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I will not be travelling back to the country today to celebrate Christmas with family. My cold has gotten worse with fits of deep coughing, sore throat, runny nose, and I feel poorly. Just the kind of houseguest everyone wants for the holidays! Not!!!I’m not posting this because I want sympathy, just for information sake. I prefer to stay home as it feels overwhelming to drive 3 1/2 hours. My suite is warm and comfortable and I can’t infect anyone else with this nasty cold. To me Christmas Day is every day, so it’s not a big deal to spend it with my cats. I told Danny that I wasn’t coming and he took the news graciously which surprised me. My daughter said that I had to do what was best for me. And staying home is best for me. I feel relieved that I’m doing what is best for me, and in spite of feeling poorly, I’m OK with my decision on an emotional level. So I don’t want anybody to think that I’m not OK. Carole

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Dear (((trinitysky)))! I was wondering how you were doing. I’m thinking about you and hoping you have something good happen in your life. Carole

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You’re not posting (((Liz)))! Are you alright?? How was your dinner with your Mom and daughter(s)? Carole

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I don’t want to go into the holiday season without thanking the staff at GT, because without you, many of us wouldn’t still be here in recovery. I have learned so much from you and have had support that is invaluable, and for that I thank you from the bottom of my heart. Wishing you happy holidays and a new year full of blessings! What you do makes a huge difference to us recovering compulsive gamblers. Carole

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December is truly the month of miracles. One day at a time this will be my first gamble free month in 3 years! Enough with sabotaging myself by having a slip(s) every month. The relentless urges I’ve experienced in the past 2 days are gone, thankfully!! Carole

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Dear (((Lorraine)))! We haven’t heard from you for a very long time, but I still think of you, and wonder how you are. I tried to get on the safe harbour site to see if I could reconnect with you, but my computer will not allow me in. I hope you have a blessed Christmas and that you are still working on your recovery. Carole

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Merry Christmas Dear Friend! I think of you being with your grandchildren during the holidays. I can’t imagine anything better for you! I look forward to seeing what the new year brings you, and am wishing it is blessings raining down from heaven. Thank you for being such a good friend to me, and for all the support you have given me on my recovery journey. Carole

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Dear (((Debbie)))! Wishing you a Merry Christmas and a very happy new year full of blessings!!! Thank you for all the support you’ve given me on my recovery journey!!! Carole

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Dear (((Bettie)))! Wishing you a Merry Christmas and a happy new year that rains blessings down on you. Thanks for all your support in my recovery journey. Carole

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Dear (((Nacole)))! Please keep posting so that we can support you on your recovery journey. Wishing you the best of the Christmas holidays and a happy New Year, filled with gamble free days. Recovery is possible but support is essential. Carole

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Dear (((Kathryn)))! I wanted to wish you a very Merry Christmas and a new year full of blessings! Thank you for all the support you have given me in my recovery journey. Carole

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Thank you (((Vera))) and (((sad))) for your kind emails. It’s nice that you have graced us with your presence (((Vera))) and have posted so everyone knows you’re doing well and gamble free!! LOL! In all seriousness (((Vera))), people here miss your support but I do understand that you needed to look after yourself first before you could be here to support others. If you were still gambling I doubt that you would be making almond paste for your cake. You’d probably would be holed up in one of those dark dingy gambling venues you described in previous posts. Much better to be in the light and enjoy the fruits of being gamble free. (((sad))), I think that you are dead on when you say that once people have lost ones to death, Christmas starts to become associated with emotional pain and grief. I will probably enjoy the next few days more than I anticipate in spite of my cold having morphed into a worse cold. I wish everyone on this site, a very Merry Christmas and a gamble free new year. I’m going to be hanging on tight to my seat on the recovery train. Carole

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Dear Larry! I wanted to wish you a Merry Christmas and a very happy new year with blessings raining down on you. Carole

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Dear (((trinitysky)))! If you work on recovering from your gambling addiction, things will eventually fall into place for you. Compulsive gamblers are often not the most patient people and often things need time to work themselves out. I believe that better days are ahead but it probably will take time. One day at a time and you’ll get there. Carole

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Dear (((Liz)))! Thanks for your supportive kind post. Vera sent me an email and we talked about this anxiety about someone dying as she said she feels the same way. I have come to the conclusion that I am worried about my recovery if someone I love dies. When my brother died, my gambling spiralled even more out of control. I never want to go back to how emotionally ill I was when I was gambling totally out of control. I don’t deal with death well! That’s one of the big reasons why I find how you handled your husband dying so inspirational. You didn’t go off the deep end and return to gambling like there was no tomorrow. I only have to get through tomorrow (23th) and then I’ll be travelling to the country. If I’m smart, I’ll use the time to clean my house and to pack a few clothes, so I can leave early on the 24th. We have been invited to Danny’s daughter’s for dinner on Christmas Eve and then will go to my daughter’s on Christmas Day. I will be driving home on the 26th as I don’t want to leave Pablo and Ferris for any longer than I have to. One day at a time, and moment by moment some days. Thanks for being my friend! Carole

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