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  • in reply to: Just to say. #27819
    butchugly
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    I know it is. Lol
    My bulldog was called butch. And I used to call him butchugly. Plus I feel pretty ugly inside right now. But I’m not a butch woman.

    in reply to: I’m going to give this a go before I ruin my life #29465
    butchugly
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    I am finding all of this helpful. I will take one day at a time. I have net nanny on my lap top. As I can’t use gamblock.. Mac computer. It seems to be pretty good. As it blocked me from filling in the survey. The only reason it lets my on this site is I added it when I was setting it up. I’m taking action to stop myself having access to money. So that should all be in place in the next few day.. Then I will report my debit card lost.. So it’s not connected to any online stuff. I will give my partner my new card.. And credit cards. I’m at work for the next three days.. 13 hour shifts. So I know if I can get through today, that will help.

    in reply to: Just to say. #27817
    butchugly
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    that just makes me cry..I feels so sad and lost. I had never thought about it like that.
    Yes I need to tell my partner. I know he will be supportive. I am such an honest person normally..and also very open about my flaws to the world. This time, I don’t know what has happened. I have told him and other people before that I had a problem with gambling.
    Maybe this time..I find it hard because I actually believe it. Im scared. I still have my partner..my children, a nice home and a good job.
    Ive lost my social life..unless its gambling. I don’t go out. unless its gambling. I spend most of my alone hours thinking about how stupid I’ve been.
    yes I’m in debt but its not terrible..but I know its heading that way. Im a psychiatric nurse..I listen and hear about people ruining there lives because of addiction of some kind. I can help them and i am good at it..probably mostly because i understand that gut wrenching feeling day in and day out. but when it comes to me..i can’t even listen to my own advice. I will tell my partner one day. i believe i am a CG but I am not sure how strong i am. therefore i will wait till i believe i can beat this.
    I feel like I have to be strong for other people day in and day out. yet I can’t be strong for myself. it makes me angry and sad

    in reply to: I’m going to give this a go before I ruin my life #29462
    butchugly
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    my partner believes I have my gambling under control. I am too ashamed to tell him. I might tell him later on but not ready too right now

    in reply to: Just to say. #27811
    butchugly
    Participant

    how long did it take to get to that point?

    in reply to: The start of the rest of my life! #29276
    butchugly
    Participant

    Hopefully your landlord will wait two weeks. so if you spend all the money on food now. you can’t gamble it. then when you get paid you can pay your rent. probably leaving you with less money. but less temptation to gamble. at least you’ll have a roof over your head and a full belly. which in turn will make you feel secure.. then safe, then more able to sleep and concentrate on getting better and building a new life. sounds like a lot more positives from not gambling don’t u think?

    in reply to: today I lost everything #29032
    butchugly
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    when the time is right and you are in the right place, those items will be meaningless because you will feel so good about life and yourself. you will also enjoy buying new stuff because you’ll now in your heart that the casinos will have taken it all.

    in reply to: I’m going to give this a go before I ruin my life #29460
    butchugly
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    Have this compelling urge. My partner has just gone out. As soon as he walked out the door, the thought entered my head. i actually searched for a site before writing this. i have just managed to talk myself out of it. First thought…I just spend a little bit. second thought..i might win my money back. third thought..what am i doing. now i am here writing this.
    I am going to have a shower now. hope it works. he won’t be back for two and half hours.

    in reply to: today I lost everything #29029
    butchugly
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    I’ve just been on the web site. I amy be interpreting it wrong but as I will be the administrator, won’t i be able to change the settings

    in reply to: The Last Chance #26868
    butchugly
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    you have three options night, morning and mid afternoon. a lot of people don’t realise this but if the side effects are too much. taking them around say 2-3pm, side effects won’t kick in till your tucked away in bed. Often if you take them at night, you can end up feeling lethargic mid afternoon the next day.

    in reply to: The Last Chance #26866
    butchugly
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    fluoxitine or sertraline are better options for compulsiveness.
    fluoxetine takes about two weeks the feel the benefit. sertraline takes approximately a month. If you can get your doc to prescribe a mood stabiliser with it such as lamotrogine, it can be very helpful. I am a psychiatric nurse and a CG. but I don’t take medication..probably should. funny really. I can help others but not myself. also promethazine will aid sleep without the addictiveness of zopiclone. promethazine will help you to get deep sleep without waking u feeling hung over. a lot of psychiatrists in the uk prescribe it. GPs need reminding about it..they always opt for zopiclone first forgetting that sometimes people just need a good solid night sleep to help aid there moods. zopiclone can help to get into a good sleep pattern but can often leave you feeling flat in mood.

    in reply to: I’m going to give this a go before I ruin my life #29459
    butchugly
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    I don’t want to gamble today. I hope I feel like that this evening. as soon as I get the urge. I will post on here. my thought process. maybe someone can tell me what to do with it. I know i need to narrow down..the turning point. what it is and why. I know i won’t be able to stop unless I figure this out. I am off work tomorrow. then working 13 hour shifts until friday. so i will be fine on those day. its just when i am not working is when there is a problem. so if anyone comments on this in the week. it may not be until friday before i reply. depends when i get a chance. I really want to get to the point where I say day 90.

    in reply to: My continuing hell! #28964
    butchugly
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    you are empowering yourself to take some control back. there is always a means to gamble if you search hard enough. you’ve made it to sunday. try and make it to monday.

    in reply to: new to this forum! #29511
    butchugly
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    just trying to get my head around all this. I have tried for 3yrs maybe more. This is the first time I have spoke to other gambling addicts.today will be my first day w/o gambling. I am determined for today. From what I can gather on here. its one day at a time.

    in reply to: What I like about recovery is… #27678
    butchugly
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    it all sounds so positive. but unrealistic to me. i am only on day 1. i want to feel like u guys.

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