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We are talking to the doctor tomorrow try for the hospice. Yeah I have always when down turned to gambling and it has crossed my mind but I have faced it head on and chose not to gamble as I know this is the right choice .

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I am proud to say I am still refraining from gambling and today it’s now 5 weeks. Been busy at work and unfortunately we have some family sadness as someone very close has been given approx 2 weeks to live ……I sat with her the last few days and it is heart wrenching to see a shadow of a person that once was and the pain they are going through so not feeling too good and to top it off my husband is away till next Sunday when I could do with a hug but on the bright side I am not gambling. Hope your both doing well …and thanks for caring .

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Yes nice to meet you too , I get excited when I realise I haven’t thought about gambling for a few hours now as when it was constant i never thought it would end. Sat here alone at present as hubby out and have kept busy . Yes see you in chat very soon .

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Hi Charles Thanks for your kind words , I went in to the support group 2 nights running and wondered where you were as I was in the room with a Canadian and Australian and then realised it was the wrong time lol . It was helpful and interesting though . I have always fancied a cruise so that’s an option .

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Thanks Jappy Keep Strong and yes IDI it was nice to meet you too , I am strong and determined and excited as I have a new hobby in going to the gym and am keeping busy exercising . The only thing that’s on my mind a lot is Las Vegas i have been 4 times lol CG paradise ha ha . It will pass . Good luck lovely people

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The cycle of addiction…..just re read through this and it’s what has happened to me , I had a year gamble free previous to coming here 3 weeks and one day ago and I reached rock bottom and was so proud to say a year gamble free but even after all this time I succumbed to a bet that led to losing a lot of money in 3 weeks and although I start this post saying I have 550 coming back it was nothing to what I lost . I was asked last night what was the trigger …. I think I just let my guard down and thought I could handle it but I know now I can never gamble again and I feel lucky it was only 3 weeks. I had a weak moment that could of easily got worse and the only way forward is to stay STRONG.

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Never a truer word as I have just read written by Vera on the forum is …….A compulsive gambler will always find a way if they want to gamble , just read this and it struck a cord , so true we will always find a way and as I have not gambled for nearly 3 weeks I obviously don’t want to gamble ….or I don’t want to find a way to gamble …I want to learn to face it head on and not do it .

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Thank you Vera I tackled the ironing lol and feel safe now the family are here . Hope all going well for you .

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Today as I am on annual leave was the first time I was left on my own as hubby and daughter back to work , met up with a friend in the morning and in the afternoon I had time to myself and it hit me like a speeding train, the urge to gamble was un bearable, its funny how the mind plays tricks , luckily I had this forum to turn to , I sat and read through the stories and stayed strong but the thoughts are strong and won’t leave me today . Hope your all doing well

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Yes one day at a time …. wish every day was a good one lol it’s hard when temptation comes knocking, I have fought it and won so far ….

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Still doing good and it’s getting better , I am currently staying up north and re visited Blackpool for the day , my husband reminded me the last time we were here I spent my time on the roulette wheel and slots the last time we were here last year , he wasn’t aware I had a problem then and neither did I if I am honest ….thought I could control it , I was soooo happy today cos I didn’t want to go in , I didn’t have the craving the desire the Need to go in , it was a milestone in my journey, I know I will face things again and will not be so strong but until that day I hold my head high and will carry on the fight . Hope you are all doing well

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Thank you for your advice, yes I suppose it could be worse in the fact that I could still be losing if I had’nt stopped . It’s early days and hazy at the mo but I know I will get there as so many of you have done so and all your stories and experiences give me hope and I am learning that what I am going through is normal.

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I love YouTube its brilliant how you can watch whatever you want , I am into these exercise routines at mo try to take away the body I built up through my depression that doesn’t seem to wanna budge …. not that I have done any yet I am at the watching stage , I like the party, dance music ones and I am building myself up to start as I did with this site …. watch and learn is my way . Feeling a bit disappointed with myself as I can’t stop dwelling on the money I lost …..hope you are all doing good .

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I was out for the day yesterday and I must admit , gambling was still on my mind but not so intense, I was so tired when I got home I went straight to bed, so my routine was messed up …..it worked out good for me . Slept well for the first time in a long time, I am feel positive and strong and just worried about how I am going to cope with the next strong urge where I fight myself . Anyway gotta go to work…..I feel I am lucky and suppose winning as I am lucky to have my family and friends and managed to keep down a job …thank goodness cos I need to pay back all my losses . Have a wonderful gamble free day all of you

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I have excluded and joined other sites in the past and yes it’s so easy this would definitely be good . Glad I read this post cos I am day 4 and my mind is consumed with thoughts of gambling and to know its normal is helpful , weeks is better than years and I too have started reading …….not sure why I have chose crime thrillers lol but if it keeps me from gambling.

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