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Bettie, I am just trying to catch up with everyone. I have been feeling a bit down lately – pity party – and wishing I had more friends, I do have a lot of acquaintances, but only a couple of close friends. I have to say that I do notice the change on the site as well as there does not seem to be as much going on. It is what it is though and we just have to deal with things and move on. I was at a work function last night which was held at a hotel joined to a casino. I was really concerned, but I only took $20 with me, however, I did go and look through the casino. I found it interesting to watch people that were gambling. I watched someone playing my favourite machine and it was obvious to me that she was having a problem. She was rubbing the screen, changing all the buttons. It brought back memories to me when I would be playing them and doing all those things and praying that I would get a win as I had lost all my money. I am a compulsive gambler and I can’t put one cent in those machines. It was a day that I was strong enough to go and do that. There are other days that I know I would never do that as I would not have the strength to walk away. It is the first time that I have been in a casino for 7 months – as the last time I gambled is November 1, 2012. It has just dawned on me that I have not played those machines this year… It was done one day at a time though. I don’t think about a week from now, or a month from now, I just focus on today. There are good days, bad days and I never think that I have it beat as I know if I go and play those machines then I am back on a road to self destruction. One day at a time my sweet lord…
Dar ((((Carole)))) great to see you back posting as you have been missed. So sorry that you had all the problems with the renter. You be careful as you never know with people as they can be vindictive so just be careful. I think the fact that he could not go away quietly speaks volumes about the type of person he is. It sounds as if he wanted to control the situation and he was going to show you. It was interesting that the Police were not going to do anything about it until you mentioned phoning the company he worked at and also the *****. I can understand what Danny means by having his brother come though as then it shows him that you have other males around the place. I am so glad that you and Liz had a good visit. Take care, talk to you soonOne day at a time my sweet lord…
Dear (((P))) repeat after me "we are never ever ever getting back together", now that is the song in your head, get rid of those darn gambling thoughts!!! I know what you mean though as it is difficult to fight them, but you are doing great. I have to focus on today as if I think about a week from now or never gambling again I can feel a panic come on. I know that I don’t want to gamble again, but I can’t think of never gambling so I just keep plodding along one day at a time. You amaze me P as you never give up you keep fighting!!!! I am so glad that you are going to GA and you have support. You just do what you need to get through the day. One day at a time my sweet lord…
R2c way to go on your gamble free days. It is interesting how we can be doing great for days and not have the thoughts and urges, and then WHAM BAM we seem to be having them continually. I know I am having more and more lately so I know that I need to be on guard… although I know that the thoughts and urges will not harm me, as long as I don’t act on them!!!! I wonder if it is something to do with setting goals for ourselves… for example saying I want to get to 90 days, 6 months or beat the most gamble free time that I have had. I know that it is getting closer to the 7 months gamble free which is the most I have had since I started recovery. I have to change my thoughts to a gamble free life, one day at a time!!! Keep thinking once you get to day 90, it’s just another day!!! It is so much easier giving suggestions to others, but I am going to use that for me as well!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…
Hi P, just checking in to see how you are doing and it looks like you are doing goodOne day at a time my sweet lord…
Lizbeth so happy that you had a nice visit with Carole. Your condo will probably feel quiet now that she has gone. I believe you mentioned that you were going on a trip with your mother soon to visit an Aunt so that is something else for you to look forward to. Take care Liz!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…
Sherry, it is awesome hearing about your baby calves and you definitely gave good descriptions of them, and also I can see how it would be therapeutic as you feel needed when you are feeding them. Also, when you are feeding them you are probably living in the "now" you are enjoying what you are doing at that moment. You sound so happy in the post about feeding your calves!!!
We are going to see our grandsons in a couple of weeks and I am so excited about that!!!! We see them on Skype, but it is not the same as actually seeing them and getting a hug!!!! Take care Sherry!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…Vera, you really did go for a good walk if you made three miles. I think I could learn a thing or two from you in that department. I know that you have told me over the last couple of years when I was feeling depressed that I should go for a walk. I know that I think of it, but don’t get up and do it. The weather is starting to get a bit better now so there is no excuse for me, except laziness on my part. I am so glad that you have started your thread Vera. You have done so much for so many of us here that we want to help and support you as well. Take care V, and have Faith in yourself!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…