[bettie]

Well guys, must be a theme running here.
Got a phone call from an old boyfriend today. He had emailed me yesterday as he basicly demanded that I do him a favor and pick up some chewing tobacco , 3 bags, and bring them to him, and to call him as soon as I got the email.
To heck with that. I hit the delete button. He calls on my cell, while I was at work, and leaves a massage. Uh Bettie, this is xxxx, i don’t know if you picked up your email but I requested that u call me when u got it. I’ve made arrangements to go out tomorrow and pick my stuff up myself, so you don’t need to be bothered.
I called him back on my lunch hour. He wouldn’t pick up. I left him a message. Hi XXX this is bettie. You called me at work, on my cell. I had a customer and couldn’t pick up. No, I didn’t get your email. I was out all day yesterday. Sorry that  couldn’t do you a favor in a timely mannor.
What a jerk! I here from him when he wants something. I think back to the years we were together and man, he’s never done a thing to inconvience himself for me. The last time I saw him he was so rude to me I stayed about 10 minutes and left. He calls when he wants $$, wants food, want "companionship". When has he ever called me to watch a movie, share a meal ( That I didn’t bring or cook ), or just to shoot the breese.
I am sick of these people. I guess i will spend even more time alone so I better learn to like me! lol!
peace
bettie

[bettie]

Good Monday Morning!
Should be working out but too tired, lazy, and depressed. I will have lots of coffee and get moving. I am done with the hormone therapy, compleat waste of time. Has not helped in any way shape or form. I am so full of fluid I don’t even know what I can wear to work untill the swelling goes down. I took measurements yesterday and i weigh almost the same as 2 years ago this time but I am 5 inches bigger around my waist and hips! No wonder my clothes don’t fit!
My brain is on pity party mode and I want to gamble. My ex gambling buddy called yesterday. She claims she called my cell to invite me to some big party Sauturday but it went to voice mail and she didn’t leave a message. Thats some BS as she said a few more things, she left a message, didn’t leave a message, just a lot of double talk. Bottom line, she didn’t include me but found it necessary to tell me about the good time she had. I didn’t question what she had to say, didn’t stand up for myself, for fear of chasing off my "friend". It’s a shame the female relationships in my life are not much different than the male ones. It’s me, something so wrong with me, that I attract such users and I just accept it because it’s better than being alone. Like I was all weekend.
I wish my "higher power" would fix that for me as I don’t know what to do about it, my defect, that attracts users and prevents me from finding true friends, male or female. You all are NOT included in this statement, but cyber friendships may be the start I need, social skill that I am missing somehow, that make me like I am.
just thinking out loud
peace
bettie

[bettie]

Larry,
Sometimes "low tech" is much better than "high tech". Great message and the candle worked fine!
lol!
bettie

[bettie]

Morning all!
Wish I was in bed asleep but I have to get ready for work. They are having a picknic after work and I can’t get out of it so I have to go.
Went to GA last night. I guess thay work a step a month in the meeting. We looked at step 8 , list those your gambling has harmed and be willing to make amends. This one is tough, and I guess they all will be, but thought provoking. I know part of my gambling is due to my abandoment issues. They left home, left town, etc. I used them as an excuse (blaming) to gamble but "harm" them? I’m not so sure. I never stole $$ to gamble. I did borrow to cover debt but have repaid all loans. I did steal from myself and abused my credit cards, In that sence I stole, but unless i win the lotto, which won’t happen because i don’t gamble anymore, I couldn’t possibly repay that debt.
Oh well, I’m no where near that step so i will put it on the back burner, and cross that bridge when i get there.
got to get ready for work. Catch u all later!
peace
bettie

[bettie]

Hi Guys,
Woke at 6am with a hot flash, yuck! It’s over but now i need to rush and get ready for work. I don’t feel like it, want to go back to bed now. Head hurts, hungry. 
Gonna try to make GA tonight. 
Catch u all on the chat.
peace
bettie 

[bettie]

Hi K,
Hope u had a fun, well deserved night out! Swam tonight and I am pooped !
Hope to catch u on the weekend!
peace
bettie
 

[bettie]

Hey Larry,
What if i told u i could see the post?
Well, i would be lying but it would be funny!
Darn pixies!
peace
bettie

[bettie]

Vera,
Had to think 2x, what cat story?? LOL!!! Hehehehehehehehe! Still laughing, "thousands wouldn’t", oh don’t make me laugh like that! My side is hurting now!
Trust me, if some olympic event had taken place I wouldn’t have posted about it! lol!
How does one pretty much sprain an ankle, with out dammaging their foot, in their sleep??
I am sure the issue with the (ungrateful, lucky ) child is very normal. Me and my daughter get that way from time to time, she tells me I am acting just like my mom, which really burns me! Oh well, gotta love ‘um!
enjoy the rest of your trip, silly girl!
bettie

[bettie]

Hi Guys,
Pain from ankle is gone, still a little swolen but I’ll take the pain relief any day!
Just staying busy, trying not to think about "you know what" but it’s a challenge.
No $$ = No Gamble
bettie

[bettie]

I don’t know p, any more we are getting to be "CHATter boxes" lol!
Well today was interesting. Woke up with pain in my ankle, ouch! I don’t know what I did but by this afternoon it was really swolen and hurt to walk on, like a sprain. ( Get your minds out of the gutter, I slept with the cat last night, lol!)
Anyway, I had a customer who professed to be a healer and she prayed over my ankle and laied hands on me. Hey, I believe people have gifts so what the heck! It hurt all day, I wrapped it in an ace bandage and put a cold pack on it when I got home.
Know what? It doesn’t hurt so much and I think the swelling is going down. Hummmmmmmmmmmmm………
If it works I’m gonna get a whole body hug from the lady and see what happens!
So when do you stop thinking about gambling? It’s wednesday night, trigger time again. Little urges but they pass. guess my mind is still programed that it’s "boat" night. Well, some day….
peace
bettie
 

[bettie]

Hi Guys,
Yes, i mailed off my letter to the casino. Some where in my cg mind I could here a wisper, "they don’t know u banned, u could go". Well stick a pin in that balloon, it’s popped now!
Therese, I did forget I could get them fined, you are in such a state when u ban all u really see is that u can’t go back. What a mess it’s going to be if they leagalize video slots/poker in the bars in Illinois.I don’t know what i’ll do but cross that one if i have to. Thanks for the info, at this point i would like to get a little payback to them! lol!
Thanks for the support and well wishes! I am just overwelmed with stress from work, the little weekly "what are u doing to get some business in here" speech makes me cringe!
Gonna read, take a quick shower and hope to catch the next chat tonight.
peace
bettie– 8/5/2010 8:51:39 PM: post edited by bettie.

[bettie]

Oi irc,
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espero que seu pc esteja melhor!
bettie

[bettie]

Xin chào Irc,
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hy vọng máy tính của bạn là tốt hơn!
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[bettie]

Здравей Ирк,
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дано компютърът ти е по -добър!
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[bettie]

Hallo Irc,
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hoop dat je pc beter is!
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