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  • in reply to: December (for Vera & All) #11933
    cat438
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    Yeah, I did not gamble for all of December, but I did it one day at a time.  The dreaded Dec 31 which was just another day came and went and I did not gamble!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19547
    cat438
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    Dear Bettie, sorry that I have not posted for a while, but I do read your posts to see how you are doing.  It is so difficult dealing with weight problems.  I am TRYING to get motivation to start eating healthy and doing some exercise.  I keep thinking with the New Year coming then it would be a good way to start.  It is a matter of putting the time and effort into it.  Saying that I am worth the time and effort.  I know that when I am lighter I feel better about myself.  I hate seeing my picture as well, **** I even hate looking in the mirror lately as all I see is how tight my clothes are getting.  Yes, I will have cheese to go with my whine!!!  I do agree with Reds though you are an awesome person inside and out and you looked good when I saw you!!! One day at a time my sweet lord…

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19514
    cat438
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    Dear Bettie, sorry you are having so many health probles; and that your brother is having such a tough time as well with his daughter and with his own health.  It is strange when you said about feeling lonely as I do get like that as well and I have a hubby at home.  I sometimes wonder if some of it is my own doing and I don’t pick-up the phone and make arrangements to go out with some of my gf.  I seem to get myself into pity partys and expect people to phone me.  Life is so strange, but is it really, is it us that are sometimes strange and hide away.  It is funny how some days we can shrug something off and other days it bugs the he– out of us.  So I suppose it all goes back to our attitude and how we are feeling.  I am thinking of how much I have to be thankful for, and yet I don’t count my blessings often enough.  Happy Thanksgiving Dear (((B))).  Enjoy your turkey, spending time with family and Bless You for being the wonderful person you are!!! One day at a time my sweet lord…

    in reply to: Day Two is Still a Day Away #21550
    cat438
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    Larry, you never let me down. I feel so bad for you as it is tough to have gone gamble free for so long and end up gambling.  I just recently gambled after 7 months gamble free, which is no where near your 3 years.  I know when I gambled it reinforced the saying that no matter how long we are gamble free we are all the same when it comes to placing our next bet.  Stay strong and although your date may have changed for GA always remember you have 3 years that you did not gamble.  Yesterday is History, Tomorrow is a Mystery, Today is a Gift…   Wishing your Gift of Today be a happy gamble free day!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19479
    cat438
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    (((Bettie))), thanks for your posts when I needed them.  I am back to reading and working on myself and feeling stronger again.  I have been saying a prayer and working on letting go of trying to control things as I know it is not in my hands so I will keep working on it.  What a wonderful story in this day and age that an honest person found your daughter’s wallet and took the time to return it.  God Bless Jim for his honesty.  Your daughter must be thrilled as well.  
    I hope that all is well with you and that you are able to stay strong with your decision regarding your "friend".  You really are doing awesome!!!!  You can always take out your toys and play with them to amuse yourself LOLOne day at a time my sweet lord…

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19468
    cat438
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    Hi Bettie, sorry you are having such a tough time, but so proud of you as well to find the strength and courage to do what you did.  That sure was not easy and it will be tough to continue so keep that resolve girl as you deserve to be treated with love and respect!!!! I believe what you did to get through this is called "retail therapy", LOL… but as you said at least you have something to show for it.  One day at a time dear Bettie!!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19463
    cat438
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    Dear (((Bettie))), wow am I ever proud of you that you were able to compose yourself and walk away from a situation like that.  I can’t imagine how difficult that was for you.  Girl, you have come a long way to giving yourself the respect you deserve.  You are not a nasty person and you did what you had to for self preservation!!!  Keep taking it one day at a time that is all you can do.  When you want to give in and go back to him just keep remembering all the bad times and how you don’t deserve to be treat bad by him… you deserve to be treated with love and respect!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19461
    cat438
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    Dear (((Bettie))) so sorry for the loss of your Aunt. Also, no matter how unhealthy a friendship is and we know it is not good for us…. we still grieve the end of it.  It is an emotional time for you so keep coming back and posting and get support to help you through.  You need to look after your health and try and keep your sugar levels in check.  I wish I could find the words but I am sure that you know you did the right thing for you with the relationship even though it may be tough for you to deal with.  You need to look after Bettie and treat her with the love and caring that you show to others as she is a really neat lady!!!!   Thinking of you. One day at a time my sweet lord…

