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Day 11 complete. I’m feeling pretty good mentally. Enjoying the time off from work, trying to keep busy. My area has gone back under lockdown for COVID which is a bummer. Things worked well in the warmer months when going outside on a routine basis was an option. Just trying not to be stationary these days.

Have my first meeting with the counsellor in the afternoon. Interested to be a part of that conversation for sure. Actually kind of looking forward to it now.

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I’m off work for the holidays now which is great. Going to definitely enjoy some time to myself during the day for the week. Focused on the holidays and Christmas shopping and supporting my wife while she finishes up the last week of work for herself.

Another day in the works.

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Over a week in and into day 8 today. I have my first meeting with a counsellor scheduled for this coming Wednesday. Things are slowly returning to normal around the house, but I realize that it’s just on the surface. There is a lot of work to be done on my end to earn my family’s trust back.

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Appreciate the kind words @sunny.
I got a call back from a counsellor in my area. Hopefully can be in touch for a 1 on 1 sometime next week. Looking forward to having a conversation with a professional. Not sure what to expect to be honest. Another small step in the right direction.

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Thanks Charles,

Appreciate the support and I agree. I think writing it down gives a sense of continuity. The weekend is coming up, plan to definitely spend some quality time with my wife and keep working on mending that trust portion of our relationship. We’ll be able to have some 1 on 1 time which will definitely be helpful. Its taking time, but day by day things are turning for the better in that aspect.

I haven’t had any urge to really look or play in any sense. Just taking it day by day and excited to keep moving forward.

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Day 5 in the books. Relatively straightforward day. Just trying to continue keeping myself occupied during down time. I don’t think boredom/downtime is a real trigger for me. Not sure if anyone games but Cyberpunk 2077 launched today so I’m expecting that to be kind of a time sink. Otherwise, not much has changed in the first week.

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Thanks for the kind words @sunny and @G Rec!

Yea really miss playing actually, glad ive gotten back into it. Other then that, just trying to re-establish some normalcy in the day to day activities at home. Its getting better day by day but obviously just a drop in the bucket in ultimately earning my families trust back.

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Day 3 and the work week is here so that usually helps keep the mind off things, less a distraction from gambling and more a distraction for feeling shitty in putting my wife in a bad position. Reached out to a local counsellor for addiction services in my hometown so we’ll see how that goes, but I imagine it cant do anything but help. Looking forward to the chat to be honest.

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Day 2 is nearly complete. The wounds with my family are still fresh so its been difficult to make any head way with my wife. She is obviously and visibly upset and disappointed with the entire situation.

I’m confident that I can stay away from gambling and truly believe that it can happen as long as I take advantage of the resources available to me. Calling a counsellor tomorrow, which is a step in the right direction.

It was football Sunday and usually a time where I am on my phone more often. Tried to avoid that today. Occupied some time getting back into chess, inspired by The Queen’s Gambit on Netflix. I recommend people watch. Among other things it does deal with substance abuse.

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