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You did not let Danny control you and your gambling by ending up playing slots. In reading your post it is like Danny wants you to gamble as then he feels he has control over you and is not losing you. I am sure that Danny is concerned about his job as this will have an impact financially on him. Have you ever talked to your doctor about the anxiety attacks that you have. When you were describing how you were feeling I really could relate to the feelings as I sometimes get like that as well. I can feel as if I am having a heart attack and I just want to go home. In fact a few times I have ended up driving straight to the hospital. I am taking medication for depression and when I am on that it seems to help with the anxiety/panic attacks as well. You have achieved so much this last year and you know that you can do it. I noticed how many times you would say to me one day at a time when we were speaking on the phone when you were here for your mother. You really have come a long way (((Carole)))
Cruising can you put some barriers in place to help you. Can you limit your access to cash or the way that you get cash to gamble. Hand over control of your money to someone else. If you have no money then you cant gamble. I know that for me I would buy VISA Gift Cards as I could not get cash, but they still allowed me to have a way to pay for things. I am not sure what you were gambling on. My gambling addiction showed up with the slots/vlt machines. I am powerless over them. Keep posting on here as it will help you.
Congratulations on making the first step to help you recover from this gambling addiction. The best advice I can give to you is to take it one day at a time. Don’t focus on never gambling ever again, just focus on today. I know when I started recovery that the thought of never gambling again would cause me to panic, but I just kept focusing on today. I also came to accept that I can’t control my gambling. As soon as I put one dollar in a machine then I cant stop until I have lost all the money, even if I won some it would all go back in. There is support here if you post or go to some of the support groups. Have a great gamble free day!!!
I am glad that the urges are subsiding a bit. I know that feeling of worrying as that is something that I struggle with. I now “try” to live and focus on today, and plan for the future. I bought this little cross that sits on my desk at work and it says “Let Go Let God” and you could try that when you worry. It can be Let Go Let Higher Power… It is accepting that we have no control over things, it is letting go of that control. We are “powerless over gambling”, and now that I have accepted that it has helped me. You are doing great and you are such a “fighter” and I know that you are going to have a gamble free life. I know over the years we have seen many people come and go as they relapse, but you keep fighting and don’t give up. Your strength will get you there. Have Faith in yourself Sweet Pea!!!!
I hope you feel okay now. I have to say that GT is much quieter than it was when I started recovery in June, 2011. I don’t post nearly as much as I did. A number of the “old gang” no longer post. In fact sometimes I feel it is “eerily quiet” here, but that is comparing it to how it used to be. I don’t tend to go to the chats/groups but I believe that a number of people do. Personally, I don’t think that there is the same sense of community here that there used to be. I think some of the changes they have made has had an impact. The first change was not allowing UK Residents to be members here, unless they have been a resident of the GM Centre. We lost so many of the “old gang” when that happened. Also some of the North America people left and joined Gam Talk. Then the change of the website caused quite a bit of confusion. I find that I don’t post on the new members pages, which is terrible as I know it was such a life saver for me when I first started. One day at a time is all we can do.
Liz, you have survived another tough day in the grieving process, and that is the Anniversary of your husband’s death. It may always be a sad day for you for years, but that’s okay. I know that it took me years to get over the loss of my mother, and as the anniversary date of her passing approached I found myself getting down. I know that my Mum would not have wanted me to be so sad, but at the time I was so wrapped up in my grief. It is over 20 years since she passed, but I always think of her that day. She was only 61 and that is how old I am now, well for another month LOL It is difficult when our loved ones are taken away too young.
I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you.Hi Sweet Pea, you have not posted for a while so getting concerned about you. It is okay to not post as I go through those stages as well, but just do a quick one to let us know that you are doing okay. It’s the Mummy Bear coming out in me LOL
Sherry I missed your post at the end of 2013, but I am so glad that you posted and to know that you are okay. Well whatever okay is with this gambling addiction LOL How are the calves doing? I am sorry that you have problems with your marriage. I don’t think anyone has a perfect marriage as there are always ups and downs along the path. I know that it was an adjustment again with our marriage and I had a terrible time with the “empty nest syndrome”. If only life were perfect, but that is not the case. We just have to take it one day at a time. Take care and post again to let us know how you are.
I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you today. It is wonderful to see that you are focusing on the happy memories that you have of your husband. 30 years is a long time to be with someone and to be on your own is such an adjustment, and you are doing everything with such strength and dignity. I know that I complain about my husband, and no marriage is perfect, but I also know that I would be lonely and miss him if he was not here. You have achieved so much in the year Liz, and it has not been easy for you, but you got through it one day at a time. I thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings throughout the year as we all benefit from them. It sounds as if your husband had a good sense of humour if he was a prankster. Think of something funny he did and treasure the memory.
I hope that the urges have subsided a bit again P. It is so challenging as we fight this addiction as we may not have urges for a while, then wham bam we have urges like crazy!!! You are doing amazing though so keep doing what you are doing. It always goes back to just for today – or this hour – or 5 minutes or 30 seconds whatever it takes.
We are still having snow here and I am calling it the “never ending winter”. It is the worst winter we have ever had since we moved to Canada. If this had been our first winter I don’t think we would have stayed LOL My car in stuck in the drive in snow. My son is on his way to help me get out. I cant change the situation so I just have to accept that it is what it is. Now that is recovery speaking to me. I pray that you have a “urge free” day Sweet Pea!!!!I am glad that you went to the doctor and got yourself checked. I am presuming that he gave you medication for your infection, and usually a couple of days after you start on antibiotics you begin to feel a bit better. It is so much stress when you are sick and you are worried about taking time off work. Get better soon.