[brenda01]

Hi jvr3419
Thank you for the kind words. I am trying. I am trying everyday to be accountable and responsible for my actions. I added up all my jackpots for the 2022 so far and filed a new w9 to have $50 extra federal $ withheld so I would t be back in the same boat as this year with owing the IRS.

Made me sick to see not only what I won and blew, but to think I now owe that much as well. It is the price I must pay. Right?

I haven’t had the urge to go back to the casino or even think about gambling on my phone. The memories of last week are still strong. That with the fact that I would be arrested if caught on any properties of the casinos scare me straight so to speak. I hope that feeling continues.

I am grateful to have other people on here that can help with support. It truly is a blessing. I don’t feel alone in this group.

[brenda01]

Kin

To see the quotes by professors and doctors is crazy! I imagine that had I ever looked up gambling addiction prior to last week, I would have seen the statistics. But I was hiding from the truth. The facts. The consequences.

Seeing these now makes me realize how deep I have fallen.

Thank you for giving me a couple of doses of reality today. It helps me to keep a level head.

[brenda01]

Thanks Kin the Autobiography of an Addict and Wolf Parable were both good reads. They made me stop and think.

As I have begun recovery of telling all my family and a few good friends, I think back to their responses. Interesting that a parable could make me see their faces in my mind after I told them. The first night, I saw no faces because I couldn’t bear to look in my husbands eyes or my sons eyes.

Days have gotten clearer and clearer to me. I pray the Serenity Prayer my son gave me every morning and several times they the day.

Reading other peoples stories helps immensely. Others around me don’t have the understanding of how this could happen so reading other peoples stories make me feel like somebody out there hears me.

[brenda01]

Hello! I have been following your posts since I signed up on this site. I have posted my first journal entry and now just waiting on my post to be checked by the moderator.

I am thankful for this site. There are so many people like me on this site. It makes me feel at home because I have to face it, I am in a boat of addiction to gambling alone. There are not even meetings for gamblers within 75 miles that I have found. Thankful I have online help.

Best of luck to you and thank you for inspiring me to stay accountable!

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