[coklatpuddin]

I know exactly how you feel. But because it is too much of a hassle for me to always open a new account, i only kept with one online casino account, which i already closed and opt for permanent exclusion.

Previously i relapsed just like you did, but this time i installed a gambling blocking app, and changed the admin password into something that is so complicated that i myself won’t even remember. So right now if i try to browse any gambling websites, it will be blocked.

I believe you can do is ssbaby, just know that gambling is not the answer and we can’t win in the long term. After reading all the stories here, i realised many have spent 10, 20 to 30 years gambling, and have nothing to show for. It will only bring shame, disappointment and empty bank account etc.

I am only into my 3rd years of gambling, i decided that i couldn’t do this any longer, destroying my future, so i stop and took necessary steps to assist me with my plan.

Sharing my thought here helps too…

[coklatpuddin]

21/6/2017

2 days ago, i asked for D*****t.com to permanently banned myself from re-opening or re-registered a new account. Then, i installed a gambling blocking apps.

The past 2 days i woke up feeling much better version of myself. I don’t go straight to my laptop to gamble online. Instead, i took time to have a proper breakfast, do some chores and went out with my girlfriend.
From time to time, gambling still crossed my mind, but it wasn’t the urge to play, just the regret that why i started at the first place. I watched some videos on Compulsive Gambling, how they talked about addiction, brain etc…. am i really that sick or addicted??

Anyway, then i said to myself i should stop watching this videos if i want to stop gambling. Out of side, out of mind they said. So the only gambling related thing i will do is to write this journal, talk to nice people at gambling therapy and share the positive energy.

For today, i am doing my financial planning, just to put thing into perspective, to find out financially where do i stand and to make some goals. Then, time for lunch…hehe

I can’t change the past, but for sure i can change my future for the better! 🙂

Have a nice day guys!!

[coklatpuddin]

Hi ssbaby,

I totally agree when you said winning will keep us gambler going until we have nothing left to gamble.
I have closed my account with permanent exclusion and asked my name to be banned from reopening the account. I also installed gambling blocking apps, my target is not not to play for 1 or 2 years, i want to totally erased gambling activity from my life. 🙂
It does feel good to wake up in the morning without the need to gamble. It just gave me so much anxiety before.
Writing this journal help me to focus my energy elsewhere.

[coklatpuddin]

Hi Jaykay,

Yeah,it is so easy to relapse. So one of the way i keep on reminding myself to remain on track is by doing this journal. Reading others stories, watching videos on the issues.
Congratulations on your 30 weeks achievement. Hoping for more weeks/years to come for all of us here 🙂

[coklatpuddin]

Thanks Velvet 🙂

Got some extra cash yesterday, got bored and ended up re-open my account. Felt so ashamed of myself. Lose it all.
So i asked for the online casino to ban my name from re-open/re-register a new account.
Next step, need to blocked all gambling websites.

No one knows the demon inside of me. I can’t share my problems with my family and girlfriend, cause i can’t bare looking at them thinking of what i have becomes.

There’s no such thing like GA meeting at where i live, so this is the only outlet for me to share my problem.

For now, will try to survive for few more days till my next payday.

Have a nice day guys!

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