this is not enough. Everyone can type but not everyone can stop gambling and starting to get his/her life back somehow..

Thank you very much for your support, really appreciate it.

[erenachi]

Doing more or less fine based on my situation )))
I agree with you its better to talk face to face… but.. it was even better not to start gambling..

Financial recovery plan is a good idea. Because of my job.. if i stop gambling and if there will be a little financial support i’m sure i can recover. But because of lack of time i dont have financial plan. At the moment i’m working on good project and if i finish them it will have good earnings but it need 2-3 month, and before that time bank will “eat” me..

About the compulsive gamblers in Georgia there is no help, at least i tried to find some, but i cant find any information about it. Unfortunately Here we have only casinos…

Before telling to my wife, ill double check all my plans and project and will try to talk with her face to face.
But again almost sure she will left me, thats the main reason i’m not telling her.. Trying to be with her as much time as i can… I’m afraid and worried only about it. I’m afraid on losing her.. losing money is not even close comparing of loosing her and my daughter.. But the truth is that She dont deserve father like me, and my wife – husband like me…

By telling ill destroy her life.. by not telling anyway ill destroy her life.. so of course its better to tell her the truth. I have an option between bad and worst..

[erenachi]

Thank you my friend.

Hope ill over come this illness soon.

[erenachi]

Hello Laura,

Thank you very much for your comment and support.
To give money to someone, first i have to tell the truth, this is what i can not do yet. i’ try to dinf a way how to make it.

“You can earn more money, but she can never get another daddy.” totally agree, this really affected on me.. thanks.

I really want to stop gambling, and i will do everything for it. Hope ill access the finish point soon.
I really thank you what you wrote, this really made me to think in a different way.

Erekle

[erenachi]

Hello Monicau

Thank you very much for your support.
In my last reply, i mentioned that i have not played last 2 days, i removed my last money from my creadit card and keeping it in my pocket for not to transfer it on online gambling sites. I have done it many times, i had gambling block, but my brother made a present, and he gave me new cell phone. On which i have not made a block, i thought i can handle it without it but i could not.. At the moment i dont have block.

Yes i have a good job, but i can not concentrate on my job, because i’m only thinking about my debts and my problems.. and earning depends only on done projects. Fixed salary is very very low (500GEL=190#), but bonus earning can be anything starting from 100$ to 10000$ or even more. depends on project. Highest bonus i had was 12000$.
This is really good opportunity for me to cover everything but, i cant not concentrate on my job…

And about the GA organizations, i have never heared anything about it in Georgia. I think here dont exist anything like that.
You are right, accident was a trigger event for me to start slots. i have never thought about it before. One of my friend sometimes were playing slots but, he played with really low balance 5-10-15$ no more, and i was always talking with him not to play, and you can not win in here, but i made much more worst…

” The big win won’t happen. The money spent has gone .It will just take and take and take.” when i understand this i was already late unfortunately.

Thanks again for your kind words, i really had tear on my eyes when i read last paragraph.. thanks for that words.

[erenachi]

Hello,

Thank you very much for your kind support. I’m sorry for my late response but i had no access to the internet these days.

I totally agree with your that my decision for my wife will be harmful for a lifetime. But the worst thing is that if i’ll tell her the truth she will not stay with me. I’m almost sure about it. I will not be able to live without her and my daughter… all i have left are they…

It really feels impossible to stop gambling.. i have not played these 2 days, but maybe just because that i have no money for it. I have removed my last 420 GEL(around 180$) from my credit card not to transfer it to online gambling site.. and keeping it in my pocket.. and i really feel better.. but i made like this many times..

My friend, its the first posts and you all are first persons who know about it, i tried many times to start talking with my wife, but i can’t.. i just can’t… Words dont come out from my mouth.. and every time she asks me whats wrong, i’m answering that i had bad day at job. I dont know how to tell her.. maybe it will be easier if i write down a latter about my life for last 2 year, and ask her to read it. What do you think about it?

And the worst thing is that, i really have a good job, but because i was thinking about gambling, i wasnot able to done my job. and money earning in my job depends only on done projects. In 2014 i have done more that 25 project and my earning was more than 45 000$ (this is good earning for Georgia, average earning per year is around 3600-4000$), and last year i made only 3 projects… This makes me crazy, i really have good opportunity to solve everything with my debts, but first of all bank and microfance organizations will not wait.. they push me and percents are arising and arising… OMG.. worst 2 years of my life…

i want to type all my feeling but it was always hard for me to talk about my feelings..

My grandfather always told me, what happens everything is for better. And i was living like that, but this time, i cant not find any advantage from my situation..

Thanks again for your kind advices. There is a solution in everything, but i dont know how to solve it yet.
i’m sure ill find a way but it should not be late or bad solution.

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