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I haven’t been on here for a while but I have just relapsed Also. I have self-excluded from all casinos in Ontario but my main problem is on-line slots. I just completed a week long program for gamblers back in May, attend counselling and a weekly women’s group. I lasted 3 weeks and then I got an offer by email to reopen accounts with bonus’ and I did. I got up to $4000 and didn’t stop. I’ve now been chasing losses ever since and now accumulated another $15000 in debt on top of the $40000 I already owe. I have tax debt now too. I’m in way over my head now and retirement is ruined. Today is my fathers birthday and he’s been passed away now for 7 years and tonight just 10 minutes ago, I closed my on line accounts and came on here.
I too have spent all my money and have to get through the next few weeks without any and my son is always asking for money and I won’t be able to help. Why do we put ourselves through this. I was getting on the right path again and I blew it again. So you are not alone. It’s a tough battle but people go recover.

[DNcanada]

Hi Addi. I’m in the exact same boat as you. Or prison actually. Feeling trapped. Your story is my story right now. I want to play all the time too but now my finances have got so bad that it stops me. I make really good money and I don’t even have $20 until payday this week because I gambled every last penny trying to get that last good win in too. I need new glasses and I can’t afford them because I keep gambling my money away. I’m in a women’s group now which helps and I come on here. There are good people on here. We just have bad habits. Got to go to bed right now but will write later. Hang in there.

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Hi Adam. I am also just starting my recovery. I’ve been gambling at casinos and on line hard for about 3 years now and I’ve finally reached out for help. I’ve got myself into about $50,000 of debt because of it. I also have a son about your age who got into trouble with foreign exchange trading which is still gambling. He’s in $35000 of debt too. So he’s moved back home with me for a while.
It’s hard. I want to play all the time. I use my phone a lot too. It’s easy and convenient. I’ve banned myself from the casino twice now and I got myself back in recently and find myself going again.
I’m in a woman’s group program and we meet once a week. I come on here and read and reply to others, but it’s a constant struggle. You really have to really want to quit and I’m trying to find my motivation to do so. Weekends are hard for me too. I completely understand how you feel.

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It’s a constant battle. I played again, won again and lost it all again. What I win is never enough so I just play what I do win to try and win more and then, yes, the hole just gets deeper. More depression and less money for food and gas for the week. I go to a group meeting and then go to the casino after because it’s close by. How pathetic is that. Who would have ever thought I would be in this situation. Well just going to read some of your posts now because reading and writing on here does help.

[DNcanada]

You sound like you are sticking to your plan. Good for you. Keep it up. I know how hard it is too.

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Привет, мне понравилось читать вашу историю и просто интересно, как у вас сейчас дела. Я предпочитаю игровые автоматы в казино и онлайн. Я тоже ненавижу это и не могу поверить, что позволил себе стать таким плохим. Это постоянная борьба. Но чем дольше я держусь подальше, тем легче мне становится.

[DNcanada]

Hi I enjoyed reading your story and just wondering how you are doing now. My game of choice are slots in a casino and online. I hate it too and can’t believe that I let myself get this bad. It’s a constant struggle. But the longer I stay away the easier it gets I find.

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I don’t have large sums of money. It’s just my pay and some of my pay plan is a monthly bonus. Some are good months and some are bad. I’m spending my pay and not saving and holding off paying bills. I told my sister to tell her friend not to ask me anymore to go and I told her that she, my own sister, is a trigger for me because of when she asks to go and tells me when she goes and wins. We both have to stop. I think she is ready to try also. I went to my women’s support group again and it was just 2 of us because the weather was bad but gave us opportunity to talk more. There is a week long session coming up in April which is daily speakers and therapy sessions which I think I need to attend. I have to take a week off work though but I could use the break anyway. I did go play again this week and lost of course and feel like I keep starting over. When does it kick in that enough is enough.

[DNcanada]

Thanks all for the advice. Short and sweet tonight as I need to get to sleep. I made it 5 days and then my sister wanted to go to casino for her birthday, her 50th. We went and of course I spent too much than I could afford. She had won $1000 and then asked me, a CG, to hold her money so she doesn’t lose it again. But she kept asking for it bit by bit and I gave it to her thinking she could win it back. She lost it all so we both came out of there losing. We both have a problem with not being able to leave and be happy with what we have. I got so mad that I went back the next day to try and win some back and it was terrible. Another $500 gone. I didn’t go today and I’m going to my group meeting Monday and counsellor Friday. I’m getting tired of losing. I want a vacation and new appliances. Not anymore debt. I need a vision board.

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Just reading your story and wondering how you are doing. I have a son who is 27 going through a lot of issues right now too along with myself too. We are just barely getting by because of our gambling but still hopeful and he has a lot more time to recover than I do and so do you. You have youth on your side.

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Hi and my situation is the same as yours. I’ve cashed in all my rrsps and in debt up to my eyeballs. My son needs my help and I can’t help him. Although he’s created his situation also by losing at foreign exchange trading which is another form of gambling but he won’t admit that. I’ve bailed him out too much now anyway. He has to fix it himself just like I have to. I’ve just joined this forum and it’s helping already. I went to a woman’s support group tonight and it was good. I still have the urge to gamble though and the only reason I can’t right now is that I ran out of money. But it is a day that I did not gamble.

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First of all I don’t get having to put a subject in to do a reply to a comment. Anyway, thanks Sean for posting. I read it and like to hear how others are coping. I got a loan to consolidate my debt and my line of credit was supposed to be closed but they didn’t and so of course I racked it up again so now I have more debt. So be careful when you get available money. I wish they at least lowered my limit.

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I went to a woman’s support group meeting tonight and it was really good. I need to go more often. I did not gamble today.

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Thanks Paul for the advice. I will look for those stories. A friend called me today to see if I was going down to the casino. I said no at first but of course ended up going down later. I won a few hundred and instead of leaving I stayed and lost it all trying to win more and lost more because I went to the bank machine twice. Spent more money than I could afford. Messed up again. Forgot all about my meltdown the day before.

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Hi, I just like to say what a difference the tone is in your posts now from when you first posted. Very positive to hear and great job in not gambling. Keep it up. Wish I could say it was my 65th day of not gambling. Only 1 day right now. I just want to get to 7 days this week for once. Then hopefully 30 days and more. Keep posting. Thanks for your updates

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