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I need to keep reminding myself that the casino is the devil in disguise. Promising everything you ever wanted and delivering nothing but heartache, pain, lonliness, confusion, and debt up to my eyeballs. It takes a second to say no or live with the lifetime of regret when I say yes.

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Uradio sam isto. Ranije sam svom mužu rekla da troši sav naš novac i da mi treba pomoć. Bio je jako ljut, što je bilo razumljivo. Mogu se ponašati kao da je sve u redu čak i kad nije. Želim se poboljšati i napravio sam neke korake, ali nedovoljno. Mora ostati bolnije ostati tamo gdje jesmo nego zaustaviti se. Koliko god mrzim to reći, do sada se čini da je moje boljelo pokušavajući prestati. Znam da to nije istina. Čini se tako. Zabranio sam sebi pristup lokalnim kockarnicama, ali vozio sam se do sljedećih najbližih. Sinoć sam otišao u prvu grupu GA. Još uvijek nije dovoljno. Sav sam novac potrošio u banci plus još nekoliko stotina. Samo ne znam kako ću to vratiti. Kad sam izgubio prvu tisuću, pokušao sam nešto od toga vratiti tako što sam dobio više. Naravno da sam i ja sve to izgubio. Toliko mi je muka zbog toga da bih mogla povraćati. Sljedeći put ću se zabraniti iz tog kasina. Moram. Tada nema povratka.

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I have done the same thing. I have told my husband in the past about spending all our money and that I need help. He was very mad, which was understandable. I can act like everything is okay even when it’s not .I want to get better and have made some steps but not enough. It has to hurt worse to stay where we are than it does to stop. As much as I hate to say it, so far, mine seems to hurt worse trying to stop. I know that is not true. It does seem that way. I have banned myself from the local casinos but I have been driving to the next closest ones.I went to my first GA group last night. Still not enough. I spent all of the money in the bank plus several hundred more. I just don’t know how I am going to get it caught back up. When I lost the first thousand I tried to win some of it back by getting more. Of course I lost all of that too. I am so sick about it I could throw up. I am going to ban myself from that casino next. I have to. Then there is no going back. 

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Eu fiz o mesmo. Eu disse a meu marido no passado sobre gastar todo o nosso dinheiro e que preciso de ajuda. Ele estava muito bravo, o que era compreensível. Posso agir como se tudo estivesse bem, mesmo quando não está. Quero melhorar e dei alguns passos, mas não o suficiente. Deve doer mais ficar onde estamos do que parar. Por mais que eu odeie dizer isso, até agora, o meu parece doer mais tentando parar. Eu sei que isso não é verdade. Parece que sim. Eu me bani dos cassinos locais, mas tenho dirigido para os próximos mais próximos. Fui ao meu primeiro grupo de GA ontem à noite. Ainda não é suficiente. Gastei todo o dinheiro no banco e mais várias centenas. Só não sei como vou fazer para recuperá-lo. Quando perdi os primeiros mil, tentei reconquistar parte obtendo mais. Claro que perdi tudo isso também. Estou tão doente que poderia vomitar. Eu vou me banir daquele cassino a seguir. Eu tenho que. Então não há como voltar atrás.

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Я сделал то же самое. В прошлом я говорила своему мужу, что трачу все наши деньги и что мне нужна помощь. Он был очень зол, и это было понятно. Я могу вести себя так, как будто все в порядке, даже когда это не так. Я хочу поправиться и сделал несколько шагов, но их недостаточно. Оставаться там, где мы есть, должно быть больнее, чем останавливаться. Как бы сильно я ни ненавидел это говорить, мне кажется, что мне еще хуже, когда я пытаюсь остановиться. Я знаю, что это неправда. Так кажется. Я запретил себе посещать местные казино, но я ехал в следующие ближайшие. Вчера вечером я пошел в свою первую группу GA. Все еще недостаточно. Я потратил все деньги в банке плюс еще несколько сотен. Я просто не знаю, как я собираюсь вернуть его обратно. Когда я проиграл первую тысячу, я попытался отыграть ее, получив больше. Конечно, я тоже все это потерял. Меня так тошнит, что меня тошнит. Я собираюсь забанить себя в этом казино в следующий раз. Я должен. Тогда пути назад нет.

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I am going to be going to GA Fridays after work. It will help to have interaction on here in between.

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I agree. I have decided the next time I walk in there I am banning myself. Thanks for the advice!

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I agree. I have decided the next time I walk in there I am banning myself. Thanks for the advice!

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Well I actually went to the GA meeting. It was a small group. A lot smaller than I expected. There was 5 of us total. We went over the rules and each of us read out loud out of the GA book and shared. One person has over 10 years under her, one has a few years, one has 6 months and one has 2 months. They made me feel welcome and we’re very encouraging. I plan to go back.i may also ban myself from the casino I am not banned from. I know that doesn’t take away the addiction but I think I may need it until I can get stronger.

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I am glad you are trying to get a handle on this early. You are heading in the right direction. Hang in there. I am over 50 and have gambled my whole life. I make about 20 to 30 grand a year so when I got my win/loss statement for my tax records I was shocked to see that I lost over $150,000 in one year. How does that happen? When you spend all you win right back. I am going to my first GA meeting tonight. I am excited and scared.

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I am glad to hear that you want to stop before you lose everything. I never thought I would be in the place I am in. It is so sneaky that you are caught up before you realize it. You are on the right track by seeking help. I just joined here about a week ago and reading the threads and responding to others helps me remember why I am here. I am going to my first ever GA meeting tomorrow night. I am excited and scared. I have banned myself from the closest casinos but the town my parents live in is the casino capital of our state. There are at least 10 casinos in the small town of about 40,000 people. I have been stopping every weekend when I go see my parents. I am going to have to ban myself from those also. I have made up my mind. I keep telling myself that it takes a second to say no but it takes a lifetime to live with the regret of giving in. Hang in there. You are in the right place.

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Thank you so much for your encouragement. I posted a reply earlier and after 15 minutes of typing on my phone it said the site was under maintenance. So apparently my post did not get posted. I do not even know what I wrote. I am excited about going to the GA tomorrow night and making some new friends. I will post some time this weekend and let you know how it goes.

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Congratulations you took the first step. Finding help and posting your story. It does feel horrible to lose money and be at rock bottom. Sometimes we have to hit bottom before we are willing to change. It has to hurt more to stay where you are than it will to change. I have lived 2 lives. Myself that everyone knows and myself the addict, the one that no one but me knows. I have spent thousands of dollars. Spent bill money, grocery money, gas money. When I am spending it I am sure I’m going to win it back so I just keep spending more. Only to lose everything I gave in the bank plus some. I have thousands of dollars in loans and I can not even make the monthly payments. I have got to stop.i have taken the first few steps.. I found this forum, I am starting GA on Friday, and starting church on Sunday. Good luck on your journey.

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So I talked to my husband and told him I found a GA group on Friday nights that I am going to go to because I am still struggling. He said that’s fine. He didn’t comment any more than that but I am set to go Friday after work.

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Thank you so much for your support. As far as the lack of responses I am used to that unfortunately I have been invisible most of my life. Not a pity party just fact. I’m used to it but I really need the support now. I am always there for everyone but can’t seem to get the help when I need it. Plans fall through because my friends and family are either busy when I ask to plan something or something comes up and they get plans that are better than the ones we make. I am going to go to the GA Friday and I am going to tell my husband that is where I am going. I am going to start a new church Sunday. I have one I am going to if I can get the start times. If not I have e others I can go to. I know I can do this with the help of God, the help on here, and going to the GA meetings. Thanks again for your encouragement. I appreciate it. Have a great day.

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