Forum Replies Created
-
Posts
-
Dear Bettie! Way to go on the workouts! The garden idea sounds good. Gardening is good exercise. So is cleaning house, but I’m not that fond of that. I’d rather be painting than cleaning. Went to all the stores today and haven’t been able to find that white rabbit. I’ll take any color rabbit as long as it’s big as it can always be painted white. Hubby went for bloodwork yesterday and we came home to a message on the answering machine asking him to call the clinic and ask for the referral desk. That has me a bit concerned as he already has the MS and the COPD. Surely there can’t be anything else wrong with him. Passport- I always have one so that I can be ready to go when an opportunity presents itself. I do know that Vegas is not somewhere I’ll EVER be going again. I haven’t really had any big urges to gamble lately as I’ve been too busy. Hubby leaves to go back to work for another 14 days tomorrow. Take care friend! Carole
Dear Bettie! thought I’d stop by and wish you a Happy Mother’s Day! Spent the day weeding and then my granddaughter, daughter, and I went to Wally World and bought bags of Miracle Grow, and lots of flowers, and a big tall clock planter with huge cups and saucers, but we haven’t found a white rabbit yet. Granddaughter and I are going to have one flower bed as Alice in Wonderland. I still need lots of flowers as I hadn’t realized how many planters I have. Also bought seeds for my vegetable garden. Decided that I would work harder at keeping our property looking good. Off for a family dinner at the local hotel as this is the first Mother’s Day without my MIL. Hope you had a good day at your brother’s. Way to go on working so hard on your health!!! Carole
Dear Larry! Thanks for sharing your thoughts and feelings about your daughter’s birthday. Carole
Spoke to Bettie and she is really doing well. She is feeling much better health-wise and has been doing yardwork at her daughter’s. She hasn’t posted as her computer is down at the moment and her brother is fixing it. Carole
Miss Bettie! You haven’t posted since April 30th. I tried phoning you twice to make sure you’re well. Hope you’re OK! Carole
Dear Larry! I took note of the phrase "be aware." I know that the great deceiver will try and steal, kill, and destroy anything good in my life. Every single one of us is only a bet away from disaster. I recognize that so I am being aware. Thanks for reminding me. Carole
Thank you Larry for your words of wisdom on my thread. You are so right about the comment I made about hoping i’d meet a strong woman of God. I need to meet ME as a strong woman of God. Look inside of myself, not look for someone else. My faith will grow in time just like I developed recovery skills, through doing and learning. I am confident of that as I saw it in recovery. I will allow the Word of God to change who I am. I never thought that GA meetings would lead me back to church. Our meetings are held in the church I now attend. I watched the secretary and the pastor to see if they were sincere people for 5 months, and they were, so that’s what led me back. Thank you for acknowledging what I was afraid to say. I saw they had kleenex there. Carole
Thinking about you Miss Bettie and hoping that you were using your time to work on yourself, and feeling better emotionally. I have been feeling low myself since Friday and had a few urges but managed to not give in to them. It wouldn’t have made me feel any better to have gambled, so why would I want to feel worse? I honestly asked myself that question. Did I want to feel more depressed? I also reminded myself that this depressed feeling would past, and wouldn’t last forever. How comfy are the recliners?? Interesting about the Temptations as my cat loves them. Went to my granddaughter’s dance recital on Saturday and to church on Sunday. You’d love this church Bettie. People of every color, age, and soci-economic background. This church talks the talk but also walks the walk. It is the same church that gives us a room for our GA and NA meetings. Annoying tenants have found a place to rent in a nearby town. Yahoo! Carole
Oh Bettie! I cannot believe that a customer would be so disrespectful, rude and plain mean, with a comment directed towards you like that. I’m sorry that happened to you. You are beautiful exactly the way you are. If you choose to lose weight for health reasons, that’s your choice. Why would you say it’s to be expected?? It’s not their business! Had you known how your boss was going to react, you could have maybe gotten a note from your doctor putting you on sick leave for that week. Sorry things are going not so well in your life right now. I had a chit day today as well emotionally, as that phone call from my brother brought up things from the past and caused me to get stressed out and full of anxiety. I did not attend the church conference, even though when I first woke up I felt so good about going. I know I missed something really good. I was going to do something good for myself by attending that conference. Thanks for the comment on my thread about integrity. It meant a lot. When I told my husband about the phone call, he totally agreed with my decision, which was good to be supported. He made a joke and said send the uncle a picture of our three dogs and then donate the money to the SPCA. When I was imagining your recliners I pictured them as burgundy colored. It snowed all day today, and that contributed to my feeling so low. Are we ever going to have spring and summer here this year. My husband mentioned to my 18 year old granddaughter that as young as she was, she should be thinking about retirement planning. Her response was that she was planning for it, as her plans included marrying one of the rich oil guys she is going to meet working in the oil field. She got the summer job she applied for and it is doing admin work in the office in the oil field, starting Wednesday. I know she was just joking with us. I hope things start to go well for you soon. Carole
