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  • in reply to: CHANGE IS CHALLENGING #20798
    cat438
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    I am starting to realize that when I get overwhelmed and stressed that gambling thoughts come to me more and more. The thoughts cause me to panic as it makes me realize how easy it would be to be back playing machines and gambling. It really scares me as I know that although I do not want that life that just like that I could end up putting a dollar in a machine and it would be the same old story. I am going to write down what I need to do, both at work and at home before I go on vacation. I will try and assign some of my work tasks to my staff and that would lighten my load there. I will try and take Friday afternoon off so that I can get some of the personal things I need to do done. I need to take it one day at a time. I know it will all work out so why am I doing this to myself. Now in that statement lies the answer… “why am I doing this to myself”. I need to let Go let God. I am only human and can only do what I can do. I find it interesting that when I am feeling like this that I tend to post more. I am hoping that it is me realizing that when these times come that I am better to come here and post rather than escape to gambling. It also tells me that we have to be aware and not get complacent. We are all the same when it comes to placing that next bet no matter how much gamble free time we may have. I know that is one that Larry always told me and I miss his posts. I do hoe he is all right as he has not posted for a while. I pray for all of us today to have a gamble free day and reach out for support and help. I know there are so many wonderful people in despair because of this addiction.
    I am thankful for so many wonderful things in my life and I don’t want to do anything to spoil that. I have to focus on the positive today. I am thankful that I can come here and post to others who understand what I am saying.

    in reply to: The journey of change #20504
    cat438
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    I just wanted to wish you a cheery good morning and say that you are doing awesome. I hope that you have your coffee in hand and are sitting reading this. You really are an inspiration to so many P as you never give up and you fight this addiction so hard. I am so proud of you. And thanks for all the support that you have given me. It is one day at a time and we just have to keep our thoughts away from gambling at those machines. We know it is a “mug’s game” when our mind is clear, but when we are on a gambling binge we can’t think straight. Have a wonderful gamble free day!!!

    in reply to: Feeling hopeful #15479
    cat438
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    Lizbeth I am so happy for you that you feel you are home in your new house. I have a feeling that wherever you are that your Grandson would feel he is at home. It is obvious that the two of you have such a wonderful bond and it is heartwarming to read about it. I don’t know why but I have this picture of you at your hew home surrounded by a white picket fence. It is wonderful to hear the serenity in your posts lately. I know that it has been, and will continue to be difficult for you on the loss of your husband, but you are moving forward and making a new life. Your strength and courage is admirable in how you have dealt with everything that life has thrown at you. I am so happy for you and wish you nothing but joy in your new home. Have a wonderful gamble free day. Just a friendly reminder to get yourself excluded from the Casino. The reason I mention it is because I have been having lots of thoughts of gambling lately and it makes sense to have barriers in place, if you can!!!

    in reply to: December – Month of Miracles ODAAT #24331
    cat438
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    I have been quite a few thoughts of gambling lately. I will just take it one day at a time!!! I know that gambling is not the answer. I do not plan on gambling today!!!

    in reply to: desdemona #10178
    cat438
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    I sometimes wonder why life can’t just work out how we want it to, but unfortunately that is not the case. It sounds as if you are going to get out for a while today which will be good for you after being in the house for three days. I understand so well about procrastination, but I keep thinking I will do it when I retire. I know that is just an excuse for me.
    I hope that you get a trip to Disneyland as it would be a nice break to go somewhere warm just now. I hope that the father allows the kids to go.
    Are you still applying for jobs? You never know what might happen from some of the interviews you go for, as sometimes it may not work out for the person they hire, and then there may be an opening. The more interviews you can get the better as it gives you practice. Good on you for not gambling!!!! It is tough as I am finding my thoughts are going to gambling lots lately. I am stressed so I find that is a trigger for me. I am starting to know these things so that helps me understand why the thoughts are coming. I just need to get my mind on other things, or stop procrastinating and do some of the stuff I need to do. You take care of yourself (((Carole))))

    in reply to: Recovery Road… #9681
    cat438
    Participant

    It sounds as if you are struggling right now. I am trying to find the right words to say to help you. I know you have been through so much and busy helping your daughter. Quite often when we have been dealing with tough times, not gambling, but other things in life we end up gambling, just to escape. I know that you know what to do, and that gambling is not the answer. Plan to have a gamble free day as you know you can do that. You can do it Ican and have faith in yourself!!!!

