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Thanks (((Liz))) for the supportive post. Yesterday I had an emotional day after I came home and was alone. I think the enormity of my decision to leave Danny finally hit. Before I was in a survival **** making arrangements to get a place to live, move my stuff, lose 4 of my 5 dogs because of the separation, etc. The thought of losing Ruffuss was the final straw. I would cry every time I thought of him. Plus feeling overwhelmed about the organizing and cleaning I have to do in my new place. Yesterday was the first day I really started living alone, as before that you were visiting and we were "vacationing." Today I will keep my goals very small and will do my dishes and finish sorting my papers to go into files into the filing cabinet. I have papers covering a good part of my bedroom floor. I am feeling better today and my mind is clearer. Carole  

[desdemona]

Thanks (((Liz))) for the post. I did not go to the BBQ as I have been really upset today as the time is getting closer for that family to take Ruffuss and I’m very depressed and crying about that. I talked to Danny about it, and he says come home. Part of me wants to go home so that I can keep Ruffuss. My granddaughters and I went for spa pedicures and I had a manicure as well, instead of going to Red Lobster. The girls then went on to the waterpark at West Edmonton Mall. I don’t tolerate emotional pain well. Probably why I became a cg. I have not had any urges to gamble, just to be with Ruffuss. Carole 

[desdemona]

That sucks about Sandra. Ken L said she was diagnosed with cancer in January of this year. I didn’t know as I hadn’t been on Safe Harbour for quite a while. I emailed you asking you what number your condo was and asking you to confirm the address I had for you. Liz graciously took those items for you back in her suitcase and she will mail them to you from the good ole USA. She really liked the bride and groom PEZ dispensers. Hope you’re doing well. Carole 

[desdemona]

Time for me to get serious about doing the things I need to do to move on in my new life alone. I had hoped that I would accomplish more than I did yesterday, but I am going to focus on the positive things I accomplished such as registering for a First Aid/CPR course for this coming Tuesday and Wednesday. Mine has expired and my resume says I have it, so I need to get recertified. I also did the school supply shopping for Kevin’s 2 boys as he is hospitalized with a brain injury. The boys mother has limited income and the school supply shopping is something Kevin would have done for his boys. Yesterday Kevin asked where his Dad was, and he had to be told that his Dad had **** a few years ago. He is still restrained as he is a flight risk from the hospital. On Thursday I travel back to my home in the country to look after the renters house till the end of the month, as Danny flies out to work on the 15th. I will have Ruffuss overnight with me on the 14th. I am feeling heart-broken that he is going to a new family on the 23th, even though he will be going to a loving home. I have lots of organizing and cleaning to do in my new place, as well as 4 panels of curtains to hem. Tonight I am going to a BBQ with my friend Valerie, that I invited myself to. I am taking my grandgirls to Red Lobster at noon today as I told them we would go there and celebrate my birthday. I miss them now that I’m living in the city. They are staying in the city this weekend as their parents are participating in a 5 km mud obstacle raceway. Carole

[desdemona]

Way too much eating!!! Glad you arrived home safely. Kevin asked where his Dad was, and his sister had to tell him that his Dad had **** a few years ago. Brain injuries are just so sad! Carole

[desdemona]

So sorry to hear that Sandra/Gams passed away. She was an integral part of Safe Harbour and we talked and laughed together on many occasions. On a lighter note, Liz and I are back from our mini-vacation to Banff, Lake Louise, and the Columbian Icefields. We drove on a glacier that is as thick as the Eifel Tower is tall. I know that my driving scared Liz on more than one occasion. How is that distracted driving when a person is driving, sight seeing, talking, and eating at the same time??? This is the first time I have driven as I have always been the passenger and someone else has gotten us to our destination. Today will be a chill day for us as Liz ***** to get up at 3:00 am to get ready to get to the airport tonight for her flight out. It’s been a fun filled week and now reality has to set in for me. Things like looking for a job, etc. Carole 

[desdemona]

The plan we came up with for yesterday evening was to go out for supper and then go to a comedy club. I can’t remember the last time I laughed so much or so ridiculously. Today we just chilled in our pjs. We aren’t Everready *******, and couldn’t keep going and going…..They say the road to **** is paved with good intentions. My intention was to **** supper today, but after ****** around for most of the day, I wasn’t feeling like ****ing, so we went out for supper. In the morning we are leaving for Banff for a few days. Carole 

