As I am very determined this time, day 1 was successful. However I haven’t been really productive today.
There are some problems that come along the road and that were reasons for my relapses;
– Not satisfied with life and how things are going/ depressive, so badly that I just want my buzz from gambling and then comes the point where I just don’t care anymore.
– In battle with myself; not happy with home-situation and more personal problems, so I go on gambling. Not happy with losing, but the buzz the gambling gives me is enough to pick the side of gambling. It drives me crazy, there are 2 sides and both are just letting me down. It feels like I’ve got nowhere to go.
