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Hi everyone,
I’m happy to be back, Actually on day 9.
My car has been in the shop for the last couple big weeks, so hopefully when I get it back tomorrow I can stay on the straight and narrow.
Seriously, that did make it much easier, not having transportation, because my husband definitely won’t take me.
And, I still have money in my accounts. Maybe I will try one of the groups, it definitely won’t hurt.
Taking it one day at a time…..

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Hello,
One day at a time!
Good luck my friend!

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Do it for yourself, do it so that your family and girlfriend can have the best version of you again.
It’s hard, it’s hard as crap, but we have to want it bad enough.
I wish we could gamble like normal folks, but when you find yourself on this site, more than likely you are a compulsive gambler.
Good luck my friend, let’s work on getting our old life back. One day at a time. We can do this.

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Hello Housedd,
Unfortunately, the majority that come to this site has experienced all the feels that you are currently experiencing.
Saying I’ll stop today is so easy to say, but following through takes everything in us.
I actually feel like there’s something wrong with me. Why I can’t be normal, why I can’t gamble a little while and go home. Unfortunately, it’s not that easy for some of us, even when I’m on the top, I don’t stop until I lose it all (plus all the other money I can get my hands on at the time (ATM).
I Know it’s possible to stop, because of the success stories I have read on this site.
I know it will take a lot of hard work, but let’s work towards feeling the way we did before gambling took over our lives.
Good luck my friend!

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Wow, I’m actually on Day 5, Gamble free.
It’s not much, which I know, but it’s a start.

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Hello,
and welcome to the site. I have been on and off for some years now.
This is my day 1 again.
I also learned a while back, it’s not about the win with me either; because even when I win, I still leave broke.
I enjoy the play, but when I leave I always leave angry at myself, depressed, embarrassed and feeling like a loser. I know that I am better than that person, so I plan to start living that way.
I have been given another day to get it right, and that’s what I plan to do.
Good luck on your journey.

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Hi GRec,
Good to hear, so happy for you.

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Thank you Davidbetting1

Today was a good day!

2 days, Gamble Free
I am a “recovering” compulsive gambler, and I plan to get back up as many times as it takes to stay gamble free.

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Thank you all for being here, sharing, and most of all for “listening.”
I have returned to gambling on a few occasions after relaping.
I am ready to get back on track, it felt so good to reach those 70+ gamble free days recently.
I’m looking forward to reaching 70 plus days again (PLUS MANY MANY MORE)..

Thank you all again for the support.

1 day, gamble free
I am a “recovering” compulsive gambler, and I plan to get back up as many times as it takes to stay gamble free.

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Losingitslowly,
Thank you. And you are so right,
that is so me when I go to play. I would go alone, and just hearing everyone around me getting loud just annoyed the heck out of me. Especially, if all they won was $20-$30…
I socialize fine at work Monday-Thurs, but I really don’t want to see them again until next Monday when I leave Thursday afternoon.
If someone would have told me this would be my life 11 years ago, I would have laughed and said “you’re crazy as heck, because I would never throw away money like that, that’s crazy”…. But here I am.
I already thought something was wrong with me because I never cared to be around people, now I have to spend my energy on not going to do something that honestly give me the most excitement, whether I’m winning or losing. The pain and embarrassment don’t hit until your money is gone and you realized you have screwed up once more.

Thank you again for sharing, and encouragement.

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Unju197/Velvet,

Thank you so much for your encouraging words, I sitting here literally in tears.
I just want to be normal again, I just want to be able to remove the last 10 years of my life. I am soo tired of always worrying about gambling, worrying about losing all my money.
I have a husband, but he feel like I should be able to just stop. I attended a few GA Mtgs before Covid, but I made the mistake of taking him to my last one. I was too embarrassed to return after that. He was sitting there with his little smug comments, I just wanted to crawl under the table.
I’m an introvert, so I have no circle of friends by choice. I can’t explain it, but I honestly don’t like being around people. I like people, but being around them give me anxiety. I know it sounds crazy, I feel like I’m going crazy daily.
So, this forum is the only place I can talk and be open and not feel judged. I just want to be normal sooo bad again. This disease is so scary, I feel stuck. I just want it all to stop.
I’m not suicidal, even though I think of not wanting to be here if this is my life, daily.

I’m just venting and ranting because I’m feeling so hopeless at this moment.
I know this too shall pass. Hopefully, soon.

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Thank you so much Kin for your kind, encouraging words.

Danieldrake1 Congratulations on your46 days of being gamble free. (Yayyy)

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I’m feeling very sad tonight, today has been a rouge day. My emotions are all over the place.
Most people go home to wine or something, I wish I could have went to gamble today. But, I didn’t. So, I just want to sit and cry.

I am a “recovering” compulsive gambler, and I plan to get back up as many times as it takes to stay gamble free.

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Hello,
All is well, just checking in.

I am a “recovering” compulsive gambler, and I plan to get back up as many times as it takes to stay gamble free.

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Trust me, it’s not you, he’s really angry at himself.
It’s nothing like having something so bad being such a big part of your life, destroying your life and you feel so hopeless because no matter how hard you try you just have no control over it.
I’m living with this demon every day, I ask God, every day, why was this put on me, what did I ever do to deserve such a curse….
Trust me, it’s not you.
And the other thing is when there’s no money to gamble with, you get upset and mad with whomever you think have money and just won’t give it to you.

Stand firm, it’s really hard, but my family stop giving me money when I was still gambling every day, after I came clean and they knew what I was doing with it. This was after helping me out of financial binds a time or two. I use to get mad at them, eventhough I know I had brought it all on myself.

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