Thank you, Monica1. What you say is correct. I’m so happy to read that you have got to a better place and that gives me hope. I did sound pretty young and desperate in that post, not sure if mid-40’s is considered young, but I’m so scared that I’ll not recover from what I’ve done. Yesterday was 100% panic and withdrawal and just felt like I was losing my mind. I wouldn’t wish this on anyone. But, I made it through the day and ended up feeling a little better by last night.
Today I will keep busy with family and try to give my panic brain a rest…exhausting to worry and feel like I’m going crazy alone. I need to face this and I know if I don’t start being honest with at least one person I’ll still be hiding and protecting my addiction.
I’m not sure how I’ll handle the debt payback. It’s so overwhelming, and I know it’s truly going to be one day at a time. I’ll continue to attend the GA meetings and I’ll check out the facilitated group you suggested above, thank you so much.
