[Cozzy123]

Apologises I haven’t done a post since last week, I’ve kept myself busy this weekend.

Saturday was the 1st time since my last bet on the 15th February that I struggled. I knew this would be hard as I always did my gambling when there always alot of sport on. I’m pleased to say I made it through though and feel great about it.

I went for a haircut on sat which is only 2 doors down from a bookies. I parked right outside the barbers, straight in and straight back into the car when done. It sound so sad to be proud I didn’t go in but I do. It would have been easy to go get a slip and put a football accumulator on without anyone knowing but I didn’t! Instead I came home and played with the kids. It was a great day I the end.

Sunday was spent much the same but my wife really seemed to have struggled and was very distant and drawn all day. I kept quiet and just went about cleaning the house and cooking for us all. She eventually began to talk and seemed a bit better. We’re taking this a day at a time and her support is getting me through (not that j deserve it!).

Sorry for rambling but I’m now gamble free for a week and I am looking forward to GA this week to continue my recovery.

Great to read all the posts here. It’s a great way to get everything out so thanks for reading and caring everyone!

[Cozzy123]

Apologises I haven’t done a post since last week, I’ve kept myself busy this weekend.

Saturday was the 1st time since my last bet on the 15th February that I struggled. I knew this would be hard as I always did my gambling when there always alot of sport on. I’m pleased to say I made it through though and feel great about it.

I went for a haircut on sat which is only 2 doors down from a bookies. I parked right outside the barbers, straight in and straight back into the car when done. It sound so sad to be proud I didn’t go in but I do. It would have been easy to go get a slip and put a football accumulator on without anyone knowing but I didn’t! Instead I came home and played with the kids. It was a great day I the end.

Sunday was spent much the same but my wife really seemed to have struggled and was very distant and drawn all day. I kept quiet and just went about cleaning the house and cooking for us all. She eventually began to talk and seemed a bit better. We’re taking this a day at a time and her support is getting me through (not that j deserve it!).

Sorry for rambling but I’m now gamble free for a week and I am looking forward to GA this week to continue my recovery.

Great to read all the posts here. It’s a great way to get everything out so thanks for reading and caring everyone!

[Cozzy123]

Hi Thomas,

I thought I’d wait until I went to me 1st GA meeting before responding.

I was very nervous all day yesterday and built the meeting up I my head that id be judged for speaking about the things I have done etc. The complete opposite happened and I felt comfortable right from walking in. I shared my story which was a big deal for me as I have never spoken to anyone about this before.

I found it such a relief to know I am not alone in this. Throughout my time gambling I always thought I was weird and no one could feel or do the things I’ve done. The group seems a great place to continue my determined recovery and I will be going back next week.

Thank you for the advice above and I have now agreed with my wife that she will control my finances for the foreseeable future and, although this makes me uncomfortable, I know this is for my own and my family’s good.

I have also been open with my dad about what I have done and what I’m doing to try sort this mess out. Throughout this past week I can feel a massive relief it’s all out there and I can now focus on recovery with the support from my family and thus forum.

I really do appreciate your time on speaking with me here. I never expected anyone to care so I am very grateful.

[Cozzy123]

Thanks Thomas.

I am due to go to my 1st GA meeting this evening. I’m very nervous about it but I know I just need to take the step.

My wife found out about all this through me hiding a credit card statement. I’ve been kidding myself for a long time that I wasn’t an addict and I was in control but I clearly wasn’t. My family now know and there seems to be alot of anger around it all. I’m hoping that will change when they realise the steps I am taking to get a handle on all this but time will tell.

The knowledge of the heartache I’ve caused is crippling me at the moment and I am determined to change.

Thanks again for the kind words of support.

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