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Great piece of advice. Looking at it this way makes me feel a lot better.

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2 months and still haven’t gambled since I decided to quit. Today I revised figures of my losses and actually it seems like it was a 10k loss in total. This is hitting me like a bus. But I’m rationalising and summoning my strength.
Since I quit gambling I’ve also made a few lifestyle changes – 10 fruit and veg per day, lots of exercise and less alcohol. I feel better but today I’m a bit down as I think about what I could have done with all that lost money.
I have to be forward facing. It’s my birthday soon and will receive some cash prezzies from around the family (1k total I’d say). I’m wondering if I should just tuck that money into my bank account and thereby fill some of the hole made by my losses, or spend the money on holidays.

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2 weeks free of gambling. Happy about this. I’ve had two nights including yesterday’s where I was gambling in my dreams, experiencing the euphoria and then the losses and then the ‘oh why did I gamble and break my commitment not to gamble’ ….. so I was actually relieved when I woke up that it was just a dream!

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Thanks for your answer. Yeah I know what you mean but up till now it’s helped me calm my urges.

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Still going good. Being excluded from all my gambling sites is a very helpful thing. Been out all weekend with friends partying and getting laid. Only negative is a high alcohol consumption but I do use alcohol as a crutch for gaining more confidence.

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So I played with play money and guess what won a big load and then went all the way down to 50% of what I started with. That’s been the story of the past 8 months but with real money! I’m feeling at peace right now. Good evening everyone 🙂

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Thank you for your comment. I’ve been reading through some of your journal. I got to end of November. Well done for that £1 a day charity initiative! How are you today? Best wishes.

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Damn I woke up this morning and while still in sleep haze had the urge to wager 100 on a spin n go poker game. Then I remembered that I’ve banned myself. And got very frustrated for a minute. Then back to sleep and when waking up properly thought thank goodness I have these blocks for not gambling in place!

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It’s gone ok, I’ve been watching a lot of Netflix with restless leg syndrome. Had to fix a laptop I’ve borrowed and whilst booting up each time trying new solutions, and the anticipation of it would work or not was a bit like the anticipation on roulette. One solution worked and I celebrated like when winning at roulette. Pfff not sure what to think. Happy lap top works again. ^^

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hey iQuit, yes indeed it was a good game. I actually had an urge somewhere near half time to bet on there being a red card. The ref was stressed out or smth and yellows were flying everywhere. Then someone messaged me; i was messaging 3 ppl during the game about the action. I forgot about the idea. Then pogba saw red. But yeah whatever, winning would have sucked me in. I just need to protect the cash i have!

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