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Sweet Pea!!!
(((Carole))) if there is anything I can do to help you just have to let me know. It is challenging when you have parents with health problems in a different province. I am thinking back to when you were here and at that time you were thinking that she may have been better in assisted living, and you may have been right. You were talking about her being confused at times when you were visiting her in the hospital.
Thinking of you and you know my number if you need anything.Peacegirl you are doing great coming and posting. WTG on not gambling and waiting out the urges. I would try and get something else in my head when they came. I would sing Taylor Swift’s song in my head…. we are never ever ever getting back together and I would be singing it to the slots. It is one day at a time and if we focus on today then we are okay. I think a lot of our challenges is that we have decided we are not gambling and we want to have months of gamble free time right away. It’s like deciding to go on a diet and we want instant results.
It is interesting that you mention that no one knows about your gambling. I am in the same situation here. The only people who know are my husband and kids. I don’t tell anyone else. I have actually met a couple of the people from GT and it was wonderful. I have met Bettie and Carole. It is so good to be able to share with people who understand what you are going through. I use GT as my outlet to post how I am feeling etc. One day at a time is the way to go. Have a great gamble free day!!!(((Carole))) so great to see a post from you as I have been thinking about you and wondering how you were doing. Your post sounds very calm and peaceful which is awesome. It is awesome that your granddaughter is doing so well with her dancing. I bet you really enjoy watching her dance.
I am glad that you and Danny are doing better. I think we sometimes create some of our own challenges with our relationships with our husbands. I know that I have not been the best with my husband and have pulled back emotionally from him. I believe that I need to work on it, as nothing changes if nothing changes. I know that I have some anger inside that I feel towards him. These are from past hurts and I know that I need to start afresh and talk to him. I don’t want to separate from him. I think a lot of the anger inside me is really directed towards his drinking!!! I know what I need to do and as long as I don’t do it then it will not change. I will continue to work on it.
Sorry I did not mean to post all this on your page.
It is wonderful to see you so happy and content. One day at a time is all we can do!!!
I hope you enjoy yourself at the Comedy show with your friend. Take care and keep posting with your awesome and positive outlook!!!!I am sure that you are excited about going home and being with your wife and kids. Congratulations on completing your 3 months at GMA and being gamble free. I have not been to rehab, but I would imagine that it is like a safe environment for you so just be aware that when you get home that the temptation is there for you. Use all the tools that you have been provided with while at GMA and enjoy a new gamble free life with your wife and family. All we can do is take it one day at a time. Wishing you a wonderful gamble free day!!!!
hi peacegirl I am sorry to hear that you are having such a tough time. I have gone through some gambling binges, and I know that if I went to the Casino and put a dollar in a machine that is what would happen to me right now. It would not matter how much I won as I would just feed it back into a machine. I know that even winning small jackpots it did not give me the high that it did in the beginning. I wanted more and more and money had no value to me in a Casino as I just kept feeding it in. It was only after I left the Casino and ended up in my car in tears that I realized what I had done. It did not stop me from going back to try and win back some of the money I lost, but it never worked for me, even if I won I just fed it back in. You are not alone peacegirl there are so many of us who are compulsive gamblers, or gambling addicts, whatever you want to call it. I never thought I would be a compulsive gambler. I tried to do the controlled gambling by only allowing myself a certain amount of cash, by only allowing myself to go once a week, month or whatever, but once I get playing a machine I have no control. I found it difficult to admit to myself that I was a compulsive gambler as I did not think I could survive without gambling. I could not face the thought of never playing my machines again. I now take it one day at a time. I went to see a counsellor for one on one and that really helped me, and also did not allow myself to have access to money/cash. No money = no gambling. I found that for me playing those slots/vlt machines spiralled more and more out of control. Wishing you a gamble free day.
Ican before I ever come to GT I stopped gambling so many times and I was going to go once a week, once a month, or when I was on a trip or something as I did not want to stop or give-up gambling. I would panic at the thought of never playing my machines again. I registered on GT one day and the following week I went crazy gambling. I was in panic mode about never playing my machines again. I am a work in progress and will continue to be for the rest of my life. I also understand that it does not matter how much gamble free time any of us have, as just like that I could be back sitting at a machine in the blink of an eye.
My husband and I went out for lunch today and I went to the washroom, and lo and behold, I see there is a bar/lounge area with vlt’s, and there is a woman at a cash machine drawing out cash and I thought that could be me. It is very very hard to accept that I can’t play those machines again as I am a compulsive gambler. I don’t think that way though as I would probably panic and go running to play a machine. I just know that for today I do not plan on gambling. I also know that I can’t plan to go a month from now, as if I went just once I would be back to square one, as nothing would have changed no matter how much I want it to change. God grant me the serenity to accept that things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Ican what is past is gone, but you can commit to taking it one day at a time. Wishing you a gamble free day.