Thank you for your long and considerate reply. I have self-excluded from the sites and also told my OH. She took it very well. Luckily this amount isn’t completely life changing and is fairly easy to regain, I sure am glad this happened to me now rather then years down the line.
It may just be me trying to justify it but I’m feeling a lot more motivation at work today and in life in general, which is new. I’ve always been pretty miserable hung on life pointlessness. But today I feel different.
I feel this was needed, personally, this is now the first time since education I’ve gone to work needing the money, it feels like I have a purpose now. Can’t say I like the feeling that goes with it.
We have some expenses to cover in 3-5 months and we should still be fine. I’m hoping my OH will be supportive enough to not let others know, or is that really a bad thing?