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Day#15
“addiction is the best thing that happened to me”
I remember this quote from one youtube video for Dr.Gabor Mate he was quoting the feedback from some of his patients.

I can’t say the same thing, it is the worst thing that can ever happen to a person especially the gambling addiction. but I can understand why someone can say that.

I think now I know myself better.

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hi
After your reply I have just noticed the previous post from a year ago (#52697) , I guess it is an automatic post by an advertisement software, I hope the Admin here can remove it because it’s inappropriate for this site. I really hope it is done by automatic software I can’t imagine how evil a person could be to do such a thing manually in a gambling therapy site.

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Day#14,
reading more about SMART recovery, it looks like a good approach that attacks the addiction from the roots.

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Day#13,
almost two weeks since the last relapse. no urges to gamble but still feeling down, I had a few hours of hope in the last few days but the main theme still depression, low self-esteem, confused and overwhelmed with the life problems caused by gambling ( or the gambling was an escape of it). either way, I should face all my demons one at a time because I am really overwhelmed.
yesterday I went back to GYM and start dieting again at least this is one aspect of my life that I put in track again and I have a plan and target for it.

I am reading about SMART recovery, I have downloaded their handbook I am going to read it today.

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hi Edhavana,
the past has happened and no way to change it. what you can change is what you are doing now and what you will do to prevent it from happening again. this is what is important now. don’t give up, you have done really well by staying 5 months free of gambling. check what went wrong.. what caused this relapse and plan on how to prevent it in the future.
I know it sucks, I been there many many many times. but we have to start over and learn from our mistakes.

I have been exactly in this situation many times, if I got unexpected money, as a bonus check, or if I applied for a loan to buy a car or something, as soon as the money is in my account the urges will start and will not stop until I give it up all to gambling…., I have relapse 12 days ago and I have received my salary before 2 days, the money came in and the urges started with it. our drug is the money so don’t keep any extra money with you.

for credit\debit card you can just scratch the 3 digits in the back then you can’t use them online, or bock them and order new and scratch the new if you have it autosaved or if you still can remember the 3 digits.
put a web blocker, I am using coldturkey blocker it is hard to switch it off.
and the main thing is to limit your access to money, the easiest way is to give control to your partner or to a family member.

one more thing I can really relate to in your post is doing well for few days and losing everything in few hours, my analysis to this in my case that my brain was screaming I need a rest but the addiction was keeping me in the game until a point where my brain figure out the solution to this situation is to lose everything so he can rest and survive.

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Day#12,
the depression is less today, this is the life and time heals all wounds.
I am getting better every day, today I have started thinking and planning what I need to do to solve my life problems and to progress in life.
I am going back to GYM today it has been months since i last time I was in the gym. and start dieting again I gained a lot of weight during this one and a half year of relapses.
life is smiling to me today, and I am grateful for that.

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ہیلو جی ریک ، اسمارٹ میٹنگ کا ذکر کرنے کے لیے شکریہ ، میں اس کے بارے میں تجسس میں مبتلا ہو گیا ، اس کے بارے میں کچھ یوٹیوب ویڈیوز دیکھ کر مددگار لگتا ہے۔ میں اس کے بارے میں مزید تلاش کروں گا اور ایک میٹنگ میں شرکت کرنے کی کوشش کروں گا۔

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Hallo G Rec, danke für die Erwähnung von SMART Meeting, ich bin neugierig geworden, was es ist, habe mir ein paar Youtube-Videos angesehen, die hilfreich sind. Ich werde mehr darüber suchen und versuchen, an einem Treffen teilzunehmen.

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Hej G Rec, tak fordi du nævner SMART -møde, jeg blev nysgerrig efter hvad det er, så få YouTube -videoer om det ser nyttigt ud. Jeg vil søge mere om det og prøve at deltage i et møde.

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Hi G Rec,
thanks for mentioning SMART meeting, I got curious about what it is, watched few youtube videos about it looks helpful.
I will search more about it and try to attend a meeting.

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Привіт, G Rec, дякую за згадку про зустріч SMART, мені стало цікаво, що це таке, подивився декілька відеороликів на YouTube, які виглядають корисними. Я пошукаю про це докладніше і спробую відвідати зустріч.

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Здравейте G Rec, благодаря, че споменахте SMART среща. Стана ми любопитно какво е това, гледах няколко видеоклипа в YouTube за това изглежда полезно. Ще потърся повече за това и ще се опитам да присъствам на среща.

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Szia G Rec, köszönöm, hogy megemlítetted a SMART találkozót, kíváncsi lettem, mi ez, néztem néhány youtube videót, ami hasznosnak tűnik. Többet keresek erről, és megpróbálok részt venni egy találkozón.

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Sveiki, G Rec, paldies, ka minējāt SMART sapulci, man radās interese par to, kas tas ir, noskatījos dažus youtube videoklipus par to, kas izskatās noderīgi. Es meklēšu vairāk par to un mēģināšu apmeklēt sanāksmi.

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Xin chào G Rec, cảm ơn bạn đã đề cập đến cuộc họp SMART, tôi rất tò mò về nó là gì, đã xem một vài video trên youtube về nó có vẻ hữu ích. Tôi sẽ tìm kiếm thêm về nó và cố gắng tham gia một cuộc họp.

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