Thank you Jappy799 for making me feel welcome. I already have the itch coming back strong because I know I am getting paid Tuesday and I already have voices telling me I can play one more time, win back some and walk away. This is just so crazy. How could I do that? To my Father who already helped me! I sure hope these thoughts die down at some point.
My father told me never to gamble ever again, but at the same time he wants me to force myself to go into a casino with my boyfriend who occassionally gambles and can be in control.of himself, so I can face my urges. I did this last night and watched my boyfriend play only about $10 and we walked out with freeplay and used that for a good dinner.
I can tell this is going to be rough. Especially Thursday when I have money and some extra free time after an early class.
I think I will see if my mom can hold on to my debit cards and help hold me accountable for where I am. Im pretty busy most the week except for Thursdays…
Thank you again for responding, I greatly appreciate it 🙂 though the urges are there I already feel a weight lifted off me.
-EB