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19458
    cat438
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    Hi (((Bettie))) sounds as if you need a hug.  I know what you mean about the highs and the lows, being sad and confused at times and other times feeling so great.  It is tough to deal with all the different emotions.  I don’t think it’s being a woman "of a certain age" you are much too young to be of a certain age!!!!!
    Congratulations on turning your cell phone off….  you are an awesome wonderful lovely person and deserve to be treated well and deserve nothing but the best.  Chin up and keep working recovery as you know what you need to do, and I know it is so much easier to say it than do it. You have helped me and so many on our recovery journey with your support so keep posting as I miss you. One day at a time my sweet lord…

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19418
    cat438
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    Bettie, congratulations on your achievement with sales.  I really struggle with worrying and I know that I do need to givet hings up to God.  I continue to work on it… and I could be receiving his message through you.  Take care and be a good girl LOLOne day at a time my sweet lord…

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19415
    cat438
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    Dear Bettie, sorry to hear that you are having problems with your health.  You really are having a rough time of it again.  I hope that you have not been overdoing it.  It is strange how when we have to go to work we get up and get motivated and get going; and when we don’t have to go to work we can get days that we don’t want to get out of our pj’s.  I think it must be our bodies telling us to take a day to take it easy.  I still laugh when I think of our visit to that store and you explaining all the items to Carole and I.  It really was funny and Carole really had a nervous laugh.  Take care of yourself.
    Wishing you a wonderful day free of gambling.One day at a time my sweet lord…

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19401
    cat438
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    Hi Bettie, maybe I will go back to the "shop" today and buy some of those toys you recommended LOL, just kidding and thanks so much for the sex education!!!! One day at a time my sweet lord…

    in reply to: i can do this #13911
    cat438
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    Wow, do you ever miss this site when it’s down… I wonder if this is another addiction LOL 
    I can’t believe that I have actually met Carole and Bettie and they are just so lovely…  It is so wonderful to be able to talk to others who understand.  We did go shopping last night…  and what a surprise we ended up in the Coach store…  and I wonder if you can guess who bought a Coach Purse?  I ended up in another store that I had not been in for years and that one was a real hoot!!! One day at a time my sweet lord…

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19395
    cat438
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    Thank God that GT Is back!
    This is not Cat but bettie in disguise! In edmonton, enjoyed a nice dinner and shopping w/ Carole and Cat! Off to bed soon and airport home tomorrow!
    tc
    Bettie

    in reply to: Recovery Road #13274
    cat438
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    Hi Ican, don’t feel guilt and shame you are in recovery and these things happen and you came right back.  It is not easy and some days I would love the release of just going in the Casino to play those machines again… just once, but I know that is not possible.  I had a terrible time in February and it has scared me so much and I keep thinking about it… I thought that I could go back occasionally once or twice and control it.  LOL we really do like to fool ourselves with our thoughts… after 7 days straight in February I knew that I was back on the destruction train.  I hated being back to Day 1 again so I did not ***** the days, but they are mounting up now.  I know that I will not gamble today and that is all I can commit to.  I can’t judge anyone else as I know that it could just as easily be me back saying I am on Day 1 again!!!  We all care about you Ican and like Vera says every day is Day 1.  When I get to the stage of doubts, which I often do… I keep going back to Harry’s comment "Have Faith in Yourself" and I say it to myself many ***** when I want to run to a Casino.   One day at a time my sweet lord…

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