Thank you so much for your response. I am so embarrassed that I repeated the cycle after seeing it nearly drive my mum to suicide when my dad was constantly gambling and the moods he would get himself into when he would lose. I thought that would be enough to keep me forever from turning into that side of my dad that I literally hated and it didn’t which shocked me. But I have to be honest with myself now and realise that I have a gambling problem and i need to cut it off. I am going to try my hardest to give my fiancee the house and home life she deserves and not what my mum went through. I am trying my best and hope that I can make friends that support me in my journey to achieve this and stop gambling once and for all. I am joining all the forums and looking into Gamstop. It’s time I got serious about this problem as it’s taking over my life and pushing me to the brink of ending it. I just want to live a happy life now. I will be a friend to anyone that needs one on here.
