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  • in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19222
    desdemona
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    Dear Bettie! We don’t owe anyone an explanation unless we want to give one. You have only one person to be accountable to and that’s you. You are a busy girl and I think it’s admirable that you do go to a GA meeting weekly. I have decided that I am no longer going to attend GA as my granddaughter comes to stay with me, starting Thursdays after she is finished her 4 shifts of fulltime hours. My granddaughter needs me more right now. My main form of support is GT, and I find I get all the support I could need here. Is your knee feeling less painful? Carole 

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19217
    desdemona
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    Dear Bettie! Well thank goodness it’s not a tear in your knee, so you won’t have to have surgery. Our doctors here are so quick to tell people they need physio because it’s covered through our provincial health care. You could go to one session and then ask for sheets of how to do the exercises. It’s always upsetting when someone damages your new vehicle. I had a huge rock chip in my windshield within a week of getting it. I understand it’s really tough not to pick up the phone when someone calls that you think you care about, even if the relationship is extremely toxic to you. Couldn’t you block the main numbers he calls you from and not answer the phone when you don’t recognize the number? Turn off your answering machine for a time so he can’t leave a message. Barriers just like for quitting gambling. Mentally prepare yourself in case he shows up at your work place as to what you will say and do. You need to recover from this guy too. Carole

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19214
    desdemona
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    Dear Bettie! Congratulations on your new baby niece. I love the name. Yikes the results of your MRI don’t sound good. Hopefully you won’t have to have surgery. I read the characteristics of co-dependency. I could not say yes to even one of them. So if I’m not co-dependent and am only financially dependent, then what do you call that? So proud of you for not picking up that phone when the friend with no benefit to you phoned. et us all know when you find out what treatment options you have. Carole

    in reply to: Day Two is Still a Day Away #21500
    desdemona
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    Dear Larry! I’m so happy for you that you had a wonderful father’s day, and that your daughter in France expressed her love for you so eloquently. Carole

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19205
    desdemona
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    Sorry Bettie, I’m not following you when you say you didn’t ask and that you looked at the disc and that it meant nothing to you. What disc?? Carole

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19202
    desdemona
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    Dear Bettie! I was wondering how the MRI went today. Do you have to wait for results? Sometimes they will tell you there if you’re like me, and ask what the technician thinks is showing or not showing. Did a bunch of painting today and my granddaughter and I went for breakfast at suppertime, and picked up a few things I needed at Walmart. Carole

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19189
    desdemona
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    Dear Bettie! Sorry to hear that you injured your knee. You know my thoughts on fwb- friend with no benefit to you. One of these days you’ll be done with him, and you’ll wonder why you let it go on for so long. My weekend wasn’t so hot either. Hubby was in his "let me try and control everything you do," and "I want to push all your buttons and fight with you." I’m happy he’s gone for the next two weeks just to have a break from him. He did leave me a long list of work to do in the rental and I don’t like being told what I need to do. I got my painting supplies ready and am going to paint in my house today. That was also on the list. Luckily for me the sun is shining today or I might just take to my bed and do nothing. Carole

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19178
    desdemona
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    Of course you love me Bettie!! I love you!! Always and forever!! Way to go on the passport application getting completed and mailed away. You did something really productive today! Carole

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19170
    desdemona
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    Name it and claim it: I am beautiful inside and outside! (because you are). You don’t have a boyfriend or husband because you believe all the mean spirited LIES that people have told you. Get yourself some post it notes and stick them everywhere in your condo and car and claim good things for yourself, like I am a beautiful child of God and am loveable exactly as I am. Hope you got that passport away. How long does it tkae before you get it? Carole

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19167
    desdemona
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    Dear Bettie! When someone younger than us dies that we know, it really brings it home that none of us knows when our last day could be. Great to hear that you are getting your passport application today. Don’t put off filling it in and get it off to the mail ASAP (today). How long does it take?? Carole

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19147
    desdemona
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    Dear Bettie! I have fond memories of our time spent together in Chicago. Especially of the conversation and laughs we had late into the night. That was the best part of the conference for me. I can assure you that you are doing nothing wrong. I do think that, like me, you are supersensitive. I used to think that if someone didn’t greet me as warmly as I thought they should, or didn’t seem like they wanted to talk to me for any length of time, that it was something about me. But guess what? Everything isn’t about me! They could be preoccupied with issues in their own lives, or it could just be inconvenient for them. Or maybe they don’t genuinely like me. Not everybody has to like me. I’m OK with that. A lot of us would love to be your best friend in real life, if we lived closer. Carole 

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19136
    desdemona
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    Interesting that Maria popped on chat! I was just thinking about her in the past day or two. Did she mention if her Dad had passed away, as the last time I spoke to her, her Dad was dying of cancer. You need to get yourself a passport, dear girl. Carole

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19134
    desdemona
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    Dear Bettie, Cat, and Debbie, sorry to all three of you for losing your Dads. Bettie, I didn’t know they had "secret shoppers" where you work. I can’t imagine you not interacting in a very friendly way with anybody that came in. Sorry that happened but like Debbie said, a person can’t be functioning on all cyclinders all of the time. Sounds like you’re doing really well with the eating and activity so kudos to you my friend. I have had 3 year old twin grandkids here for the past 27 hours and I’m done. They talk constantly and I can’t understand what they are saying unless I stop everything and listen carefully. And they were up at 6:00 am. I was asked to keep them another 24 hours and I had to say no, as I’m not cut out for babysitting for days. I need my downtime and my sleep. Carole 

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19126
    desdemona
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    Dear Bettie! I’m glad you’re doing so well! This is really hard to admit but I gambled today. I was feeling depressed and lonely, it was gloomy and raining and I said " Fuck it!" Am I allowed to say that here? So now I’m feeling just depressed! Carole

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19124
    desdemona
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    Dear Bettie! Thought I’d stop by and see what you’re up, but no hide or hair of you. Speaking of hares, my daughter was able to find a white rabbit for the flower bed on the net, exactly what we needed, but it’s coming from the US, so it could take a while. I’m off to my GA meeting in a bit. One member is celebrating 9 years of gamble free time, and it’s his last meeting before he moves away. I’m definitely out of sorts the past 2 days. Been having 4 hour naps during the day. Feeling pretty low but have been dealing with "things." Thought a lot of going gambling today and was looking for the littlest excuse but it didn’t come, so I escaped through sleeping. Had my husband not phoned, I would have probably slept through my meeting, which would not have been good as I’m bringing the cake.  Hope you’re doing well. Carole

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