[C_Noel]

I’ve been to the casino over the weekend. Of course, I lost. $55.00 later and I see this as a roadblock yet learning experience. Although it was a small amount in comparison to other times, it’s still a loss and I’ve still fed my addiction. I’m beginning to write down goals and hobbies that I’d like to begin doing instead of gambling. I work 40 hours a week and am beginning a second job that I am able to work as my time allows. I really need to motivate myself to become a better person.

[C_Noel]

Thanks for your reply sad. I was happy to have chatted with you in the support group. It really gives me a perspective of how gambling is affecting all of us who come here for guidance an support. I hope you continue to find courage and strength on your recovery. It sounds like you have taken all the right steps. I’m in the process of doing the same. Although it is not a payday for me, I have one week left focus on my goals for when that payday comes. I’m already feeling stronger and feeling a glimmer of hope that I will be gamble free and able to take control of my life. There is a GA meeting next week that I may attend just to aid in my self-recovery. For now, I’m focusing on setting my goals and taking deep breaths and takin one day at a time.

[C_Noel]

You’re absolutely right, Bettie. I’ve won before in the past and counted each dollar and allotting it to the bills I could pay and things I could buy. I then gambled it all away just minutes later.

I used to be a banker as well and it never bothered me either when I saw them. As far as they knew, I could manage my money perfectly because I was able to manage everyone else’s.

Thank you so much for your advice. I’m getting the courage to attend a GA meeting. They are held only once a week in my area but I’m more and more apt to attend.

[C_Noel]

Wow! Such amazing stories of hope and encouragement. I am so glad I’ve found a place in which I can relate to so many people without judgement. This is my first public attempt at recovery. I’ve tried to stop gambling in the past but find myself relapsing just after a couple weeks. This has been going on for about 6 years. You sound so determined so don’t give up! Perhaps the relapse will only shed light onto what emotions and behaviors lead us to it. I’m trying to understand but it’s hard for sure! I’ve got $19 to last 8 days and I hate that feeling.

[C_Noel]

Yes, it has been 3 days since blindly driving myself to a near casino but it is the lack of funds that prevents my going. I am fearful that next payday will come and off I go, to gamble what remains. After paying off a payday loan and bills, I’ll have very minimal money left. In my mind, I know I’ll be thinking, “if I can at least double this money, I’ll survive.” In reality, I know it will be a loss and I’ll be back in the cycle. I’ve got to focus! I want to rebuild my life free of gambling. It’s tough.

[C_Noel]

Thank you so much for sharing and wishing me the best! Being able to take it one day at a time is great advice. I’m always looking further than that and that is where I have failed before. I’m so fortunate to have found this site and very pleased they are worldwide. Thanks again and I wish you the best and many more gamble free days.

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