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Survived day 3, it was a tough one

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Stuck in a feeling that I can’t achieve anything

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Good thing you’ve come to realization. And you’re right; It’s definitely not going to be easy, I’m struggling myself at the moment.

Hang in there!

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Thanks for your reply. I guess I was forgotten how stubborn this addiction is.

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Crazy how I just fall back in the “I don’t care-mode”

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I hate myself, I hate my life. I just want to go gamble.

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It doesn’t really matter if you win or lose, the end result is always the same; you end up with nothing. The winning just makes the addiction worse. You get more and more controlled.

I also felt I needed to stop at 1 point, but it’s easy talking afterwards. At that moment you’re caught and the only thing you can do is gambling.

Use this anger or frustration of having nothing at the moment to have everything with the next paycheck. Do all the things you couldn’t do now, don’t try gamble it again. You’ll get stuck and the addiction just gets stronger. I’ve been there, wasted paycheck after paycheck for a year long. You don’t want to get there.

I didn’t want to stop neither, I just wanted to win. Problem is winning is not possible when you’re a compulsive gambler. You’ll just want to win more and more (there’s no limit), till you finally lose it all again. You can waste a few more years to get to that insight, but that would be regrettable.

Wish you the best.

Dave

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It’s always the same story; we are losing our money with gambling. We hope to win and if we do, we want to win more, till we’ve lost everything, but most of the time we just lose. There’s no possible way for us to win.

Our mind is preoccupied with money and gambling. We make life harder, everytime we go gambling. We hit new rock bottoms. Then life sucks even more and we get more urges.

Make the decision to stop this cycle, there’s no end to it. You say you’ve got nothing, but a job. That’s all you need. Just work, pay of debts and find things you like to do with the rest of your time. Gambling doesn’t do you any good, just makes things worse.

Wish you the best

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Haven’t been gambling today. I don’t want to.

I did have one urge today. I was planning to stop smoking as well since my first post, but today I felt down and bought cigarettes again. When I smoked my first one, I thought about the future and the urge came.

I could’ve asked for money with an excuse, but instead I made it clear to myself that I don’t want to gamble. I can do whatever I want, but just not gambling.

I’ve made this decision and I’m doing this for myself. I won’t let the people around me let me doubt this decision (they can affect my mood, which can lead to an urge).

My priority for now is me finding inner peace. I’m on the right track.

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Don’t let money take a hold on your mind. This is the reason for an eventual relapse. Just work, earn money, pay of debts and with the time left find a way to enjoy life. Being preoccupied with money takes away the time you can use to enjoy life.

And I agree with Vera, be careful with a loan. Me too have made the mistake to increase my debt, by gambling it.

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It’s never too late to stop. Money isn’t everything. It’s important to find your inner peace and to calm your mind. Your doing this for yourself. You’ve made the decision to stop. Never doubt that decision, no matter what comes in your way. Gambling shouldn’t be a part of your life anymore, as it just makes life harder.

Wish you all the best.

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Thanks for always being so supportive.

Well said, better yet; It’s time to rediscover life.

I find that gambling has had a control of my life long enough and it that time in did nothing good for me.

Time to move on.

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Hi Paul,

Keep strong, you will get through these day’s.

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Thanks for the support!

Seems like were in this together. I’m sorry to hear about your suicide attempts. Amazing how this disease progresses and can lead to suicide. And even knowing this, we just fool ourselves and keep on gambling; “That won’t happen to me”.

I did have lot of suicidal thoughts last 6 months, it always stayed with thoughts. It’s just not worth it.

We can make our own decisions and our decision for now is that we will stop gambling. It doesn’t matter how others do or feel or make us feel. Don’t let others drive you crazy. We’re doing this for ourselves.

We can do this.

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Thanks for the support.

The problems isn’t not wanting to stop. It’s the problems that come along the way, that lead to a relapse.

Gambling isn’t the solution to the problem and probably just makes it worse, but at that moment you’ll just think I want my buzz and combining it with magically thinking makes you want to gamble.

Then comes the identity of the gambler, does he/she has a mood disorder or a personality disorder or is he/she not an assertive type. Is he/she prone to magical thinking.

All this and other aspects are playing a role in having a relapse or not.

I’ve now come to a point where I won’t let my environment have an influence on my gambling anymore. I refuse that, I’m doing this for myself and not for anyone else.

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