I have occasional urges to gamble but it is very destroying to me and my partner who is a non gambler so she does not understand at all what goes on in a mind set of a gamblers addiction my addiction is most of the time under control but I need to be in control and rid myself of this destructive obsession. I understand that a lot of people out there are a lot more addicted than me and my heart goes out to them. I am at the edge staring into the precipice and want to pul myself way back from that. I am a foster carer for ten or more years now and love helping children to overcome there own problems and sometimes your own problem get left unnoticed prayers to us all chris.