[Briana]

Thank you for responding! 🙂 I am wanting advice as far as coping skills, what has helped others. Getting into sports? reading? Meditation? things like that. Sorry, I did not exactly say that 🙁
I struggle the most with the fight in my head… I know like lying, deflecting, all the classic signs of him gambling. What about the attention to other women?… is that a normal thing for addicts? or is that the REAL person. The thought that this whole relationship could be a lie, makes me so sad and mad. Did he have just small moments of clarity like when he purposed? .. it is questions like these that drive me nuts. This fight in my head of he loved me.. no, he didn’t, he loves the casino. Just last week he told me he loves me, then 24hrs later he said that he no longer loves me. That has been happening on a weekly basis.
I do have a brother that struggled with a gambling addiction but after he joined the Navy, he was no longer fighting that fight, and has not gambled since. My mom has dealt with it also, and when my step dad found out how much she had spent, he told her if it continues he will leave her, so she stopped. She went to one GA meeting and never gambled again. Everything that is going on is a blur, my head is like a blender with all these thoughts, questions, and feelings. Where do I begin to sort them out? I am truly lost.

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