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I’ve just read your posts today. I’m officially on day 1. I joined two days ago but gambled both.. So my goal is to not do it today. I can go 5 days quite easily. Im a nurse and do 13 hour shifts. When I’m working, I don’t think about it. I have one more day off. So hopefully I will have the accomplishment of two days. But then I’ll be off Friday. Kids will be at school. That is when I will find it hard. Money will be in my account.. hopefully I will get to be able to say day 6. Sat and Sunday won’t be an issue. I have a week off at the beginning of April. So being able to say day 37 would feel like a massive accomplishment. Mine is purely based on free time, and stress.. I hate this. I’ve tried so many times before. But this is the first time I have spoke to other cgs. I found this thread useful of all. Everyone seems straight to the point. No bs. I need someone to be straight with me. No sugar coating. Jansdad. I’m right here with Ya. If you find something that works, please tell me about it. I, like you.. Can’t bring myself to tell my partner.
You say no one on here has gone longer than 17 days? Why are we on here if there’s no hope?
Or is it.. The ones that succeed don’t return here because they’ve overcome it.. And they don’t want reminding. As that may eventually be a set back. I’m guessing, when I get to the point to where I don’t think about it. I won’t be on here.. Maybe. I don’t know.I think I will report my card lost. It sounds like a good step. I really want to beat this dirty little secret of mine. What I want to know the steps people have used to stop. I don’t want to hate myself anymore. I want to be able to buy things with my hard earned cash.
I signed up to a new site yesterday. Straight away I set a limit of 100. I lost it!! But I didn’t do anymore. I just played candy crush. Today… I AM NOT GOING TO SIGN UP TO ANYMORE SITES. I’ll let you know if I succeed. Try and do the same and feedback. We can do this Kieran.i wanted to buy one but I’m not sure? would I be able to un-install it? cause if I can then i will.so ill be wasting my money?
I would have gave in. I can convince myself. Where did your strength come from…jansdad?
I have never been able to talk myself out of it?I joined 3 last night. Only played on two. The reason I played on two was because the first one I set a deposit limit. The second was because I set a deposit limit. But because I was doing it sneakily. My partner saw me get my debit card out the second time and I new he would guess I was gambling if I did it third time, so I didn’t deposit. I felt like he was looking out the corner of his eye. So then I looked for a site that accepts paypal. Couldn’t find one that I had already excluded myself from. Had my partner not been home.. God knows what I would have done.. I’ve self excluded from the two I played on. I can’t remember the third site to self exclude from. I just wish I was excluded from all of them.
I tell you what though. I posted my own topic on hear and I already feel such relief from this pain. How about you? Are u as bad as me? Do u feel a bit better?
I do hope u stop. Here’s a warning. I don’t even get a buzz anymore. And yet I still do it. It’s now an utter compulsion. Never gives me pleasure anymore. That’s why I’m on here now. I know deep with in my gut that I need support with this. I’m too ashamed to tell my loved ones. I’ve hid it so well. My partner wondered why I had no money last month and I lied. I told him that I reduced my overdraft which left me short. So he ended up PROUD of me. So the guilt is hitting me hard too.I hate myself for being so stupid!
I actually told myself yesterday I wouldn’t do it. Then I did!Like you I had a binge yesterday. Just got paid. I worked an extra 55 hours in feb. Just to recover from the damage I’ve done last month. Also to avoid gambling. But my family has suffered because I’m never home. Then I went and did it again last night. I just couldn’t resist. I don’t even enjoy it! I just don’t know how to stop