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Well it’s day 3 and going strong. I’ve thought about gambling a couple of times today, but distracted myself and forgot about it. I’ve also worked out a lot in the last couple of days which is helping.

I’m going to be pretty busy this weekend, so hopefully I won’t even get any urges. I know this is around the time that I’ll start to get nightmares as the ‘detox’ kicks in – either gambling or otherwise, so I have to be prepared for those.

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Thanks for the kind words of advice! I don’t live in the UK, but definitely lots to consider 🙂

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Hi dilano! We can do this! I think writing about it haha I’ll be really helpful. Let’s beat this together! I’m hoping that seeing the documented progress of my feelings and journey will make me realise how I don’t ever want to be back here again.

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In the last hour or so, I’ve started to think about gambling, so instead I decided to write here. It’s the same thoughts again – just win a little bit and give myself a bit of extra money for the fortnight. I know that’s wrong so I’m not going to do it. I’ve mapped out the fortnight and will stick to it.

Yesterday I made a map of finances for the year. If I hit all of the goals, I will finally have some extra money and can work on paying off loans along the way. They won’t all be paid off or anything, but I’ll at least be ahead. This fortnight doesn’t have a specific goal, because I just need to make it through with the money I have. The goals start next fortnight.

I am a compulsive sports and racing gambler. It all got out of control early on when I was 18 and discovered online gambling. 15 years later and it still rears its ugly head. Horse/trot/dog racing is definitely appealing to me because of how instant it is to win. You also don’t need to wait long for the next race. I just punt on anything and everything in order to keep the adrenaline and ‘winning’ feeling going. Of course more often than not, it’s a losing feeling.

Over and out for today – I won’t be losing to the monster.

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