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I got soooo tickled when you said He’s tired of the casino’s too.
I bet He is, because I use to talk to Him like he was sitting there beside me when I was losing, I would be sitting there begging him to pleaseee let me win just one more time, pleaseee, if you would just please let me get my money back this time I will leave (go home)…
I use to be there begging for a miracle. The bad part was when I would go back up, I still wouldn’t leave.

But, I’m so thankful for progress.???

One day at a time…

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Day 32 Gamble Free
I am a “recovering” compulsive gambler….
I met a friend for lunch today, and I had a little time before my appointment, I had to buy my new car tag. I thought about going to gamble, but I went to the mall to look for a Christening gift. Then I went on to buy my tag. It didn’t take as long, and the thought crossed my mind again. I actually had to have a conversation with myself, I reminded myself that I have made it to 32 days and if I acted on that feeling to gamble, I would be starting completely over again. So, I stopped by Walmart picked up a couple items and came home. I know it’s no one but God who is walking with me, keeping me on track. There was a time when I would have gambled, lost all the cash in my purse and used every dollar in my account (ATM).
I would have been sitting here beating myself up, having a serious pity party; but, I stayed strong, and now I’m headed into Day 33 Gamble Free…
One day at a time….

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It (recovery) feel really strange this time, I don’t feel as irritated, bothered, I’m not thinking about playing/gambling every other minute of the day. When I have attempted to stop gambling in the past I felt like I was trying to come off a drug or something and it was scary.
I am sooo thankful for this peace I feel this go around. I feel that it is actually positive to stay on track this time.???

“One day at a time!”

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I ran into this gentleman today who I use to see at the internet cafes gambling.
I told him I was Gamble Free for one month today. He was so excited for me, and said he was working on getting there. He said knowing I decided to stop has motivated him to try to stop. He is a good man, praying he is able to stop. I did mention the support forum. Even if he doesn’t stop today, I know the seed has been planted. I could tell because he was going on and on once we started talking about recovery.

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Congratulations!!!
I am so looking forward to saying 365 days gamble Free.
Praying your continued success.?

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Celebrating 1 month “Gamble Free!” today!!!!
May birthday is Saturday, my husband asked me what did I want to do.
My old answer would have been “please” take me to a casino, but not anymore, not this year.

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Hi Amber,
Thank you.
“One day at a time.”
You got this, you can do it I am cheering for you.
Just concentrate on getting better, not giving in to that demon. When your family see you trying to take control of your life again, you will slowly begin to regain their trust.

Hang in there…

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I won’t say if, but WHEN I make it through tomorrow without gambling “I will have ONE month under my belt.”

It’s been a while since I went a month with absolutely no gambling, not even lottery.

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Hi Amber
Continue to take one day at a time. That is what I have been doing for the last 29 days. I cannot believe after tomorrow I will be gambling free for one month, I am so excited.
So continue to take it a day at the time, you will be amazed at how fast time flies. It seems like it was just yesterday for me, but it’s been almost a month. Hang in there, you got this. Just try to come on the forum for accountability. I just returned a couple days ago, the success stories give me that motivation I need to press my way through.

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G Rec
273 days, Wow, Congrats!!!
I am looking forward to being able to say 273 days plus gambling free.?

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Hello MikeB
Thank you for the encouragement, in 2 days I will have one month gambling free. I can’t believe I have managed to go this long without any type of gambling. I think it was helpful for me to even remove the free games from my phone. The first few days I found myself saying the Serenity Prayer several times a day.
But congratulations on making it 93 days, that’s a lot to be proud of.???

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Oh, this time when I decided to stop, I wasn’t as far in the hole financially. I haven’t found myself as irritable, on the edge, mad at the world, knowing I did it to myself.
I knew I was at a place I could pull myself out without telling my loved ones I had slipped “again.” Even though most/all of my monthly income is catching me up now, BUT, I haven’t had to go begging for help this time because I was so far in the hole. That’s such an embarrassing, humiliating feeling, I hope to never be back in that place.

Day 28 today!!!!

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Good morning G Rec,

Honestly, like I said I just stopped everything, just went cold turkey, I stopped playing the free online games also. I started the first few days quoting the serenity prayer, sometimes I would say it a few times a day, especially when I start getting that urge to play. The only thing we have around here are the little internet cafes, so someone only win big every now and then. But I found myself putting more and more money in again but never winning nothing worth cashing out with. So even when I would win a little back, I would only sit there and play it back. I may be wrong, but everytime certain people would come in I felt like they knew when to log on because soon after they log on the free money board would fall on them, so I began to think something wasn’t right (some cheating going on). So that also makes it easier on me because there are no “real” casinos near me and I’m not a highway driver, and my husband finally stop stopping at casinos when we would travel. So I either have to go where I feel that they are really cheating, or not at all. I chose, not at all, and when I chose not at all I deleted all the in line games, even the free games.
I guess I don’t have an answer answer for your question, only that I take one day at the time and pray not to give in to the urges that still come.

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I got weak and went to gamble, BUT FDLE and local law enforcement was closing the establishment down when I drove up. No more “access” for me, because I don’t drive a long distance. Last year Florida closed all the internets cafes’ down, but a few managed to reopen. The 2 that reopened in my area is now officially closed again. “Thankful and Hopeful!” “Access” removed.

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This is so hard, but I know that it is worth it. Praying for strength right now to resist this urge….

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