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Carole, it is amazing how our inner peace is so important to us. We go along with things we don’t feel are right for us and then when we make the change and find that peace then we know that we made the right decision. I am sure there will be ***** when you miss Danny as you start your new journey, but I am happy that you are putting yourself first and doing something for you!!! I am having a difficult time right now, but it is a year this month since my grandbaby was stillborn. I did not realize how much he was in my thoughts, but I went to a counselor on Friday and it was the first thing that came out of my mouth. I just have to take it one day at a time and take care of my emotional self right now. I think if he had lived he would have been a year old this month. It was not in God’s plan for him and I may never know what God’s plan for him being here was. It made me realize that it must have been in August last year ago that I was in Edmonton and met you and Bettie. That is a good memory for me!!! One day at a time that is all any of us can do. It will be wonderful for you having Liz visit, so excited for both of you!!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438Participant(((P))) what is wrong???? Please post and let me know that you are okay girl!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantDear (((Carole))) you have achieved so much in such a short time, although as I know it has been a long time coming, it’s just that everything seems to be moving forward so fast now. It must be wonderful to know that you have your furniture moved as I am sure it has been praying on your mind how to get it done. It is wonderful how it worked out that one of the renters was available to help as you knew that you needed help to move your furniture. You know that you can move the boxes by yourself, when and as it pleases you. I am sure that knowing you can stay in your own apartment when Danny is back is a big relief to you. It will be fun for you to make the apartment your own. I am sure that you are impatient to get moved for good!!! One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantR2C it is good to see that you have started a new page and I am so glad that you listened to RG and P. It is not easy to deal with all our different emotions when we are in the throwns of our addiction. The self loathing, anger, fear we cant stop and it goes on and on. We just want our next fix. I hate what gambling does to us and the continual fight and struggle to stay away. R2C it is important for you to keep posting and getting the support and help of others on this site. I know when I first started in recovery I would have those continual thoughts about gambling, and Vera said the next time they come just stomp on them like they are a bug!!! I used that thought for so long and I got carried away thinking of all the blood splattering everywhere, but it did the trick to help me get my thoughts away from gambling. Keep posting and dont worry about tomorrow or next week or month just get through today R2C!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantDear (((Carole))) OMGosh is what I am thinking!!! You really are moving forward and getting your own space all ready for you. I think that you may have moved emotionally into your new space and all you are waiting for is the financial aspect to be sorted out. It will be wonderful for you to have the apartment to go to when Danny is home as it will be your own safe haven. It makes sense to have comfort there when you do stay. It will really start to be your "home" as you have your own things around and get it organized the way you want it. I want you to know that I am thinking about you. One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantLiz, you are dealing with the loss of your husband and that alone is difficult enough. I am sorry that your daughter has relapsed again with the *****. You are being really strong in how you are dealing with everything, but I can’t imagine how very difficult it must be for you. It is good that you are able to walk away from your daughter when she is angry and not get caught up in arguing with her. It is difficult not to be an enabler and know what to do. Addictions are so tough for all of us, and sometimes I want to go gambling rather than deal with my husband’s drinking, but I now know that is not the answer. I thank God that your Grandson has you to look out for him. Stay strong and look after yourself.One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantThanks RG and I have decided that you are my "think positive coach" I love all the suggestions you give me they do make a difference and are very much appreciated. It is great that you take the time to post all this on my page. You really are an awesome lady!!! One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantLizbeth so sorry that you had a bad day. It must be challenging for you having to deal with your daughter when you are already dealing with the emotions of losing your husband. I hope and pray that she has not relapsed with *****. My heart goes out to anyone with an addiction. However, having said that I get annoyed with my husband and his drinking. It would be nice if your daughter was there to support you right now with your emotions and the loss of your husband. Your Grandson is so blessed to have you as his Grandmother. Take care and stay strong Liz!!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438Participant(((((Carole))))) All these decisions and what you are going through is very emotionally draining for you. Thinking of you!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…
5 July 2013 at 1:01 am in reply to: Well today has arrived. 6 years that I didnt believe was possible #12691cat438ParticipantAWESOME… 7 years gamble free way to go!!! It is always good to read about the success of others as it shows us it can be done. Thanks for being there for me Harry, YOU ROCK!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantDear Carole, you are really facing so many challenges right now. It must be so hard letting all your dogs go as I know how much you love them. I am glad that you are doing the move to your apartment in stages as I believe the gradual process of staying a few nights at a time is easier for you. I am sure that it will get to the stage that you cant wait to get moved to your own place. I can understand why you have anxiety attacks as what you are doing is not an easy thing to do. You have definitely progressed so much in moving forward to having a life that you want. I am glad that you will have your cable, internet soon as it will help to make it more like home. It is good that Danny has gone back to work as I am sure that it is still a bit stressful and difficult for you when he is there. Take care Carole!!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantP I am so glad to read your post about getting help again!!! You are doing so great and your posts are sounding more positive again. We are funny creatures, how one day we feel great and other days we feel overwhelmed. I am slowly working through the issue that was bothering me. I am going to see a counselor on Friday so I am looking forward to that. It just helps me clear my head as I find when I talk to a counselor I never know what is going to come up. It is a new counselor so we will see how it goes. I had a really good counselor when I first went to Addictions Foundation and unfortunately she retired and the second one I went to through Addictions Foundations was not the same. I am going to a different one, but not through Addictions Foundation. I hope that she is good!!! Keep on doing what you are doing P as you are doing awesome!!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantLiz sorry that you are having gambling urges, but you are doing fantastic by not gambling with all that you are going through, and as you know gambling is not the answer. I know that I would love to go and escape sometimes, and just forget everything for a little while, and just have some fun and excitement. In our minds we can think of all these things and forget the other side of it. The self loathing, hating ourselves and the despair that we lost so much money that we cant afford to lose, and then the urges are even stronger. I think it was good for me to type that out as sometimes when I think of playing the machines I remember only the escaping and excitement!!! What and when is the next little trip that you have planned? I think it is good to have something to look forward to as it can keep our focus on something positive. When are you going to see your Mother again? How is your living room looking with your new furniture? Are you planning to do anything else to your home? When is your Grandson coming to stay again? I am not being nosey with all my questions I am trying to get you thinking of other things and not urges. Take care Liz and be patient and kind to yourself. I almost forgot to wish you a Happy Independence Day!!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438Participant((((P)))) YEAH SO GLAD YOU DID NOT GAMBLE!!!! YOU GO GIRL, I AM SO PLEASED FOR YOU THAT I DID ALL THE SMILEY FACES FOR YOU, THAT YOU CANT DO!!! IT’S ALL IN CAPITALS AS I AM SHOUTING FROMT HE ROOF TOP THAT YOU ARE AWESOME!!!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…
cat438ParticipantP you are so funny – although the urges are not funny, I think you are being to nice to them the way you are asking them to go away – even with a PLEASE – I wonder if it would help if you swore at them LOL
I did not gamble yesterday and do not plan on gambling today!!! One day at a time my sweet lord… -
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