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More or less, I think I made it… I don’t think anymore about losses, managed somehow to get through, managed to find my way and…on 16th of October I became a proudly father.
Guys…I’ve read loads of posts, trust me…there is hope. But you need to want it and you need to take that hand what is given and to get out of it.

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Last night was a nightmare, I couldn’t stop thinking about how much money I’ve lost and how stupid I can be and why I’m always coming back to this. I know I need to let it go, but it just…won’t go. Keeps coming back to me, same thoughts, same feelings, depression and nightmares, even panic attacks.
I went to sleep around 22:00 just because I knew it will take sometime to actually sleep, but when I’ve checked my phone it was 3:30 and still no sleep. This morning I went to work by 7:00, I’m literally exhausted.
Tonight I hope I can sleep, not better, just…sleep!
(I won’t give up! “I won’t make any bet today, just…today”)

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It’s a great thing to see that everybody took some time away from their own time to read my story, what I’ve done today?
Installed BetBlocker on my laptop (time: forever), managed to send all the documents which they’ve asked for on GamStop so now I’m waiting for the restriction to be updated as well.
I’ve spent my time doing some housework, I don’t feel like gambling, I feel like good things are coming up and ahead of me… Can’t wait to meet them!
Thank you very much for everything you’ve done!

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I don’t know why nobody answered to you yet, when you asked for help and you seem to get through a lot. You don’t need only emotional support though, I know that and probably you will need for guidance as well so you can finish it off for good good.
If you think that’s nothing left, always look on your right, if you know what I mean… So, basically, you always need to find another thing to hope for, I was just reading all these journals and I was just wondering, how are you? How are you lately? How is everything with you? Did you manage to do it? Where is day 3? Day 4? What about…today’s day?

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