Dear Bettie! I swear I’m getting carpal tunnel syndrome paging down all 208 pages of your thread!! What color are those recliners?? You’re going to have to keep the cats off them or you won’t have one to sit on yourself. Went to my GA meeting and really wasn’t feeling like going, but glad I did as the meeting was really good. Those gambling urges may be coming from the fact that you’re physically ill. Gambling used to make me forget I wasn’t feeling well when I was sick. The fact was that gambling made me very sick, emotionally. It probably made me sick physically too with all the germs on those machines. People hardly take the time to use the bathroom. I wonder how many of them wash their hands? This disease is so crazy! We go along for sometimes long periods, thinking recovery isn’t so hard, and then wham, the thoughts and urges assault us. I thought about what gambling would be like today, even though I had no urges. Realized that it’s stressful as I know that it is a lose/lose situation for us cgs. We deserve better than that! It’s a real sickness that’s for sure. I actually went to church last Sunday and the sermon was on the power of words. I’m going to a church conference tomorrow evening and all day Saturday. And then to church on Sunday again if I’m not too beat from getting up so early on Saturday. This is me trying to work on my step 3. Hope you feel better really soon. Carole
Dear Bettie! You certainly are not hopeless and helpless! Good for you for exercising both days! Besides managing your blood sugars, they say that exercise is the second best thing someone with diabetes can do. You’ll find the balance; it may just take a little time. I was wondering where you were and was going to post to you, and then saw that you had posted to your thread and mine. What if you took the med for the cat and mixed it in some wet cat food?? If he got hungry enough he’d eat it. Should you be using the same spray for your ears and the cat’s? I’m feeling some anxiety about what the vet may tell me about Ruffuss. I fed him 1 1/2 pork chops at suppertime to see if he would eat, and he did. I usually just feed him and the other dogs snippets of people food, not a main diet of it. I wonder if you could moisturize the area where the cat is pulling his hair out with something hypoallergenic so that it wouldn’t itch him, so he would stop pulling out his hair. Maybe Vitamin E oil would work. Tomorrow I’m going for bloodwork and an ECG, and hubby has lots of errands he needs to do before going back to work on Wednesday, and he always likes it when I go with him. Wednesday I’m taking my granddaughter to the city to write her last exam. Thursday is GA and my weekend is completely taken up with the church conference and church on Sunday. Painting will have to wait till next week. Funny how for the first year of recovery, I could not find things to fill my time I used to spend gambling, and I was so worried that this was never going to change, and now I’m busy a lot of the time. Happy Recovery my Friend! Carole
Dear Bettie! Take it slow and get to know him. I used to date a guy I met in my philosophy class at university. He was just the nicest guy and we’d say once we graduated we were going to be "silly servants" (civil servants). And be happy taking the bus to work like regular folk do. My sister once made a comment to me that he looked like he was from skid row. She was judging him by his appearance and his clothing, and not by who he was. I would have married the guy had he asked but unfortunately his ex-girlfriend was stalking him, so I chose to extricate myself from that situation. I became a federal civil servant. Don’t know what became of him. I always tell my granddaughter to marry for nice, not for looks, as nice lasts longer. Carole
Dear Larry! I did locate my handouts from the conference and Bettie said she’d get them to me. I will send you the handouts on relapse prevention. This conference has got me to thinking a lot about my recovery. I believe in positive posting and thinking and behaving yourself to success. But I have come to the realization that honesty is more important. And to be honest like I posted on icandothis’ thread, I am still on step one having not mastered the first part of the step, believing that I am powerless over gambling, even though the end result of every slip I have had is the same. I have taken on shame as a result of all the slips I have had over the past 15/16 months. I am going to accept where I am at in recovery and expect that because I am wounded, I will not be buried. Each and every one of us is a wounded person here. I consider myself a person in recovery even though I slip. I always come back to GT. I don’t want to be a cg. I am feeling very sad today, and am not sure why. Some may think that I am not in recovery because I slip and slide, but honestly, I don’t give a rat’s ass anymore what they think anymore. Long-timers like you and Ken didn’t get recovery right off the bat, and yet I expect that from myself, and feel bad that I haven’t been able to do so. I am not expecting warm and fuzzies when I slip because that to ME is enabling. I just don’t want people to judge me for my failures. I do enough of that myself. Having have met you and seeing as you have had a lot of life experiences, I feel that I can be very honest wth you. Carole
Bettie, stop talking me up. People are going to expect someone I’m not, and are going to be disappointed. Seriously! Carole
Dear Bettie! To anyone reading, Bettie is a beautiful woman inside and out, much more than she gives herself credit for. After meeting Bettie, I felt like I had known her for many years, and that we had been BBF. I got to hear her stories till the wee hours of the night because we shared a room. So late in fact that I couldn’t sleep after that, so I couldn’t get up in time for the opening ceremonies, closing ceremonies, or the breakfast buffet. We laughed so much and it was wonderful to feel so comfortable with someone. Somehow, Bettie, my handouts from Lillian’s seminar and from the relapse prevention workshop didn’t make it home with me. Could they possibly be in one of the green folders?? Bettie toured us around Chicago and the city is absolutely beautiful architecturally, and the Navy Pier was fun, especially seeing all the Tiffany stained glass. I miss you B. One of us is going to have to move. Carole