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Thanks Larry and RG for the wonderful posts. It is morning and the sun is shining. I have had a cup of coffee and I should be getting ready for work, but it seems to take me a little while to get going in the morning. I like to come round a little while before I face the world. I am ******** my blessings today and I am not thinking about never playing those machines again, all I am thinking about is today!!! Wishing everyone a peaceful gamble free day!!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantSherry, WTG on choosing to not gamble!!! I am the same way as soon as I put one cent in those machines I am lost and cant control myself. I don’t know if I would be as brave as you going to the Casino as I know after I went and looked around last week, and it was only for about 5 minutes that as I watched people playing those machines I could very easy have chosen to put money in. I chose not to gamble, but I don’t trust myself enough to go in harms way too much either. I know that I have to always remember not to put that first cent in a machine!!! I hate the feeling once I have gambled and then I have continual urges and the cycle starts all over again!!! YUCK I really don’t want that life again, but I know that just like that it can happen. I am a compulsive gamble and always will be – there is no cure!!!
One day at a time my sweet lord…cat438ParticipantHey Bettie – I forgot to mention that I am sure you will be watching hockey with those Chicago Blackhawks in the play offs. You do know where the Captain comes from though!!!! LOLOne day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantThanks Sherry. It is a brand new day and I am feeling hopeful that we can swing that trip. I will just have to be careful with spending and save to go on the trip. I get excited about the thought of seeing my brothers and my nieces, nephews, great nieces and nephews. I don’t have any family where I am except for my hubby, kids and grandkids, although our oldest son and grandkids live 2 x 2.5 hr flights away. I do have hubby’s sister and her family here. I find that as I have gotten older that I seem to miss my family more. I will just take it one day at a time and it will all work out. One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438Participant(((Bettie))) you sound like your need a hug lately. Be kind to yourself, and I wish I lived closer to you as I sure as hell would love to hang out with you!!!! I just think of all the mischief that we could get up to… I smile when I think of the store we went to and how you were explaining how all the toys worked to Carole and I. It really was fun!!! You are doing great with not gambling and working recovery. I have to say that I feel the same as you at times in regards to friends, but I am also responsible for some of it, as I find that sometimes I get a bit reclusive, which is not my normal self. I am really working on making an effort to connect with friends again. I know that I just need to be patient with myself and it will all work out. You are such a fun person to hang around with and it is their loss for not including you in their extra outings. Have you thought about going to a different GT group? Take care Bettie!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438Participant(((Carole))) we have had lots of rain here as well, although the mosquitoes are not out yet. I know there will be lots of them once they come!!!! It is amazing how the time is flying for you to go on your cruise. I think an Alaskan Cruise is something that I would love to do, but hubby wants to do a road trip so he can stop and fish etc. I loved the way you described the store "the big girl’s store" it is a much better way to describe it. I always say I am going to the "fat store", which in itself is already negative before I even go. Hubby always ask if they sell fat at it. Funny little quirks that I have. We have sold the trailer, well we got a deposit on it and they are bringing the balance on Wednesday night. I don’t know why but I cant believe it sold. It did not take that long as we only put it up for sale the middle of May, but it felt that it was not selling. We will get our line of credit paid off and I am seriously thinking of a trip to Scotland in September or October. It would be something to look forward to. I hope that you get a chance to have some quiet time for yourself. Take care and have a great day!!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantI did not gamble yesterday and do not plan on gambling today!!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantThanks RG, I did manage to get a few things done, but not as much as I wanted. I have so many things that I want to do around the house and then I get overwhelmed… and don’t do anything LOL I am talking about cleaning out closets, doing a bit spring cleaning etc., but I have decided that working full time and on top of that getting older that I should be patient with myself LOL It sounds like a good excuse anyway. I have not got those flowers yet to plant. I did look at some and they were not nice so I will get them this week and maybe put them in next weekend… it is raining today so I cant get it done today. Yeah, procrastinating again!!!
