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Velvet, your words are inspiring as always. We all struggle and some***** if we are not members of some group GA etc we do feel as if we are alone in our struggles, but we are not we are all working at it one day at a time through GT.
We all have different ***** that the struggle is harder, for some it is the weekend for others during the week and for others it is a daily struggle, hour by hour, minute by minute. I heard that if you have a feeling/thought it only lasts 90 seconds, now I am not sure if that works with gambling. I know if you close your eyes and focus on your breathing in and out it takes your mind away from gambling as your have to focus on the breathing. I always work at finding ways to take my mind away from gamblling and I find that this helps. I also try to visualise waves crashing. It must be missing those waves and being by the sea in Scotland.
I did not gamble yesterday and do not plan on gambling today. Wishing everyone a gamble free day!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…cat438ParticipantLiz, I don’t think anyone knows what it is like to lose their hubby/partner unless they go through it. The impact of the loss of your hubby is felt more by you than anyone. You are the one who is facing him not being there all the time. As much as our loved ones may feel for us it is a different experience for them, as they go and they get caught up in their life. You are the one whose life has been impacted more than anyone. You are facing so may things now, going home to an empty home, not having to check in with someone, not hearing how his day went, someone to share how you feel with. It is not longer Liz and hubby, it is a huge adjustment, plus missing him. It will take time. I know that we all grieve differently. I find it tough sometimes as I want to talk about losing my grandbaby and other people deal with it by not talking. I have to respect their way, but have to find a way to help me grieve to suit me. I think the support group is a good outlet for you as if it is people who have gone through losing their partner and they understand more than anyone who has not gone through it.
I am sure that you know all this stuff Liz, but I just want you to be patient with yourself and allow yourself to grieve. As you know it is good days, bad days and all you can do is tke it one day at a time and be patient with yourself and allow yourself to grieve. Thinking of you!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…cat438ParticipantWTG = RTC, you are doing awesome. Yes, we all have to fight to stay away from this bloxdy addiction of gambling. We have days we have to fight tooth and nail to get those thoughts and urges out our head. Keep doing what you are doing, put some barriers in place if you can. No money = no gambling.
Also, thank you for guiding Vera to find help. It shows we can all find help through others and how new GT members can help others who have been here longer. So proud of you Vera for making an appointment and as always wishing you nothing but the best. One day at a time my sweet lord…cat438ParticipantIt’s a brand new day again to be gamble free. I did not gamble yesterday and do not plan on gambling today. It is also 10 days into April which is a third of the month gone. I think back to when I started the monthly pledges and I would be so focused on getting through the month. I would be ******** the first week, the second week and fighting to get through the month. I would make it some months and not others. I would be fighting to stay away. The first thought that would come to my mind in the morning was gambling. I still get thoughts and urges some*****, but I try to get the thoughts out of my mind as quick as possible and not focus on them. I believe the biggest difference is that I do just focus on having a gamble free day. Fear can be a great motivator, as I do have a fear of gambling again as I know how hard it is to stay away once I "poke the bear" or "give in to the devil sitting on my shoulder". I continue to work on improving myself, but I also know I need to work on myself even more. I think I am still envious/jealous of people who can go and play slots/vlts and enjoy themselves. I wish that was me, but alas I can never be a responsible gambler no matter how much I want to be. I know that I have trouble accepting that at *****. Well not so much accepting it, but wishing it was different, as I have accepted that I am a compulsive gambler and that will never change. I don’t want to go back to the life of lies, losing money, the debt getting higher, the tears, the hating myself and the self loathing. I know that I can’t put one cent in those machines as I am a compulsive gambler. May everyone be blessed with a day free of gambling.One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantLiz, so happy to read your post that you are having a better day. Awesome that your friend is coming to visit as it is something to look forward to. And of course your little Grandson coming for dinner always makes you happy. Wonderful that you are having happy memories of your hubby. There will be good days and bad, and I believe when we lose someone we love there is a saying that it never gets better, but with time it gets easier. Stay strong my friend.One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantWTG King on your gamble free day in a long time!!!!! I should not say we all think the same way as that is not always the case, however, we have to think we can do it to get there. This quote made me think… "We can have anything we mentally accept. But if we cannot accept it mentally we cannot get it – no matter what we do."
I believe it makes sense as if our thoughts tell us that we can’t have a gamble free day we will never get there. Interesting. Just for today I will not gamble and I can mentally accept that. Wishing everyone a day where they can mentally accept that they can have a day free of gambling.
