[CraigMac6]

Hey, thanks for your response. It’s always good to hear from somebody. I know sometimes what I say might not make sense cause I’m doing the talk to text. It’s just so much quicker for me. I’m on the road a lot with work. Things are still going well day nine tomorrow will be day 10 I’m in a pretty good spot with it but I know how just like any addiction can creep up from behind you when you’re not and you’re not ready for it. I know there’s gonna be a lot of challenging days coming up soon, but I’ll worry about that when when they come for right now, I’m just doing the best I can to make it through today without placing any sort of wager. I have shown growth like I went out and made some money. Normally I make this money and I put it into my online account and try to double it and today I thought about that you know when I try to double it never works never and actually just all goes away so it’s a good thing anyway hopefully this site will get a little better. Be nice to have some feedback from people in some conversations and kind of go through the same together have a great day.

[CraigMac6]

Hey everybody

I’m not sure what’s wrong with this site anymore but it looks like a lot of spam. Hopefully it’ll get taken care of and it can be a place where gambling addicts come and share stories give motivation and encourage each other.

A lot of things on my life are coming together and I don’t believe it’s not coincidental that it’s right around the time I’ve given up gambling yesterday made one week since I placed the wager. One of my biggest weakness was college football. I always gambled on that and I usually did pretty well, but I never really made money because I had no discipline or money management. I know in the past what college football came up. It was a fear. I sense fear that I won’t be able to make it to the season. Well, I don’t know what will happen but my feeling now is more of. I’m excited for the challenge to go eat Saturday without giving up on my goal of living a healthier Life and when I mean, healthier life mostly mentally well physically as well. I know gambling has prevented me from doing a lot of the things that I like to do and exercise is one of those things because I’d much rather sit in front of my phone and watch outcome of a game take care of myself.
Tomorrow is my five year wedding anniversary and I look forward to celebrating with my wife without living in my phone or worrying about the outcome of the next wager or wondering when I get paid again so I can make another deposit and lose it all. When I look back, I can’t help. I really feel a lot of disappointment with how low I truly went to get that fixed. Nothing was off the table

I know I have a long way to go. It’s gonna be tough, but at this moment, my mindset is very positive and very focused on becoming a better me one day at a time I know with gambling I rarely accomplish things that I wanna do. It allows me to procrastinate. It allows me to waste many hours staring at a phone. And quite frankly took away from me being a good father and husband.

I hope everyone has a great day!

[CraigMac6]

I made it yesterday. A long drive without being an addict. I feel pretty good with how things are going. Feel alive again. It’s been a great feeling.

[CraigMac6]

Well, I made it through payday. I didn’t get a chance to post yesterday. It was very busy family running around lotta good times so I’m glad I had it cause I know if I was gambling and I would’ve been in my phone most of the day.
Today I’ll face another challenge. I have a long drive ahead of me normally on this drive I gamble pretty much 80% of the time at least and barely pay attention to the road while I’m doing it which is very dangerous, but I look forward to the challenge and I know in my mind, gambling is not an option for today one day at a time. Have a great day.

[CraigMac6]

Thanks for the Kin.

Today is a big day for me as it’s payday and normally I would already have about three or four deposits into my sports book by now, but I am determined to not gamble today. Today is a huge day for me in my recovery from this terrible addiction I will not gamble today. I believe that with all my mind, body and soul.
How would often times place bets make deposits before I’ll pay any of my bills? I don’t think there’s anything lower than being a man but not taking care of your own family because you’re spending it on your addiction but here’s to a better day day three let’s go.

[CraigMac6]

Here’s to day two. I’ve done a lot of reflecting over the last day and I can’t help but think about how selfish I was during my gambling years. It’s really quite embarrassing. I just know I want to be better. Today will be a great day without that deadly addiction.

[CraigMac6]

I’m back. After another relapse which cost me so much money and time, I’m here again. Wanting to have a better life for myself.

No need for a long story. I’m an addict and I’m tired of missing out on key moments in my kids life. The time to stop is now. Day 1, I’m ready to kick your ass!

