[Dark Energy]

Day#79
it has been a while since my last post here, 79 days .. YES
I didn’t reach this number for more than two years, so this is really a promising start for me.

we usually say one day at a time, but for me, it is one payday at a time. because the urges come only with the money, and money comes on payday. if I managed the payday then the rest of the month will pass smoothly.
I am still in the early stages but I can see my self-confidence and self-esteem starting to increase, my sleep is much better, and my focus at work is getting better.

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keep it up JVR, after raisingphoenix you are the next for the 1-year mark, plan a good celebration for that day.
wish you all the best.

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Don, My friend, you are in the same place, you need to move from ( I need to control it ) to ( I need to overcome this addiction).

yes, the gambler part in your brain will be there trying to pull you back to gambling but at least the rational part of your brain should be totally convinced that you can’t control gambling, read books about gambling, and watch youtube videos about it. do all that you can do to move from position 1 to position 2 where you are planning how to really recover from this addiction.

I know it is hard to do this transition, it took me a long time to do so. but this needs to be done to start your real recovery.

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hi Gustav,
congrats on your 18 days, keep it up and soon you will hit the 1-month mark,
I have started taking a supplement called NAC google it. I started using it 3 or 4 days ago but it has had a good impact on my mood. try it may help you.

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Day#42,
thank you Gustav for your support, it is getting easier with time.
wish you all the best.
DE

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Congratulations Raisingphoenix, it is time to celebrate after all this hard work. you did it my friend.

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Day#37,
I received the money in the middle of the day, and once I receive it I literally said f***, I was not prepared and had some urges to gamble again but the road blockers worked this time, and I managed to transfer the money and protect it from me. if I kept it I am sure I will find a way around my road blockers ( i always do, unfortunately). but now I am safe again, the next will be payday 20 days from now I will have enough time to prepare for it.
I am celebrating this win that could have turned into a relapse if there were no road blockers.

I was not prepared, I just receive a payment yesterday and it covered

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thanks Gustav,

Today is Day#36,
for the past 5 or 6 months, I didn’t cross the 38 Days mark I hope I will do it this time, today was a great day and another battle that I won against my addiction. I am expecting to receive a good payment this week and I have planned for it, but what happened today is that I receive good unexpected payments, the good thing is I was ready with a plan to distribute it and acted immediately once it hits my account, I have distributed everything before I reach home, I know if I reach home it will be difficult to fight the urges so I distributed everything immediately and I won this battle.
now I am current with all my payments, and I have extra money saved and protected from me.

the next step is to plan ahead for the next battle that will be soon within 2 or 3 days.

in general, today was a good wonderful, I was focused at work, received an unexpected payment, went out with friends after work, and had good time. I need more of these days.

wish the best to all of you.
DE

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Hi Don,
you didn’t post for a while, I hope everything is going well.
wish you all the best
DE

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Hi jvr,
you didn’t post for a while, I hope everything is going well.
wish you all the best
DE

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Hi Risingphoenix,
I hope you are doing well.

I am waiting to celebrate your 1-year mark, I guess you still need one or two days, congratulations in advance.

DE

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Hi Gustav,
keep it up, you crossed the difficult few days after relapse, it will get easier with time.

wish you all the best my friend.
DE

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Day#34,

next week will be my next challenge, the plan is ready to distribute the money once it reach my account.

in the other hand I have quite a depressed today the trigger was a side talk with frinds and all these comparisons that runs in my head and how i am realy in bad shape in every aspect of my life compared to my peers ,
anyhow i have to reasone my way out of this loop of thinking that has lead me to relapse many time.

just back from work and instead of bench watching YouTube and movies I will go for a walk and once i back home i will work for few hours I am way behind at work and I am wasting a lot of time as well.

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thank you Gustav for your support,

Today is Day#31,
the first month passed, and from a gambling addiction perspective everything looks fine so far, I don’t have urges to gamble, and regarding the other aspects my mood is better, my self-confidence start increasing, and my focus at work started to increase as well, I am not in a perfect situation I am far from it but everything on track now.

that’s it for today,
DE

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Day#28,

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