[desdemona]

Thank you (((Vera))) and (((Sherry))) for your posts. Vera- the rest of the song goes " Know when to walk away, know when to RUN……..LOL! Some of us take longer to learn when to run. Liz and I have been on the go since she arrived here. Today we went to Heritage Days where many countries have pavilions where they showcase their foods and dance, as well as you can buy souvenirs from that country. It was a hot day and we ate lots but probably the best thing we ate was the premium ice cream we bought from a guy with a cart. We walked a lot and it is a hot day, so we didn’t make our venture out a whole day affair. We came home and us old gals laid down for an afternoon rest, which was my idea. Yesterday we went to the Space Sciences Centre to the Body Works display. Liz said she had wanted to go to that when it had come where she lives, but hadn’t gone, so we went. I was as nauseous the second time around just like the first time I had gone. Real bodies that have been plasticined to show how the inside of the body looks like. We went to West Edmonton Mall to show Liz the attractions in the mall, like the Olympic size skating rink, the huge water wave park, Galaxyland which is a whole carnival of rides, the lifestyle replica of Christopher Columbus’ ship the Santa Maria, etc.  The mall has its own big casino but I didn’t show her THAT! Then we had a pizza party with my awesome adult granddaughter, and my friend Valerie, who is a natural born story teller. I laughed till I had a stomach ache. I don’t know what the plan is for the evening, but I’m sure we’ll come up with one. Carole 

[desdemona]

Whohoo! Coffee, shower, load my vehicle, and off I go to the city for 2 weeks. No cleaning to do except my own suite. Liz and I are going on our roadtrip as well as exploring Edmonton. We are going to go on a glacier tour in a vehicle that looks like a bus with skiddo tracks in Banff, and are going to soak in the hot springs. I’m hoping we can go and have high tea at the Chateau Lake Louise. I was up at 7:00 am this morning. Carole 

[desdemona]

Dear (((Debbie)))! Way to go on not giving in to the strong gambling urges. The staff at GT are awesome people, and have helped me out more ***** than I can *****. I can understand you being upset hearing about the ***s your ex is telling about you. You have to remember that his whole life is based on ***s in the persona he presents to others. It is a reflection of him, not you, that he has to *** to be acceptable to another woman. I am wondering why you are still in contact with his sister who seems to derive some perverse satisfaction in telling you things that really upset you. Some people are not good to continue having in our lives and the sister may be one of them. As much as you think that her loyalty is with you, I am guessing that some of what you talk to her about gets back to your ex. Your ex did you wrong for too many years, and you kept yourself in that dysfunctional relationship, just like I did, out of fear of the unknown, and maybe that’s what you’re rageful about. Remember KARMA, and the universe will take care of the ex. It just doesn’t seem fast enough some*****!! Carole    

[desdemona]

(((Bettie))) I’m so happy to hear that you had an awesome time with Deb and her friend. It’s nice to go away but I always like to come home after and sleep in my own bed. I had a dream last night that my daughter got a parcel in the mail and I asked her if I could have the box it came in, as I said I needed it to mail a few things to you. Carole  

[desdemona]

(((Bettie))) That is a good suggestion giving it to Liz to mail. You’ll probably get it a lot sooner that way, as stuff seems to get hung up in customs a lot. It’s very hot here today and in about 3 hours, I will be making the 3 1/2 hour trek to the city. Carole

[desdemona]

Dear (((Bettie)))! Way to go on not gambling at the pub. Good for you for advocating for your health as well. The decorative items I said I was going to mail to you, have made it from my sewing room to a box going to my new place tomorrow. I’m getting there, but it’s still going to be a while till I can find the appropriate box, brown paper, etc. I need to get myself organized. Carole

[desdemona]

I made an effort to get out there today and do some things as I was feeling bored.  I went to see a movie with my granddaughter (Grownups 2), went for supper to the hotel café, with Ingrid my casual friend, and then Ingrid and I went to Walmart. Small town living! I’m disappointed that Cat isn’t going to be able to come meet us, as I’m sure Liz will be. Carole

[desdemona]

Dear (((Cat)))! Waiting to hear whether you can join Liz and I. Can you phone me or email me please??? I took my granddaughter to see the movie Grownups 2 and it was pretty funny. It’s good to laugh and to get out of the house to do something recreational at *****. Carole

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