One day at a time my sweet lord…cat438ParticipantThe service was lovely… the minister made it so wonderful. It was what she wanted a Celebration of her Life and not a funeral. She did not want people crying she wanted them to tell funny stories about her. Everyone carried out her wishes and although we wanted to cry we kept out tears at bay. I am blessed to have known her. I know that it was tough for so many. I think that in a month or so a number of us are going to get together and just talk and remember her and tell funny stories, and also cry if we want to. I know it is going to be hard for her mother and I will be there for her as much as I can. One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantAww I just loved the picture, and I know it looked like a big bottle of milk, but when you think of a calf they are not tiny animals so they will need lots of milk. Sherry, I am just concerned about your email being on the site, you should maybe edit the page and remove it. It is wonderful to see how far you have come with your gamble free life. Your focus is on other things on your posts now and not just on not gambling. I am so happy for you. You really have put barriers in place to protect yourself against this addiction/disease. WTG Sherry!!!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantI did not gamble yesterday and do not plan on gambling today. I will take it one day at a time. I will not focus on a week, a month or more, but just today. Wishing everyone a wonderful day free of gambling!!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantHi King, you will find lots of help and support on GT. We are all compulsive gamblers and understand the feeling of not being able to stop when we gamble. We keep going until we have no money left. It does not matter if we win as we just keep going until we lose it all again, so we never win. Keep reading and posting here as it helps to know that you are not alone. With your daily It sounds as if you are understanding by having your chart on the wall it is one day at a time, and that is what we all do focus on today. Wishing you a wonderful day free of gambling. One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantJust checking in to see how you are doing, and how your MIL is as well. I just got back from Church and it is interesting as I really had to force myself to go today. I am glad that I went as it reinforced to me how important my faith is to me. I don’t know why I turn away from it. I don’t know that I turn away from it so much as I do believe, however, I think it is having faith and trusting that everything will work out the way it is meant to be. This does not necessarily mean the way that I want it, but the path and plan that God has for us. Sorry I did not mean to start preaching to you. I know that GA is based on a Higher Power and this does not mean God to all. I don’t go to GA, however, I can understand how it is important to let go to your higher power. I suppose what I am saying is that even if we don’t go to GA that may be we still have lots of the same philosophies through our faith. I pray that your MIL is doing well. Take care Ican. Have a wonderful gamble free day.One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantHi RG – sorry you are having those urges. I think those are so difficult to deal with and our whole being is just obsessed with the thoughts or gambling. URGGG is right, but good on you for fighting them. WTG on your gamble free time. We all have to keep fighting the good fight. I am just focusing on today and that is all that I do every day. I know the time is passing and I do know how much gamble free time I have, BUT I also know how easy it is to be back to DAY 1 and I know how much I hate that feeling as I have been there so many *****. I pray to God that I have the strength to stay away. I know that I will get there as long as I take it one day at a time. It is strange as I typed that I know I will get there, but then I wondered where is there!!! I think there is a gamble free life one day at a time. I can feel anxiety and panic attacks if I think of being in a Casino or near slots/vlts as they do scare me, as I know that I am powerless when it comes to them. Wishing everyone a wonderful day free of gambling.One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantLizbeth I have not posted on your page but I continue to pray for you to find strength and peace at this difficult time. You are doing great and never be frightened to cry to get through this. Your grieving will take time and there will be good days and bad days. I know when my Dad lost my Mum he said that he could go out and do things during the day, but the hardest part was coming home to an empty house in the evening, and that he really missed her then. I am going to Ruth’s Celebration of Life Service today. I believe it will help her hubby, mother and brother find closure. It is the final tribute to an amazing young woman who showed such courage and dignity as she fought cancer. She loved to laugh and never lost her sense of humour. You continue to be in my thoughts (((Liz))) One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantTo everyone who is struggling with gambling thoughts and urges or to those who have gambled please never ever give up on yourself. I know that if I go and play slots/vlts just once then I am back gambling. I still have thoughts that maybe I could just go for a hour. I envision putting money in the slots and the crazy thing is that when I think of that right now I think it would provide relief, almost like a stress reliever. I know that is not true as it is the addiction mind talking to me, and if I let it continue I know I will give in to it. It tells me that I have to be aware to get my thoughts on something else. I am dealing with a stressful day (friend’s daughter’s funeral or as she wanted a Celebration of Live), so I just want to run away and gamble. I know that it is not the answer. I am acknowledging that it will be a challenging day, but I will not use it as an excuse to gamble. Just for today I will not gamble.One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantNEVER GIVE UP…..
Take Pride in how far you have come and have Faith in how far you can go!!!!!
I like this saying… we may have slips/gambling *****, but have we progressed since we started recovery. When I think of all of us who are here…. we are not giving up, we are continuing to find ways and the strength to have a gamble free life. We forget how much we have gained by being here and we lose faith that we can do it. If you think you can’t or if you think you can you are right!!! I know when I started I said I can’t stop gambling, but I named my page as… I can do this. I don’t think I believed it when I typed it, but slowly I am believing that I can have a gamble free life. I know that no matter how long I have gamble free it is easy to end up gambling. I just read recently about the person who gambled after 8 years gamble free. I know when I started recovery I would wonder "how come someone with all that gamble free time gambled". I don’t have 8 years gamble free, not unless you ***** before I started LOL I now understand that even with gamble free time mounting it is easy to end up gambling again. I have been there a number of *****. I also know that no matter how much gamble free time we have.. we are all the same time away from placing that bet. I did not gamble today and that is all that I can focus on… one day at a time.
Vera, you gambled one day in April but there are 29 days that you can have gamble free. Never give up Vera, take it one day at a time. Stomp those thoughts right away like a bug (that advice you gave me really helped me a number of *****)!!!! I know that there are a number of people struggling, and I know how that feels, but if we give up we will never get there.
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