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Hey Larry,
You paitence is being paid back with a reward! See, good things do happen for those who wait! And thank you, all in all i am doing well.
Hope to catch u on a chat soon!
peace
bettie

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9 days and counting Larry!
Just thinking about u, hope things are progressing along.
Peace
bettie

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Well Kathryn,
Congrats on the promotion from CG to FACALITATOR!!!
What a Treat! 1 whole hour of Kathryns wit wnd wisdom!
I am like a proud mom! lol!
U go Girl!!!!
bettie

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your wish is my command, lol!
insomnia, but what a treat! got to see u and KATHRYN, HOSTING!!
WOW!!!
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Hi Guys,
Oh, i am so sick to my stomach! My niece had a house warming party yesterday and we had a fire and drank beer and wine. Note to self, don’t mix drinks stupid! I almost drank enough to tell her about my cg. Glad i stopped and sobered up. Drunk and runnng off at the mouth, not attractive!
Off to my brothers to celebrate Halloween give out candy and eat turkey. That was his idea, the turkey, but sounds good and i don’t have to cook so it works for me.
Planned to dress in a mini and scare small children ( and big ones too, lol!), don’t know if i’m up for it, we’ll see.
peace
bettie

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Leg feels ok so i could run a couple of miles however I would fall over!.Dr gave me steroids for 6 days, my sugar is up, my head pounding! I want to go to my ga meeting however i am a bit afraid to drive the car!
Oh well I’ll tough it out if i can but this has to get better soon.
Nancy, sorry u got knocked off the chat, that seems to be happening alot. ( not u, lol, chat issues)
Wish we had a chance to talk.
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Hi K,
Just checking in. Hope your weekend is restful. Do you celebrate Halloween there? I saw on the tv where Ireland started the Jack-O-Lantern tradition by putting candles in turnups to scare off evil spitits.
Wonder if they were ear wax candles??
Hope to catch u on the chat this weekend!
peace
bettie

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Made some positive steps today. Why do they have to be painful?
 

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Tx P’
Very frustrating, go for leg pain and they x ray my back! ( If I said my butt hurt maybe they will x ray my head! lol!)He thinks pinched nerve to so i have 3 rx to fill ( more $$) then physical therapy, ( even more $$). Well, this was 2nd opinion so time to give it a go.
Called lawyer, said we didn’t confirm appt, what ever! Rescheduled for Monday, she is on her own!
peace
bettie

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Hi guys,
G, that stupid lawyer was not there when we got there! We even called 10 minutes before the appt and got no answer! See thats what u get for paying upfront! Wait till I call them today!
Got an early appt for the dr so I have to run. well maybe not "run".I hope he has a suggestion or some advice about this leg, just feeling fat and lazy. I really want to get back to working out but don’t want to make this worse. I am sure he will send me for tests so I don’t expect too much today. Hope to get on some groups later today.
peace
bettie

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Hi Guys,
DD, I so wish I were going with you! Thanks for the invite, I’ll be the chubby blonde with the wide hat off in the corner reading a romance novel. (peeling the onion makes you cry, fyi! lol!)
Miss P, so nice to see you in the chat! As I said, I don’t care if you are 2 days, 2 hours or 2 minutes "clean", you are always welcome here! Do what you have to do, keep at it P, you will find something to help but "yagottowantadoit"!
I was on a chat and someone said an urge really only lasts 7 minutes and if we can get past that we can move on. Another mentioned a support team, constisting of a ga sponser, a supervisor, and a friend, someone for daily accountability and keeping busy, be it class, dinner dates, whatever. This guy has been "clean" since 1999, can you imagine that? 11 years without the crazy life! Wow, what a "lucky" guy!
I slept 5 hours last night and I am wide awake. I have to meet my daughter at the lawyers today after work. I hope she has all her paperwork together and gets a date for her bankrupcy. She needs to move on and start a financial recovery of her own.
The windy city was true to it’s name yesterday. I was fortunate it was just south and north of here, seemed to go around us for the most part. It did clear the leaves from my parking spot and knocked around the trees but miminal all in all esp since it could have been so much worse.
Off to work!
peace
bettie

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Hey Larry,
Nice to see your post. Talk about "working" your recovery! Having to sit in a cafe’ to come here takes effort, esp when we get spoiled having the internet at home. Yet another blessing we sometimes take for granted.
Hope your place is feeling more like home.
peace
bettie

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Hi Guys,
Oh Monday, you are done for another week. OK, new gripe. I am calling an orthopeidic dr tomorrow, as this pain in my leg has progressed from uncomfortable to painful. I am afraid I have torn something. Funny, it doesn’t really hurt to walk, even in heals, but let me get out of a chair or walk up the stairs, OUCH!
The "landlord" managed to run into me in the parking lot as I arrived to work. Hey, how are you? Can you let me in the bank. Cr*p, I really didn’t want to talk to him but he was two feet behind me, asking me how my weekend went and so on. He was walking into the bank telling me I looked nice as I proceeded into the back room to get away from him. Maybe he will get the message that I really don’t care what he has to say, and too bad I was so distracted, I should have asked him if "my face" was ok today.
peace
bettie

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Hey Guys,
I caught this post on another posting support group. The ladys name is Carol. She got this from a group for adult children of alcholics. This is (was) me, guess it applies to other addictions too.
"We either become alcoholics,(I add GAMBLING) marry them or both, or find another compulsive personality such as a workaholic to fulfill our sick abandonment needs.

We live life from the viewpoint of victims and we are attracted by that weakness in our love and friendship relationships.

We have an overdeveloped sense of responsibility and it is easier for us to be concerned with others rather than ourselves; this enables us not to look too closely at our own faults, etc.

We get guilt feelings when we stand up for ourselves instead of giving in to others.

We became addicted to excitement.

We confuse love and pity and tend to "love" people we can "pity" and "rescue."

We have "stuffed" our feelings from our traumatic childhoods and have lost the ability to feel or express our feelings because it hurts so much (Denial).

We judge ourselves harshly and have a very low sense of self-esteem.

We are dependent personalities who are terrified of abandonment and will do anything to hold on to a relationship in order not to experience painful abandonment feelings, which we received from living with sick people who were never there emotionally for us."
 
Knowing the problem is half the battle. I have a lot to digest here.
peace
bettie
 

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U , Cully, Make me smile!
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