[CraigMac6]

Thanks for sharing. 3 through 5 very very true to me.
I know my brain is looking for the next addiction. It’s clear as day! Make it a healthy addiction!

[CraigMac6]

Good day all! Thanks for your post, Charles. A lot of good suggestions to help make it stick this time.
I have asked the sports book I use to permanently ban my account but they will not do so. I spend too much money for them to look out for me. They have told me they will close it but will open it if I ask.
As far as the blockers. I have gamban downloaded on my phone. That has been helpful in the past.
I am here today to make the pledge to not gamble. The more you put into something the more you will get out of it. I believe that. So as I was reading yesterday, I came across something I really want my wife to do. Write me a letter to tell me how my gambling has hurt her. I think this is great for me, to actually read the pain I’ve caused her. The complete truth. I also feel it will be great for her to express herself with no interruptions.
I hope you have a great day!

[CraigMac6]

As most of you can imagine, I have been gambling. My gambling is out-of-control, and it is impacting my life negatively in so many ways. It’s impacting my marriage it’s impacting my job, and it’s impacting how I even take care of myself. Some of the most simplest Daily habits of life are often times rejected because I want to follow a match. I wanna place a bet or I want to win some money. Gambling has really gotten to a point where it is no longer fun, well, it really was never fun to begin with as it was an addiction . I’m really here just a Post that I want my life back. It’s been so many years, so many wasted hours, so many wasted moments just logging into my phone to check a score. I’m not sure how I got to this point, and it’s a tough pill to swallow, but I know I don’t want to live my life this way. I have so much to live for. I have so much to be thankful for. My mindset completely changes when I’m not with gambling. I’m thinking of how to self improve. I’m thinking of goals. I’m thinking of earning money. I’m thinking of happiness thinking of family , all those things run through my mind when I’m not with gambling but when I gamble the only thing on my mind, is that next bet.
Today will be my first day without gambling in months.
Let’s keep fighting the good fight!

[CraigMac6]

Hello-

Here I am. I made it through payday without putting any of my money into a sports account that is currently closed. I am learning a lot about my addiction through therapy.
It has helped a lot.
Make the most of today.

[CraigMac6]

Hi Marcus.

I hope you are doing great.

Be well.

Craig

[CraigMac6]

Day 4. I’ve been really busy with my new career. I can only blame myself for the way things in my life have gone. I’m responsible. If I want to change, I have to think differently and make better choices. I have started counseling which has been great thus far. I have a session today and I’m looking forward to it.
One of my biggest motivations to stay away from gambling is I change who I am. Nothing else matters. Only my addiction.
To better myself, I have to hold myself accountable.
I hope all of you are well.

[CraigMac6]

I’m making a daily commitment to post here every day. It’s late and I almost didn’t get to it but I had to make my promise to stay gamble free today. Day 3: busy day. Active day, great day!
Have a good day all!

[CraigMac6]

Good morning. Day 2 begins. I called my sportsbook and asked for a permanent ban and they said that wasn’t an option. Of course it’s not, I’m a moneymaker for them and I’ve never been able to control my gambling; so it makes sense they want me to be able to open the book anytime.
I am focusing on what I can control today. No gambling. All focus. I did have a “that’s right” moment when reading the post that stated we can be strong 99% of the time but that 1%, that 1 time of weakness can ruin it all for us.
I am going to definitely download the gamban again on my phone. It helps. I just need something for my Chromebook.
Anyway, I have a busy day. Be great y’all.

[CraigMac6]

Thank you all for the advice. I thought of starting a new thread because all my relapses over the last couple months but I wanted to actually see all the failures. The old saying goes, it’s not how many times we fall but how many times we get back up…well I am here after falling yet again.
I have closed my sportsbook so many times but the always open it back up for me because who wouldn’t? I lose thousands of a dollars a year to them. I will reach out to see if they will ban me.
I will also look into the blockers. The blockers work great on my phone, but didn’t work so well on my Chromebook.
I do know I need to put barriers up, I do know I need to hold myself accountable. Most importantly I do know I want my life back.
Day 1. I’m ready for the fight, the fight for my life back!

[CraigMac6]

Hello all. Thank you for your post Charles. I will gladly take suggestions to some barriers I can put into place to help me with my urges when times get tough.

As you can most likely guess, I have spent the last several months gambling. This addiction is really scary and, while I haven’t lost hope, I’m really scared because I have suffered so many relapses over the years. My rock bottom seems to be bottomless. When people ask what I’ll do differently, I’m actually not sure but I know I need to do something different if I want a different result.
Anyway, I’m back. I hope all of you are doing well. I 1000% don’t want gambling in my life. It’s those small moments of weakness that I need to overcome.
Have a great day, all.

[CraigMac6]

Thank you for the response Maximus. I appreciate it and you are right on so many fronts. Mostly the face of being alive has nothing to do with gambling. As it takes life from us. I’m not sure about you but once I place that bet, I’m an addict and all my goals, desires get thrown to the waste side.

Needs less to say, I’ve been back and forth on my gambling. Today is my day 1. I have a lot of reasons to stay quit today, I will remember those reasons.
Have a great day all!

[CraigMac6]

I am here to post my pledge to not gamble today. My sports gambling is a very difficult addiction but I did notice (during my last binge) that I really didn’t enjoy it. I already knew the outcome. I would win a few matches, then end up losing all my money plus more. I lack everything necessary to win; which should be evident by all my financial troubles over the last 8 years.
I have noticed a trend during my quits. The first week, I’m focused, happy and excited to live life on my terms. By day 30 I’m depressed, searching for some enjoyment in life. Those days are rough. Has anyone else noticed that? If so, what are some options to counter act those tough days (that seem to run together during that day 30-40 stretch)
Have a great day all!

[CraigMac6]

Back to day 1. This time, I really made things a lot worse. Financially to my relationship with my wife; she’s really tired to the relapses. It’s been pretty steady the last 3 years. More bad days than good. I need to make some changes because what I’m doing has not been working. The gamban was working for my phone but I cant get it to work on my Chromebook; and all the other gambling blockers for my computer were very easily bypassed. I believe meetings will be necessary for me as well. Ugh I feel so terrible, I’m not even sure what to say. I have a 4 year old daughter who things the world of me but doesn’t know I keep letting her down; but one day, if I don’t change, she will be fully aware. That thought hurts. I haven’t given her the best life possible these last 4 years. Mostly because I’ve had to work so much just to keep my addiction going.
🙁

[CraigMac6]

Day 4. I am here to make my pledge to not gamble today. I have started a new career path today and I am very excited for this opportunity. I’m excited for the future but I fully understand my future will be of misery if I cannot make necessary changes to my gambling addiction. I feel down and I relapsed but that does not mean that a new quit journey cannot begin. Today is all that matters. Be well all! No gambling today! I don’t accomplish much when I choose to make wagers.

[CraigMac6]

Hey Marcusmaximus,

Thanks for stopping by. Relapse has been all too common for me. It’s been years and years and years of relapse but I’m proud to say I’m on day 2 of my new start. I do want this!

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