Have a blessed day folks

[CraigMac6]

As I begin day, three things are going pretty well. I spent a lot more time with my family. I’ve committed to exercise the last two days and I I’m gonna go again today. I seem to be in a much better mood only time I get a little bit. Cranky is at night time when I’m tired but before it was all day cranky depending on how come of a match. Just like I said yesterday, my daughter six years old I’ve been a gambling addict her whole life. I’m a good father, but I could be a great one without that addiction and that is my motivation for today thank you for reading. Hopefully, all of you. Have a great day. I’m on my way to work with an opportunity to make some money and with that money I commit myself to not waste it. I’m gambling One day at a time.

[CraigMac6]

Hello everybody

Day two. So I have a daughter she’s six years old. She means the world to me. I would do anything for her, but the sad part is I’ll say I’ll do anything for but her entire life. I’ve been an addict to gambling. Of course that means she went without, especially in situations where I didn’t have the money because I wasted it That’s all I can think about. I don’t wanna have that regret the rest of my life she went without because I was so addicted to gambling not just financially, but like emotionally being their present in the moment instead of watching the game so that is what’s gonna drive me today cause I know if this doesn’t end and I look back on her years as a child, I’ll regret it if all I did was gamble

Have a great

[CraigMac6]

Hey Sjc1

I really appreciate your post and taking time to do so.

Yesterday was my daughter’s 6th birthday. It was another birthday without be being able to do much for her because of my gambling choices. It was sad really. She didn’t go without but she didn’t get a lot either. That’s the way it’s been her entire life. My gambling took away from not only the materialistic stuff but the time as well. I make pretty good money but I’m always broke because of gambling. There are many paydays 6k is deposited into my account and it’s down to cents within hours. Mostly due to paying for past gambling expenses or current ones. That’s not how I want to live my life and it’s really not who I am but I can admit gambling changes me greatly and not for the better.
Today I will continue the journey and strive to be my best me. The only way for that to happen is if I refuse to place that first bet.
Congrats on a year

[CraigMac6]

Hello

I didn’t want today to pass without me posting my day free of gambling. I stayed really busy today. I’ve said it over and over but I’m my best when I don’t gamble without a doubt. Stay focused. One day at a time.

[CraigMac6]

Hey Iamhere,

I fell off the wagon again. It was a rough couple of weeks . Binge gambling. But I’m back and I’m happy to be here. I don’t have all the answers I just know I want a better life.
I heard something the other day that really stuck with me. It’s called “choose your hard.”
It goes like this:

Being overweight is hard, being in shape is hard; choose your hard.

Divorce is hard. Marriage is hard. Choose your hard.

Communicating is hard. Not communicating is hard. Choose your hard.

They went on to give a few more examples and I thought of gambling and thought:

Being addicted to gambling is hard. Not gambling is hard. Choose your hard. Today I choose the not gambling hard!
They both are hard but one will ease up as time passes the other will ALWAYS BE HARD. it’s really hard to gamble. The highs the lows, the time, the energy, the stress. It never ends…

Day 1

[CraigMac6]

Hi everyone,

Day 3. I’ve been really busy these last 3 days. Busy living you’d say. It’s been a great feeling to be able to do what needs to be done without constantly checking my phone for a score or to make a wager. I feel free. Life is still tough, like it is for everyone but I see my vision as much clearer.
I hope everyone is doing well.
See you tomorrow.

[CraigMac6]

Congratulations on 1 year free!

[CraigMac6]

Hey folks,

Here I am on day two. I’ve done things a little differently this time. I’m keeping a journal and I’ve time writing down my top ten reasons I no longer want gambling in my life. I have read those over today and the goal is to do so each day to keep those “why’s” in the forefront of my quit.
Gambling is such a vicious cycle and seems to take its toll on all of us in the same manner.
I know I need to take some time and come to terms with some of the mistakes I made in the past due to my choice to gamble but I know I cannot dwell on them.
Here’s to day number 2 of the lifelong journey.
Have a great day

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