    in reply to: CHANGE IS CHALLENGING #20796
    cat438
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    I thought I should post something as it is a while since I posted on my thread. It is only two weeks until we leave to go see our grandchildren. There is so much that I have to do at work. I am also having a Christmas Dinner here before I go for my son and wife and daughter. Although our daughter is coming out to spend Christmas with us at our son and his wife who live out of Province. I don’t know why I get so panicky about things. I can only do what I can do. I will get there if I break my to do list up into manageable pieces. I can do it that way!!! It is amazing after posting I now realize that this all the things I need to do are overwhelming me. I need to just take it day by day!!!! One day at a time can relate to everything not only gambling!!! Wishing everyone a wonderful gamble free day!!!

    in reply to: December – Month of Miracles ODAAT #24330
    cat438
    Participant

    Yes, our minds can take us back to the fun and exciting part of gambling, but we know it is not the reality if we gamble. I know that I have those thoughts, but I try so hard to squash them, as like you, I know it is not what it’s like. It’s like looking through rosy coloured glasses and only seeing part of the story!!! I think we need to look through reality glasses when those thoughts come. I do not plan on gambling today!!!

    in reply to: The journey of change #20503
    cat438
    Participant

    Keep posting to your hearts content. I find that sometimes when I sit down and start typing it is amazing how things come out that I was not even thinking about. I feel it can be therapeutic in helping deal with our emotions.
    We can make any excuse to go play machines, but that is all they are, excuses!!!! I know that I miss the feel good thing it does to your brain, but it can also come from exercise. I know that I need to get up and do a bit more, but I will get there one day. I am not going to use it as an excuse to play machines though.
    Enjoy your coffee and have a “wonderful gamble free day” because you deserve it!!!

    in reply to: A thread for all… What was good in my day today? #24348
    cat438
    Participant

    I was motivated enough to:
    Make a big pot of soup
    Make a lovely roast beef dinner and it felt good!!!
    I really enjoyed watched curling on tv

    in reply to: Recovery Road… #9679
    cat438
    Participant

    Hi Ican, so nice to see your post. I forget that it’s the US Thanksgiving as the Canadian Thanksgiving was a couple of weeks ago. It is tough to let our kids go, but it sounds as if your daughter knows what she is doing. Is this the first time that she has lived away from home on her own. If so it will probably take her a little while to adjust, but it will be good for her.
    You should take time for you now Ican and do what you want. I don’t know why, but all of a sudden Sherry came into my head. I wonder how she is doing. I find it tough sometimes as you get to know and connect with people here, and then we don’t hear from them. Take care Ican and WTG on November gamble free!!!!

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19940
    cat438
    Participant

    Wow, so proud of you for standing up for yourself Bettie. It is difficult to change how we have allowed someone to treat us a certain way. I believe that you just told them that it is not acceptable for them to treat you a certain way. Out of something bad comes something good, as you get to spend some time with Debs!!! Yeah, you two are doing AWESOME!!!

    in reply to: December – Month of Miracles ODAAT #24328
    cat438
    Participant

    I originally typed on the subject line “Day 1 of December” and the Day 1 hit me so hard that I had to change it. I have had so many Day 1’s on this journey of recovery. I did not gamble in November and I will take December ODAAT. There are times that my thoughts turn to playing those machines… I start to remember the fun and excitement when I need to remember the despair, pain, self loathing. I do not plan on gambling today!!!

    in reply to: NOVEMBER – 30 DAYS – ODAAT #24118
    cat438
    Participant

    It’s the end of another month, and I have not gambled, and do not plan on gambling today!!!
    WTG to everyone who got through the month without gambling, and to all those that had 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 etc. gamble free days in November. Any gamble free day for a CG is a good day!!!

    in reply to: Recovery Road… #9677
    cat438
    Participant

    I am just wondering how things are going for you. I hope that your daughter is feeling a bit better. Relationships are so challenging and when our kids are in pain we ache for them. Life can be difficult and then add the gambling addiction it is unbearable. I think when we start playing those machines it is fun and exciting and we innocently think we have found a fun activity…. wow how fast that changes!!!! We can’t change the fact that we are CG’s and always will be. I know I would sometimes love to run away to play machines and not think about anything, but then it just adds to whatever I was running from in the first place… escaping from reality. Wow, sorry I did not mean to be so pessimistic on your page. Wishing you are “happy gamble free day”!!!!

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