We were selling our trailer and it looks like it’s sold YEAH.. we got a good deposit and the balance is coming on Wednesday. I put the cash deposit in the bank right away… all nice new $100 bills…. so when I was looking at them… guess what I was thinking about.. yes, gambling. I don’t trust myself and got rid of temptation, although hubby would have known if it did not make it to the bank so that was a big enough deterrent. I am excited to be getting our line of credit paid off. I am thinking that I would like to go on a trip to Scotland to see my family. Who knows I might go in September or October. The thought of that makes me very happy!!!! It is something to work towards saving and to look forward to…. I need a positive focus to keep me on the right road!!!!!
I am just rambling away here!!!
One day at a time my sweet lord…cat438ParticipantKeep going P, you are doing awesome!!!! I did not gamble yesterday and I pledge not to gamble today!!!! One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantKin – thank you for posting these its just what I needed to read. The choice is ours if we are content with what we have, but one thing we all know and that is gambling will not give us any more, it robs not just our money, but our sense of self, out serenity. Keep making the right choices – one day at a time Kin!!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantIt is amazing how the days fly by… so all we need to focus on is today. Wishing everyone a happy gamble free day!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantCarole, you really have lots going on right now with everyone around. I know you are not complaining as you love your family, however, it is tough when we don’t get some quiet time. You also have lot more going on with having to clean the renters place and now you have weeding to do as well. I know that I find it hard to do as much physical work as I did when I was younger. I sometimes have to remind myself that I am not a young thing anymore and to be patient with myself. The brain wants to do it, but the body is not able. LOL It would help if I lost some weight and got in shape though. I need to get off the lazy boy and start doing something about it as it will not happen magically. I wish there was a magic fairy who could just wave her wand and I was 50lb lighter. It is what it is though and I will ***** my blessings. Have a great gamble free day Carole!!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantThank (((RG))), the reason that I went to the casino is I had to go to something to the hotel attached to it – so I just thought I would go and have a look. I definitely don’t plan on going again – even to look around. I know that if I did that a few ***** I would not be able to stay gamble free. I knew when I went in I was not going to gamble as I had no money, but if I am honest I would have loved to have sat down and played those machines. It shows me that the addiction is there and I should not put myself into temptations way. I know that those machines just call me. It was good for me to go though as I know that "I am not cured" LOL It’s not funny, but I have slipped so many ***** in my two years of recovery by saying to myself – I can control this – I can go and limit the cash and just be a "normal gambler" LOL I now know that will never happen. It has taken me a while to accept that, but it is what it is. I know if I put one cent in those machines that I can’t control myself so I just take it one day at a time. I hate the feeling after I have a slip and ******** to try and get some gamble free time again. It is so hard to stay away after I have gambled. I am working hard for the "norm" for me to be that I don’t gamble. I also know that no matter how much time you have gamble free, it can be years, that you can still end up back gambling. I will always be a cg and I can’t change that. I accept that I am powerless when it comes to those machines. I thank God for helping me in my recovery and all the support at GT. I also know that I have to keep working at recovery and deal with my emotions and any other things that bother me, rather than run to the casino. I know with Gods help for me, Higher Power for others, that it can be done, as long as I take it one day at a time. I don’t think about never playing those machines again, all I think is just for today I will not play them. Wishing everyone a wonderful gamble free day!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantI hope you feel better soon P!!! Well I did not gamble yesterday and do not plan on gambling today. It is definitely day by day we get through this addiction. Wishing everyone a gamble free day!!! One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantHi (((Velvet)))
All I can say is that you have such wisdom and when we get a post from you it feels special. I do realize that you are only one person and it is difficult, actually impossible to write on everyones posts!!!! I know that you try to do so much for everyone. I have this voice in my head that comes from you and it says "why not go for a gamble free life". I am glad to say that it is something that I am working towards, but I had not really thought that way until you posted it for me. I was working on getting to and beating my longest stretch of gamble free time. I am again at 7 months gamble free which is where I got to before, however, I also know that I am the same distance away as everyone else from placing my next bet. Thanks Velvet for your magic touch!!!
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